Lord, Grant Me The Freedom…
Part 1
“Freedom is nothing
else but a chance to do better.”
Albert Camus
Jarod stared
at the gray cement wall in front of him until the door clanged behind him and
he spun around in time to hear the bolts being rammed into place. The small
trapdoor opened momentarily and a pair of eyes looked in, glancing once into
his face before sliding away and disappearing as the flap was closed. Jarod
turned back to the smooth, flat wall and, walking forward, placed his palms
onto the cool surface. He gently leant forward until his hot forehead rested on
the concrete. With an almost inaudible moan, he turned and allowed his back to
rest against the solid support, finally sliding down until he was sitting on
the floor of the room, his head resting on his arms and his legs pulled up to
his chest.
The clothes
he wore were nondescript and baggy. He pulled numbly at them, unbelieving of
the fact that they existed. Finally he looked around the small room. A bed
stood against one wall; a hard, ungiving surface, difficult for a guilty man to
bear, let alone an innocent one.
The sink, a
white and gleaming object, seemed out of place in the grayness. A toilet bowl
stood next to it. It had once been silver but the years had tarnished the metal
and it seemed to reflect the lack of color in the room.
Suddenly, as
Jarod was about to hide his eyes from the starkness, a ray of light flashed in
through the window and fell onto the floor at his feet. The light was
reddening, showing the passing of another day. The clearly defined vertical
lines made him shudder and he began to tremble, uncontrollably and violently. A
feeling of nausea began to make itself felt and Jarod crawled on his knees over
to the toilet and brought up the one meal he had eaten that day.
Miss Parker
stood in front of the desk and threw the package down onto the flat, shiny
surface.
“Another
present from the lab rat.” Her voice was almost snarling but Sydney managed to
detect the note of fear deep within it.
“Have you
talked with your father?” Although it was phrased as a question, the statement
required no real answer. The response was not verbal but a glance that warned
Sydney away from the topic and from her private life, as she saw it. Sydney had
often shaken his head in wonder at her ignorance, and at the fact that she had
never worked out that life for people involved with the Centre was never
private.
As he
watched, she turned away and abruptly left the room. He turned back to his desk
and picked up the package she had left on it. Sydney had no real hope that it
would turn out to be a clue to Jarod’s location. Obviously Miss Parker had come
to the same conclusion, or she would not have left so suddenly.
The doors
burst open, announcing Miss Parker’s arrival into the Tech Room in SL-5 and he
occupants looked up quickly before rapidly returning to their work. She walked
over and stood behind Broots, who rapidly became increasingly agitated.
“Well,
anything?”
“N...not
yet.”
“God, Broots.
There has to be something. It’s been three weeks and we haven’t heard
anything.”
“But there
isn’t anything!” His desire to make her understand made him suddenly
articulate. “We’ve looked everywhere, even exploring new areas. There’s just no
sign.”
“It’s not
acceptable.” A new voice, hoarse and wheezing, broke into the conversation.
“Failure in this task is not acceptable.”
Broots heard
Miss Parker gradually draw in a deep breath before she slowly and deliberately
turned to face the newcomer. “Well, unless you can come up with a better idea,
failure or lack of success is just something you’ll have to put up with. After
all, your most recent idea of bringing in Lyle and Brigitte didn’t appear to be
very successful.”
“They were
expendable, Miss Parker,” Raines wheezed, his fury making it more difficult
than usual to speak. “And you’re expendable, too. Don't you forget that.”
Miss Parker
stepped towards him and watched with a gleam in her eye as he instinctively
backed away. “If you have a better idea, let’s hear it. Broots, here, is doing
what he can, and I’m doing everything I can. Believe me, you’re not the only
person who wants him back here.” She watched as he nodded slightly and rapidly
walked away.