Auto response from i iconz Z (1:13:19 AM): someday ... ill understand...
xc4Pe (1:13:20 AM): dont
xc4Pe (1:13:21 AM): don't
xc4Pe (1:13:22 AM): don't
xc4Pe (1:13:23 AM): conrad
i iconz Z (1:13:27 AM): what
xc4Pe (1:13:35 AM): sry i was talking to goldy
xc4Pe (1:13:38 AM): side tracked
i iconz Z (1:13:44 AM): dont?
xc4Pe (1:13:44 AM): now u are my focus
xc4Pe (1:13:48 AM): hah dont' sleep
i iconz Z (1:14:00 AM): oo...
xc4Pe (1:14:03 AM): first of all
xc4Pe (1:14:18 AM): u kno why she likes so many people?
i iconz Z (1:14:23 AM): y
xc4Pe (1:14:30 AM): u kno why many different people are attacted to her?
xc4Pe (1:14:40 AM): b/c she has so many different personalities
xc4Pe (1:14:42 AM): shes so fake
xc4Pe (1:14:49 AM): she hasn't found who she is yet
xc4Pe (1:14:55 AM): she doesn't kno WHO SHE IS
xc4Pe (1:15:00 AM): shes constantly sidetracked
xc4Pe (1:15:06 AM): one of the big sidtracks is hannah
i iconz Z (1:15:17 AM): yeah...
xc4Pe (1:15:19 AM): yea she can probably minipulate a trillion guys
xc4Pe (1:15:25 AM): but don't matter
xc4Pe (1:15:34 AM): i kno ddeep down inside shes sad as hell
i iconz Z (1:15:40 AM): i kno that
i iconz Z (1:15:43 AM): but
i iconz Z (1:15:45 AM): i cant do nethin about it
xc4Pe (1:15:46 AM): i kno after wut happened between me and her it left a
big hole
i iconz Z (1:15:56 AM): yea..
xc4Pe (1:16:00 AM): with everyone
xc4Pe (1:16:06 AM): when she is ready to change she will
xc4Pe (1:16:12 AM): no one can force her
xc4Pe (1:16:22 AM): no one can force anyone to change
xc4Pe (1:16:37 AM): do u understand that?
i iconz Z (1:16:40 AM): i guess
i iconz Z (1:16:40 AM): but
xc4Pe (1:16:46 AM): she has so many different values
xc4Pe (1:16:58 AM): shes the kinda girl who is so secular
xc4Pe (1:17:03 AM): SO SECULAR
xc4Pe (1:17:06 AM): she has no style
xc4Pe (1:17:12 AM): shes just like every other girl
xc4Pe (1:17:23 AM): she has no jingle nothing unique
i iconz Z (1:17:23 AM): 1 thing i dont get is... how she changed
i iconz Z (1:17:31 AM): wut happened to all her old friends n all
xc4Pe (1:17:33 AM): she changed to fit in more
xc4Pe (1:17:38 AM): its high school
i iconz Z (1:17:42 AM): yea...
xc4Pe (1:17:43 AM): she usta look up to me
xc4Pe (1:17:49 AM): and chill with my older friends
xc4Pe (1:17:54 AM): she likes that kinda attention
i iconz Z (1:17:58 AM): yea...
xc4Pe (1:18:00 AM): thats how she is
i iconz Z (1:18:05 AM): i c it now
xc4Pe (1:18:10 AM): she changes to get tha kinda attention
xc4Pe (1:18:19 AM): to b LESS UNIQUE
xc4Pe (1:18:23 AM): to b less herself
xc4Pe (1:18:27 AM): i kno who she is
xc4Pe (1:18:32 AM): who she was
xc4Pe (1:18:36 AM): deeep inside
xc4Pe (1:18:41 AM): i've seen many people change conrad
xc4Pe (1:18:44 AM): joe sung
i iconz Z (1:18:44 AM): is she still like that deep inside?
