Never

Never

Your gentle hand on my neck

Never more

He is in your bed

but I'll never be

I hate being jealous

but it drives me mad

It's even worse

because

whatever happens

Is behind closed doors

I will not know

You won't tell me if you do

You know how it hurts

But everything hurts

He sleeps in your bed

Why?

You told him no,

same as me

But he didn't listen

He pushed

Is that why he's in your bed?

I don't know what I want

You know what you don't want

... me

Love me you may

but you'll never want me

I'm not enough

I'm afraid to go to sleep

I'm afraid of dreams to come

I'm afraid I'll awake to you gone

Lost to me

Forever