Let me begin by saying Welcome to my poetry page. Writing poetry is one of the greatest pastimes in my life and I enjoy sharing my writings with my family and friends. It all began when I was younger......I would write descriptive short stories and poems in my creative writing classes in elementary school and my teacher assured me then that I had a very unique talent for expressing my thoughts and desires. My life so far has been grand. I have been blessed with not one but two wonderful families. I was told when I was the age of nine that I had been adopted. It took a short time for me to accept it, but since then I always wondered about my early childhood, and about my birth relatives. This feeling stayed with me throughout the years and as I got older I started asking questions and eventually began my search. In the beginning every path I took came to a dead end. My adopted parents were always supportive of me finding my birth relatives and they supplied me with as much information as they were told, which back then wasn't much at all. When I was in my late teens I was preoccupied with other issues in my life and my searching was put on hold for awhile. I married when I was twenty one, and started my own family a year later. Each time one of my children were born I would wonder if maybe they resembled someone from my immediate family. My adopted parents have long since gone from this world as well as my much older adopted brother. Only myself and another brother remained in our family and that is when my searching became a lot more serious to me. I would spend hours upon hours searching the internet visiting new sites and researching the name that I knew I was born with. It was not until late last year that a new ray of hope came shining, creeping into those lonely corners of my heart. I contacted Parent Finders in New Brunswick and spoke to a very wonderful lady. We spoke several times on the telephone and before I knew it all the pieces of my mystery were slowly falling into place. On November 29 of 2002 I received a telephone call late in the afternoon. It was the same lady I had communicated with and I thought it was just another call from her to say the search was still ongoing and that I should not give up hope. That was when my miracle happened, and it was a feeling I cannot explain or never will forget. She told me that their organization had found my birth family, and I was truely surprised to find that my birth mother and four birth brothers were all living in the same community where I was born. I was overwhelmed to say the least. And not to mention the numerous other relatives that I am still discovering. I was given all the information I needed to know and I was to make the call to my mother at six o'clock that evening. I am not a procrastinator, but it took me almost forty-five minutes to get my mind focused enough to even think about what I was going to say. My mother was informed that I would be calling, so she was expecting my call. I finally made the call and since that moment, my whole life has changed. I still don't know how to explain how I feel. I feel as though I have lived twice in one lifetime. We all contact each other often and I have been to visit them several times since that wonderful day. So you see now why I say I have been blessed with two families. My upbringing taught me to be good to others, to be happy for what I had and not what I thought I needed, and that life is what you make it to be. My life couldn't be any better than it is; I have a loving husband, who I can't imagine living without; three wonderful children, who are caring and thoughtful (although those teenage years had me doubting that they would be anything that I dreamed they would be) and a wonderful family I enjoy. Not to mention all the great memories of my life before and the parents who did what they could to make me the way I am today, my two brothers, who, no matter how different we were back then, I still loved them, and still do. My friends, you all know who you are, without you, my life or at least parts of my life would be meaningless. You've made me smile, though sometimes I was crying inside, and your companionship in my life is a treasure I hold very dear to my heart. I'm sure that before my life on this earth is over more friendships will come along, but if I was told that I had to live the rest of my life without ever knowing anyone else I would feel blessed just to have the people in my life that have been there until now, this very second. You all give me this inspiration to express my deepest thoughts and emotions. I am me because of you! I look forward to spending the years ahead with every one of you. And to all the loved ones that I have already lost I carry you with me every second of each new day. As I said before, I was taught that good things come to good people, and now I know that this is true. I am a kind and giving person, and I love all the people in my life and would do anything I can for them. I've reached out to strangers and felt their pain. I believe there is good in all people and I have faith that God will someday make the world a better place. My morals are concrete, and my beliefs are unquestionable. My life is like a puzzle of sorts...... with many pieces and perfectly sculptured corners. Through the years I have fit each piece of my puzzle together, choosing each piece with love and carefully placing it where it belonged. Now the puzzle is complete. You all are my life......... This is how it was meant to be.
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