xc4Pe (1:18:45 AM): u
xc4Pe (1:18:47 AM): everyone
xc4Pe (1:18:57 AM): she IS emotionALLY DEPRESSED
xc4Pe (1:18:59 AM): as HELL
xc4Pe (1:19:05 AM): u kno why
i iconz Z (1:19:10 AM): yeah
xc4Pe (1:19:10 AM): she doesn't tell ne one anything
xc4Pe (1:19:14 AM): she never shows her tru self
xc4Pe (1:19:21 AM): she hides it
i iconz Z (1:19:25 AM): yo i think she tells hannah
xc4Pe (1:19:30 AM): thinking that people will b quick to judge
i iconz Z (1:19:39 AM): i guess
xc4Pe (1:19:44 AM): i'll tell u wut i think of hannah
xc4Pe (1:19:50 AM): hannah loves attention
xc4Pe (1:19:53 AM): esp from older guys
xc4Pe (1:19:58 AM): she still has a thing for joe
xc4Pe (1:20:04 AM): she constantly is looking for guys
i iconz Z (1:20:23 AM): psh...
xc4Pe (1:20:24 AM): one day she would go ".. OMG DANNY ( any random person) is SO HOOT im gonna hook up with him.."
xc4Pe (1:20:28 AM): next day
xc4Pe (1:20:36 AM): .."omg hes so busted.."
xc4Pe (1:20:41 AM): shes a fuckin whore
i iconz Z (1:20:44 AM): yeah...
xc4Pe (1:20:44 AM): she changed 2
xc4Pe (1:20:51 AM): she usta b realli considerate
xc4Pe (1:20:54 AM): REALLI considerate
xc4Pe (1:20:58 AM): of other people
xc4Pe (1:21:17 AM): they are just hanging out buddies annie and hannah
xc4Pe (1:21:19 AM): and conrad
xc4Pe (1:21:24 AM): don't waste ure time
xc4Pe (1:21:34 AM): over something u can't even give ureself reason to like
xc4Pe (1:21:42 AM): don't waste time conrad
i iconz Z (1:21:45 AM): i guesss
xc4Pe (1:21:47 AM): learn from wut i did
xc4Pe (1:21:55 AM): i wasted to much time to change her
i iconz Z (1:22:02 AM): see the thing is... i feel that deepinside she likes me
xc4Pe (1:22:03 AM): it doesn't work like that
i iconz Z (1:22:10 AM): but
xc4Pe (1:22:10 AM): ok
i iconz Z (1:22:14 AM): the thing is she isnt doing nethin about it
xc4Pe (1:22:19 AM): so
i iconz Z (1:22:19 AM): and i think shes afraid
i iconz Z (1:22:21 AM): to
xc4Pe (1:22:22 AM): thats her choice
xc4Pe (1:22:31 AM): if she is afraid to maybe its not real to begin with
xc4Pe (1:22:37 AM): and so wut if she likes u
xc4Pe (1:22:42 AM): wut are u gonna do about it?
i iconz Z (1:23:06 AM): hmmm
xc4Pe (1:23:22 AM): think about it
xc4Pe (1:23:27 AM): do u even kno her?
i iconz Z (1:23:28 AM): i guess i took my chance
i iconz Z (1:23:31 AM): well
i iconz Z (1:23:37 AM): i kno how she is
i iconz Z (1:23:41 AM): her past
xc4Pe (1:23:42 AM): u kno how she acts
i iconz Z (1:23:43 AM): no
xc4Pe (1:23:45 AM): but do u kno wut she feels?
