Part Eleven
By: Kat
Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to Dawson's Creek. This is only for recreational purposes, people!
Rating: PG-13
Amanda woke up in the middle of the night to find Pacey still lying next to her on the couch. She was quite uncomfortable and could tell that Pacey was, too.
"Pacey. Pacey, wake up."
Pacey moaned quietly and shifted a little. But he didn't wake up.
"Pacey. Pacey, it's me, Joey."
"Joey, go back to sleep. It's too early."
Amanda was shocked. He really believed she was Joey. She decided to try something else to see if his subconscious would talk to "Joey" a little more.
"I love you."
She prayed his answer would be no.
"Love you, too."
Amanda's heart broke. *He still loves her.* She shoved him and his eyes opened. He smiled sleepily at her.
"Hey."
"Pacey, we need to talk."
"Sure. 'Bout what?"
"Joey."
Pacey frowned.
"Right now?"
"Yes, Right now."
"Okay."
"Do you still love her?"
Pacey bit his lip and looked down.
"You do. Damn it. Why?"
"I don't know."
"I need a little more than that."
"Because.... Because I.... You wouldn't understand."
"Try me."
"Because I loved her for so long. She was it. Ever since I was fifteen. And when you love someone for that long it doesn't just go away. I waited for a very long time. And I felt so guilty when Dawson died, because I was secretly happy. And now I wish he was still here. That didn't come out right."
"You missed him, but Joey was yours."
Pacey nodded sadly.
"Dawson always had everything. And the one thing I really wanted, he had. And now, I feel sorry for resenting him because of that. And I feel like a horrible person for wanting Joey at all."
"You aren't a horrible person, Pacey."
"Yes, I am. I've been lucky enough to find you and now..."
"The love of your life came back."
"Yeah."
"Well, I guess there's only one thing for me to do."
"What's that?"
"I have to leave, Pacey. I'm not one to stand in the way of true love."
She stood up and so did Pacey. He grabbed her hand.
"But I love you, too."
"I'm sorry, Pacey. You want to do the right thing, so here's your chance. If you stay with me, you'd be a horrible person, and so would I."
She kissed his cheek and avoided his eyes as she grabbed her things.
"Don't worry about me. I'll find another place to stay."
"I love you, Manda."
"Good-bye, Pacey."
END OF PART ELEVEN
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