No Escape

There's no place to go

No way to escape

Him touching her

Intimate, Sweet

Not me, Never me

Jealousy

I never thought myself jealous

but I see now I am

I can't escape it

I can't escape here

There is nowhere to go

I've slept myself out

No escape there anyways

"I want her to be happy"

my mantra to myself

But I can't stand the thought

Of what may come

Where this may lead

Her, in bed

With him

Her, in love

With him

She says she's a guppy

and I doubt.

She says she'll love only shallow

and I doubt.

The seed is there

and he may make it grow.

As I couldn't.

I'm too self involved

There's her side too

But I hurt so much

I am so lost

I can't see

I don't want to see

That it's me

It's always been me.