i iconz Z (1:23:50 AM): yeah
xc4Pe (1:23:52 AM): realli
xc4Pe (1:24:00 AM): b/c after 2 years of liking her i still can't figure that out
i iconz Z (1:24:01 AM): emotionallly depressed
xc4Pe (1:24:09 AM): emotionally closed up
i iconz Z (1:24:10 AM): shes afraid
i iconz Z (1:24:11 AM): to show
i iconz Z (1:24:13 AM): everything
xc4Pe (1:24:14 AM): yea
i iconz Z (1:24:22 AM): but deepinside u kno
i iconz Z (1:24:27 AM): but nothins happenin
xc4Pe (1:24:33 AM): conrad
i iconz Z (1:24:35 AM): to me..
xc4Pe (1:24:46 AM): even if she does like u deep down inside
xc4Pe (1:24:47 AM): and u liek her
xc4Pe (1:24:53 AM): if she doesn't wanna show it
xc4Pe (1:24:56 AM): wuts it to u?
i iconz Z (1:25:09 AM): ahhh
i iconz Z (1:25:11 AM): yeah...
xc4Pe (1:25:12 AM): u gonna gro0ovel at her feet?
xc4Pe (1:25:17 AM): saying do u love me?
xc4Pe (1:25:18 AM): no
xc4Pe (1:25:21 AM): ure better than that
i iconz Z (1:25:42 AM): thx
xc4Pe (1:25:51 AM): conrad don't think about anything with her
xc4Pe (1:25:55 AM): until u kno her inside out
xc4Pe (1:25:59 AM): if u just want some ass
xc4Pe (1:26:02 AM): be my guess
i iconz Z (1:26:08 AM): llol
i iconz Z (1:26:13 AM): thats not gonn happen
xc4Pe (1:26:13 AM): but
i iconz Z (1:26:14 AM): knowin
xc4Pe (1:26:17 AM): BUT
i iconz Z (1:26:22 AM): ?
xc4Pe (1:26:23 AM): u wanna kno something
xc4Pe (1:26:32 AM): i traded that stage of gettin ass from girls
xc4Pe (1:26:34 AM): and instead
xc4Pe (1:26:37 AM): gettin to kno them better
i iconz Z (1:26:49 AM): the beggining
i iconz Z (1:27:09 AM): i was like that wit her... my thoughts that is... but i didnt.. cuz i didnt think it was right.. cuz i actually liked her rit..
i iconz Z (1:27:10 AM): so
i iconz Z (1:27:12 AM): i got fucked over
xc4Pe (1:27:36 AM): ok first of all
xc4Pe (1:27:39 AM): shes prude
xc4Pe (1:27:44 AM): of ure thinking of gettin ass
xc4Pe (1:27:50 AM): shes flirty
xc4Pe (1:27:51 AM): buy prude
xc4Pe (1:27:53 AM): *but
i iconz Z (1:28:02 AM): she was prude
xc4Pe (1:28:02 AM): secondly
i iconz Z (1:28:05 AM): i duno wut she is now
i iconz Z (1:28:08 AM): lolzz
i iconz Z (1:28:11 AM): shes def changed
i iconz Z (1:28:12 AM): from hannah
xc4Pe (1:28:13 AM): SHES TEH SAME
xc4Pe (1:28:14 AM): no
xc4Pe (1:28:20 AM): theres somethings that don't cahnge
xc4Pe (1:28:25 AM): and shes insecure abotu that
xc4Pe (1:28:26 AM): trust me
xc4Pe (1:28:42 AM): she hooked up once
xc4Pe (1:28:43 AM): that i kno of
xc4Pe (1:28:47 AM): and it was to a random guy
xc4Pe (1:28:49 AM): at a club
i iconz Z (1:28:51 AM): yehheard bout hta
xc4Pe (1:29:05 AM): SHES don't give any ass
xc4Pe (1:29:07 AM): plus
xc4Pe (1:29:10 AM): ok conrad
xc4Pe (1:29:16 AM): give me 10 reasons why u like her
xc4Pe (1:29:19 AM): and 10 reason why u don't
i iconz Z (1:29:33 AM): hMmmm
xc4Pe (1:29:56 AM): it could b anything
xc4Pe (1:30:03 AM): physical or personality
xc4Pe (1:30:15 AM): and i dont' realli care wut u say ha
i iconz Z (1:30:21 AM): hmMm
i iconz Z (1:30:24 AM): her eyez
xc4Pe (1:30:30 AM): are good?
