Honestly

It's truly horrid

but I don't trust her

Not to be honest with me

Did she sleep with him?

Did she sleep with her?

I don't know

All I know

is what she wants from me

To be okay, To be content

I had hoped ...

Sadly true,

but her breakdown gave me hope

That she was as lost as me

I don't know

I know she wants things simple

Simpler for me not to know

I don't know what I want

But it kills me that I don't trust her

But I can't trust her to be honest

Not in that regards

I can't stop shivering

It's not that cold

It hurts so much.

I want her to be happy

But I want to be happy too

And I fear ...

If she falls in love

It'll prove what I fear

It's not her, it's me