These poems are organized from the most recent to the oldest, based on my view that my poetry is much better now than it was five years ago. Take what you like and leave the rest. These poems span six years. Many of the poems from 2002 were written during the year I was in Japan.
I think
My soul recognized yours.
Is that why I can�t sleep?
Thinking of you, of us, of a long, delightful conversation
That reminds me
Of other beginnings.
You see the flaws
I see the man
Who looks like the embodiment of every man
I�ve ever wanted
Was I waiting for you?
Is that why I desired them?
Because
Somewhere in my heart
I had a picture of you?
Experiences
Lives
So similar
I understand you
And you understand me
In ways that few others can.
And yet your life, so difficult
Your tragedies, so harsh
That I can only thank heaven
That you are here today.
In my mind, I don�t know you- yet.
In my heart, I have loved you
For longer than I ever knew.
Is that the cause of confusion
That banishes sleep?
With a gift of rings, interwoven
You have captured my heart
Beating wildly, thrilling in the capture.
(2005)
I will tread carefully along this path
Making of myself a refuge
For you.
I am so afraid of scaring you away.
I want to do everything
Everything
Perfectly.
I want you to come, lovingly and willingly, to me.
I will not grab
Sitting on my hands
Letting you choose to love, if you will.
And if you fly away from me,
Oh elegant black-winged bird
I will mourn your absence.
But to trap you, or cage you
To keep you unwillingly
Would be a greater crime.
Hoping
That you will love me.
(2005)
A smile
A caress
A kiss
Building on one another
You fill me
Soft, whispered sounds
My name, a sigh of pleasure
Your voice running over my soul smooth
Like your hands over my body
Home, now
Body throbbing, a reminder
I smile,
Remembering
Looking forward
To when next we meet.
(2005)
Question
Your demeanor- unreadable.
I was myself-
And now
I wonder:
Do you like who I am?
(2005)
Thoughts After A First Date
Good conversation
in a romantic garden
A fun meal
with a new friend.
Walking downtown
paying more attention to one another
than our surroundings.
Those awkward little moments-
trying to cram a lifetime of information
into a few hours.
The things we really want to know-
Too personal, yet, to ask.
Is this the beginning of a long journey
or a short detour off the main track?
What would it be like to share
a kiss
with you?
Will I find out?
(2005)
I thought of you
When I woke up this morning
Lay in bed, and imagined you here with me
This morning,
I thought of you.
I thought of you
This afternoon, at work
Paused for a moment, and pictured you, working
This afternoon,
I thought of you.
I'm thinking of you
Now
Writing, and waiting for tonight, when we will meet
Now,
I'm thinking of you.
(2005)
I�ve never known anyone
Quite like you.
I see a
-Carefully-
-Controlled-
Passion
Peeking out from time to time.
I want to make you wild for me
Want to make you lose that
-Careful-
-Control-
Leaving
Passion.
I want to hear the soft sounds you make
When we kiss
When your body and mine
Hunger together
For more, more, more.
Tongues, lips meeting, melding
Sliding over one another
In a dance that leaves me shaking.
Holding hands, surreptitious touches-
Treading carefully on the brink;
Not daring- quite- to cross the edge.
Your control makes me wild.
With bated breath I await
The final moment
When we will cross the line
And leap together.
(2005)
You�re wooing me
With invisible cutlery
Showroom furniture (complete with tags)
Chinese Gardens
Listening
Talking
Devastatingly erotic kisses
Good movies
Your brain
Patience and honesty
Light little touches
Love of family
Tales of hair dye
Designer pasta
Sexy eyewear
Internet cafes
Subtlety
Please-
Don�t stop.
(2005)
I didn�t want to wash you off-
Wanted your scent and presence
To linger on my skin and in my body
The way thoughts of you lingered in my mind
The way I lingered in bed, feet curling in childish glee;
Remembering every detail of our night together.
(2005)
Call Me If You Need Me
You said,
�Call me if you need me.�
Well what am I waiting for?
I should be on the phone now
And always
Because it�s not a question of �if�
(2005)
My sweet angel
Thinking of you
Day and night
Remembering the time we spent
Wrapped in each other�s arms,
Longing, once again, for that love and closeness.
I wait, with dreamy eyes and yearning heart
For you.
(2002)
Faith
I think of all the women
Who filled your heart with fear
And made it so hard
For you to give your trust.
Yet here I am, asking once again,
That you give your faith away
And I know that you are trying hard,
Though your heart trembles.
I want to rage at those heartless women
Who trampled on my rose
Who threw away a diamond
And ground it into dust.
But in a strange way, I thank them
That they were blind to what
I can so plainly see.
I will not trample on my rose.
I treasure my diamond,
And hold it close to me always.
Fear not, my love.
Time will prove
what words cannot say.
(2002)
Cara mia
Never were truer words spoken
My heart
Alma mia
It was never said so well
My soul
Believe
In me,
And in my love for you.
It will outlast the stars in the sky,
And can surely stand
A few lonely months.
(2002)
My angel
I look at your picture
and dream about you
a million times a day
wishing you were here
waiting for you
hoping
that you will wait for me.
Your voice
Your kind eyes
Your gentle touch
I long for all of these
so much
that it makes my heart ache.
Please, wait for me
and though these days, weeks, months
seem like a million years
do not forget
that you are my one and only love.
(2002)
Yours to Keep
When we first met, I was afraid,
Of the closeness we might find,
And of the pain that it could cause.
But your kindness, gentleness, and goodness
Drew my heart before long, and I gave it to you
To keep.
Though we are now parted, by a great distance,
Our feelings remain the same,
Because my heart is with yours.
I am not asking for it back, but just for you
To take care of yourself, because in doing so you
are taking care of my heart.
(2002)
When you are here,
my heart dances,
my body rejoices,
my soul sings.
I want nothing more than to lay with you, just to rest,
and feel your heartbeat, your closeness, you.
I want nothing more than to be with you,
to wake up to you early in the morning,
to fall asleep in your arms.
I want to talk with you about everything
and hear your voice,
laughing,
talking,
and the sound of your breathing.
I worship your smooth, beautiful skin,
your shapely, wonderful hands,
your eyes, so filled with joy,
your body, so perfect.
I fit myself into the curves of your body,
resting my arm on your chest,
snuggling my head into the crook of your shoulder.
I love your warmth,
your humor,
your intelligence,
and your soul.
I love you.
(1999)