i iconz Z (1:30:33 AM): yeh
xc4Pe (1:30:36 AM): ok 1
i iconz Z (1:31:04 AM): how she liked me... and how she was flirty wit me.. but i realized it was jus a trick to manipulate me
xc4Pe (1:31:23 AM): how shes flirty thats 2
i iconz Z (1:31:25 AM): i have more reasons to dislike or her because of the shit i was put through it her
xc4Pe (1:31:27 AM): 1. eyes
xc4Pe (1:31:29 AM): 2. flirty
i iconz Z (1:31:57 AM): i thought she was innocent
i iconz Z (1:32:02 AM): she was loyal at one time
xc4Pe (1:32:03 AM): shes not
xc4Pe (1:32:09 AM): shes not that either
i iconz Z (1:32:20 AM): i though
i iconz Z (1:32:21 AM): t
xc4Pe (1:32:28 AM): if u do wanna get into a relationship with her
xc4Pe (1:32:33 AM): if shes not willing to open up
xc4Pe (1:32:38 AM): its not worth wasting ure time
xc4Pe (1:32:46 AM): yea shes got the looks
xc4Pe (1:32:55 AM): but looks is usually suppose to b like extra
xc4Pe (1:33:00 AM): she doesn't open up
xc4Pe (1:33:19 AM): do u like her that much?>
i iconz Z (1:33:25 AM): i dont know
xc4Pe (1:33:31 AM): or maybe its justa fling
xc4Pe (1:33:36 AM): shes flity conrad
i iconz Z (1:33:39 AM): big fling i guess
xc4Pe (1:33:39 AM): jsut deal with it
xc4Pe (1:33:41 AM): so are mayn other girl
i iconz Z (1:33:45 AM): ah
xc4Pe (1:33:46 AM): *flirty
i iconz Z (1:33:52 AM): she was all flirty wit eug
xc4Pe (1:33:56 AM): vickis flirty
xc4Pe (1:34:02 AM): yea
xc4Pe (1:34:04 AM): cause
xc4Pe (1:34:12 AM): well i have my own opinion on that stuff 2
i iconz Z (1:34:20 AM): u can tell me
xc4Pe (1:34:28 AM): eugene is a differnet story
xc4Pe (1:34:34 AM): her and eugene i mean
i iconz Z (1:34:42 AM): wut do u mean
xc4Pe (1:34:42 AM): but like she is like that
xc4Pe (1:34:57 AM): her and eugene have wut i think a DL liking each other
i iconz Z (1:36:14 AM): i asked euge if he liked her he sed nahhh jus friendss nd i talked to him about her and he even said she acts shady
xc4Pe (1:36:15 AM): i usta b best frioends with eugene
xc4Pe (1:36:26 AM): she does
xc4Pe (1:36:47 AM): BUT can't u see the ovious?
i iconz Z (1:36:51 AM): yeah..
xc4Pe (1:36:57 AM): shes given u more trouble then happiness
xc4Pe (1:37:01 AM): is that worth it?
i iconz Z (1:37:06 AM): noooo
xc4Pe (1:37:17 AM): plus
xc4Pe (1:37:18 AM): for all u kno
xc4Pe (1:37:30 AM): maybe ure just lookin 2 much into it
xc4Pe (1:37:36 AM): wut makes u think she still likes u?
