| This page is unlike all the rest of my peom pages in that it doesn't just contain one poem. Recently I've come to a realization that I tend to go for guys that use me, weather they know it or not, as thier rebound girl. It's been a fairly painful lesson to learn, let me tell you. Anyway, after my most recent breakup I wrote a series of peoms. A few of them I wouldn't even consider real poetry, more just a way for me to heal through my writing. I say this because as you read on, you might be a little disturbed at the brashness, if that's even a word, of the things that I'm saying. Let me tell you right now that the hurt that is expressed is really an exaggeration, I don't want people thinking that I regret these past relationships at all. Now that I've been able to write this, I've healed, and am a much stronger person because of it. I descided to put them all on my website as a final ending point, in the hopes that I have moved on and can now be the friend that these boys hope to have, in me. |
| The one I wrote when I thought I first fell in love... Who knows, maybe it really was love. Life in Progress We sat in the yellow silence you and I spent from an afternoon of discovering each other; excessive conversation led to so much more than planned. Down where the sun and the sea allow their first kiss And the day becomes and abstract memory. Haven't you heard that I'm going to be ok. everythings perfect and for once in my life I believe in love You were the red dot On the pristine white wall that is my life. And from that the color spread like wildfire I was beautiful in your eyes And it changed me you gave me that. |
| The one I wrote when we first broke up... You left me for a woman who left you years ago she stole your heart and never gave it back and I was the fool who bought into your beauty. But for you it's hard to love me when your heart lies somewhere deap in the heart of SBWI So I sit and wate for the day when you realize what you're too consumed in self to see that she didn't steal your heart at all She merely gave you permission to love me. |
| It was a moment in time That you can't take back The day I fell in love with you And as I drove home, I sighed at each and everyone of the miles between us. A fools paradise disguised as my genie in her broken bottle of dreams I was singing to find melody for two when I knew all along that pillows can't hold you back. So I put my past in a box the day you fell out of love with me. resigned to the fact that it all fades in time. I bought fresh raspberries and ate a whole box sucking my fingers and thinking of you. |
| Saying goodby to the man I loved is going to take more than a few words on the page. I keep smelling things to see if they smell like you but then I wake up and realize that other boys are cute but you were the one the first You hold a piece of me now A present from me that I don't want back. They say breakups are like death only worse because the people you loose sick around. So I love you from afar in my own little world resigned to the fact that It'll never really go away. And for some reason, I don't want it to. |
| I wasn't pretty enough I wasn't smart enough I wasn't thin enough I said I love you too soon I didn't laugh enough They say you should never frown becuase you never know when someone's falling in love with your smile maybe that's it maybe I frowned too much maybe there was someone else maybe I was just a rebound girl maybe he thought it'd be fun to get a virgin in bed. A thousand excuses A thousand more questions that will never be answered because the truth is he's gone and he's not coming back. Maybe it was none of these things maybe not. |
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| Updated: Jan 11 '05 |