That would be what I look like when I'm wondering what I've gotten myself into.



My first year of teaching starts in a little over a week and so far I'm not that prepared. I've already started the coaching, I now have a week of practices under my belt, and a group of girls that I think could really be awesome, if only they weren't so girly (by that I mean, if only they weren't so gossipy, catty, and convinced that they are the most important people in the world). Ha, that makes them sound bad. Really, they're a good group of girls, I just hope they can learn to accept each other, it always works out better for a team when they're friendly.



As for the teaching? People keep asking me if I'm excited. Honestly? No! I'm freaked. I haven't planned any lessons (that's what this weekend and next week are for), my classroom still doesn't feel like my classroom (although I think it helped that tonight I spent a couple hours rearranging it), and I still don't feel like a teacher.  I'm guessing that only comes with experience.



So far, I'm not to thrilled with my principal.  She's SO negative!  She called me this morning to tell me to take everything "with a grain of salt" from this girl on my team.  Her reasoning?  Tiffany (the girl in question) dropped out of another school and fell into the wrong crowd.  Ok, I could maybe see the principal's point if Tiffany were still like this, but she's not.  She seems like a really nice girl.  She's a good volleyball player, friendly and courteous to the other girls (who treat her as a bit of an outsider), she made sure I knew what was going on when she got sick and was not able to make it to practice.  She went back to school!  I mean, really, how many kids do you know that drop out and actually admit they were stupid, and go back to finish their education?  Not many.  In my book, this girl is on the right track and I'm not going to second guess her because of what she's done in the past.  Everyone deserves a second chance to turn everything around.  I refuse to judge my students/players before they have given me a reason to.  It's my way of trying to be a fair, non-judgemental, nice person.  So sue me.



One thing I think is going to be hard for me during my first year (and I hate to have to say this before the school year has even officially begun), is being around the principal.  Negative attitudes are hard to be around when you're trying to be a positive person.  She's perfectly nice to me, but my impression of her so far is one of those people who think they are right about everything and everyone.  I'll just have to make sure to keep in mind that I'm not like that.



Well, I'm tired, and trying to get on a decent schedule for the school year.  Night all.