Crazy Times
Wow! In less than 2 weeks I will be a senior! That is just so crazy to me! Right now I am at Lyssa's house and we are watching quick clips...yay! As of right now it looks like I am going to Yuba City High which should be rad but I am kinda scared...people can be mean! lol Anyhoo...I think lately I am realizing that all the people that I thought where so incredible are shallow and selfish and wow...people are lame...I am just glad that I am not the one who has make out partners with no commitment and go partying to satisfy my meaningless driven life. yesh. so now I am done. Rooney was just on ahh I love music!
Friends?
Alyssa is the most incredible friend ever! We are getting even closer (if that is possible hehe) and I love that we care about each others opinions and we are protective of each other...and sometimes we can be brutally honest...but yet...we understand that sometimes we just need to be stupid and have fun and not judge each other..I love it...this past year I lost 2 very close best friends. In a way it was my choice to let them go...but also theirs...now even more so it was their choice. I tried being just friends...but when I would go out of my way to see them and be nice...they seemed like it didn't even phase them. All they cared about was getting back to each other. I never knew I could be hurt sooo much by someone I confided my whole life in. All I know is that...they are fake to me. They live in their own illusion world where no one exists but them and no ones feelings exists but their own...and they LOVE each other..like they know what that is...I am sick of everyone making excuses for them....they need to grow up and learn how to live w/o each other as their crutch! Grr...this subject pisses me off! Some day I will get all my thoughts about them and spill exactly what I think about them....then maybe they will really see how annoying and obsessed they are!
Seniors 04
yay for me! well...so yea i went to yuba city for 2 days...lol i really liked it...but going all day is sooo not for me...so i went back to my old school...why not....i mean i have tons of friends there..and i spent last year there...i want consistency (sp?) so yea i love it....and it's great...and i have the best best friends ever! yay! lol....yea...i am giving this whole GOD thing another try....but i am so hesitant....i don't want people to think they can just speak into my life again and condem me....ya know? well...yea..that is how i feel... alyssa, michelle, and i are going on a rad senior trip....hopefully to new york...or la....or something totally great.....yay! well...i don't have anything to say! i gotta go!
so yea i think that parents can be so stupid sometimes! lol..part of growing up is letting me make mistakes and learn from them..and if they are gunna try to keep me from ever making mistakes how will i ever know what i really think is right or wrong? just a random thought...anyways....i hate change...normally...but ever since friday of last week...the change in my life has been great....let's just say...i am not in the N.B.K. club anymore....and i didn't expect that to ever happen! lol...but hey i am having fun and it's totally not how i imagined it....anyhoo...yea....we'll see what happens...and who knows maybe this year i will have a date for prom! lol haha! seeing as how i have one hot dress! and i will look hot in it so....you know? haha juss kiddin