i iconz Z (1:38:12 AM): i toook my chance by tryin to not b mad at her.. cuz... like 2 days ago she imed an asked if i was still mad.... i was *...... but i jus didnt say nethin.. to see if we culd jus forget about everthing and start over
i iconz Z (1:38:19 AM): i supposly started over already wit her
i iconz Z (1:38:30 AM): after the first thing i had wit her
xc4Pe (1:38:32 AM): wtf
xc4Pe (1:38:38 AM): she had the guts to ask u and not me
xc4Pe (1:38:38 AM): lol
xc4Pe (1:38:43 AM): i kno shes SCARED OF ME
xc4Pe (1:38:44 AM): i love it
i iconz Z (1:39:07 AM): yeah
i iconz Z (1:39:07 AM): but
i iconz Z (1:39:09 AM): she didnt say sorry
i iconz Z (1:39:15 AM): that defeats the whole purpose of talkin to me
xc4Pe (1:39:21 AM): maybe she was bored?
i iconz Z (1:39:27 AM): she was like "ehhh conrad " "still mad"
i iconz Z (1:39:30 AM): not even a hey
xc4Pe (1:39:53 AM): wait so maybe she juss want to b friends
xc4Pe (1:40:07 AM): that doesnt' mean she wants to try things out again
i iconz Z (1:40:26 AM): so ur saying she stopped liking me
xc4Pe (1:40:39 AM): yea why is that so hard to believe?
xc4Pe (1:40:46 AM): im not saying ure not good lookin
xc4Pe (1:40:49 AM): im saying shes a girl
i iconz Z (1:40:49 AM): yeah
i iconz Z (1:40:50 AM): i kno
i iconz Z (1:40:51 AM): but
xc4Pe (1:40:55 AM): with a tainted heart
i iconz Z (1:40:59 AM): i can feeel that shes callin me
i iconz Z (1:41:00 AM): some how
i iconz Z (1:41:06 AM): iread her xanga entry once
xc4Pe (1:41:07 AM): u can't ASSUME THAT CONRAD
i iconz Z (1:41:12 AM): it wazz like
i iconz Z (1:41:15 AM): i love him i hate him
i iconz Z (1:41:16 AM): or someshit
xc4Pe (1:41:21 AM): conard
xc4Pe (1:41:24 AM): for all u kno
xc4Pe (1:41:27 AM): that could b me
xc4Pe (1:41:30 AM): !!!
i iconz Z (1:41:33 AM): i guezz
i iconz Z (1:41:35 AM): but
xc4Pe (1:41:42 AM): u don't kno that unless she says it
i iconz Z (1:41:43 AM): dont u 2 hate each other
xc4Pe (1:41:49 AM): u can't infer things its just gonna bring u more trouble
xc4Pe (1:41:52 AM): i dont' hate her
xc4Pe (1:41:55 AM): im jsut not friends with her
xc4Pe (1:41:59 AM): she thinks i hate her
xc4Pe (1:42:08 AM): she gives me dirty looks
xc4Pe (1:42:13 AM): i just dont' look at her at all
xc4Pe (1:42:17 AM): theres a difference
xc4Pe (1:42:32 AM): im mature enough to just keep my mouth shut
xc4Pe (1:42:38 AM): were as she has to give the looks
xc4Pe (1:42:52 AM): go ahead she can do all teh shit she wants talk as
much shti as she wants
xc4Pe (1:42:59 AM): i don't realli give a rats ass
xc4Pe (1:43:02 AM): its her loosss
xc4Pe (1:43:12 AM): i was the one who always dug her ass outta things
xc4Pe (1:43:20 AM): she knows it
xc4Pe (1:43:22 AM): i kno it
xc4Pe (1:43:29 AM): she never helped me
xc4Pe (1:43:31 AM): never
i iconz Z (1:43:38 AM): thats wut im seeing
i iconz Z (1:43:44 AM): in a dif way
i iconz Z (1:43:47 AM): the things i do for her
i iconz Z (1:43:51 AM): how sweet i was
xc4Pe (1:43:51 AM): MEANS NOTHING
i iconz Z (1:43:54 AM): and all that
xc4Pe (1:43:55 AM): MEANS NOTHING
i iconz Z (1:43:57 AM): and she did notin
xc4Pe (1:43:57 AM): TRUST ME
xc4Pe (1:44:00 AM): CONRAD
xc4Pe (1:44:03 AM): it means nothing
xc4Pe (1:44:04 AM): trust me
xc4Pe (1:44:06 AM): omg
xc4Pe (1:44:08 AM): ure wehre i was
xc4Pe (1:44:11 AM): it means nothing
xc4Pe (1:44:16 AM): i swear
xc4Pe (1:44:18 AM): it means nothing
i iconz Z (1:44:20 AM): yo man it sucks where i am
xc4Pe (1:44:21 AM): as hard as it is
xc4Pe (1:44:24 AM): CONRAD
xc4Pe (1:44:29 AM): i did all these things for her
xc4Pe (1:44:32 AM): did i ever tell u?
i iconz Z (1:44:35 AM): nop
xc4Pe (1:44:39 AM): ok
xc4Pe (1:44:42 AM): for example
i iconz Z (1:44:48 AM): y dont u tell me about ur relationship wit her
i iconz Z (1:44:51 AM): i wanna kno
xc4Pe (1:44:56 AM): ok
xc4Pe (1:45:02 AM): we met in 6th grade
xc4Pe (1:45:05 AM): chinese school
xc4Pe (1:45:09 AM): i hadda crush on her
xc4Pe (1:45:17 AM): i am the reason she has all teh elite friends
xc4Pe (1:45:27 AM): on nite i imed her
xc4Pe (1:45:34 AM): ha i was a foolish 6th grader
xc4Pe (1:45:36 AM): and i asked her out
xc4Pe (1:45:41 AM): and i never knew her
xc4Pe (1:45:46 AM): lol first time we talked
i iconz Z (1:45:51 AM): lol
xc4Pe (1:45:52 AM): i did stupid things bak then
xc4Pe (1:45:56 AM): ok ne ways
i iconz Z (1:46:02 AM): u asked her out on ur first time talkin on aim?
xc4Pe (1:46:05 AM): haha yup
i iconz Z (1:46:06 AM): aiit
i iconz Z (1:46:08 AM): keep goin
xc4Pe (1:46:16 AM): we never had an offical break up
xc4Pe (1:46:21 AM): we jsut stopped talking
xc4Pe (1:46:26 AM): but when we did talk
xc4Pe (1:46:28 AM): i liked her even more
xc4Pe (1:46:33 AM): 7th grade
xc4Pe (1:46:37 AM): she liked me
xc4Pe (1:46:47 AM): maybe cause i was the first person to show her
affection
xc4Pe (1:46:49 AM): i dunno why
xc4Pe (1:46:51 AM): but she did
xc4Pe (1:46:54 AM): i asked her out
xc4Pe (1:46:57 AM): she said ok
xc4Pe (1:47:02 AM): it lasted for wut a week?
xc4Pe (1:47:09 AM): we went to the movies
xc4Pe (1:47:16 AM): she wouldn't let me put my arms around her
xc4Pe (1:47:19 AM): that was so gay
i iconz Z (1:47:22 AM): wut do u mean
xc4Pe (1:47:31 AM): she went to the movies
i iconz Z (1:47:31 AM): wut did she do?
xc4Pe (1:47:37 AM): it was after elite
xc4Pe (1:47:42 AM): she had her book bag
xc4Pe (1:47:45 AM): she put it between us
xc4Pe (1:47:53 AM): how dick is that
i iconz Z (1:47:58 AM): yea...
i iconz Z (1:47:59 AM): but
i iconz Z (1:48:01 AM): wait
i iconz Z (1:48:02 AM): im confused a bit
i iconz Z (1:48:06 AM): u asked her out in 6th grade
xc4Pe (1:48:09 AM): yes
i iconz Z (1:48:12 AM): and it lasted to 7th?
i iconz Z (1:48:15 AM): or what
xc4Pe (1:48:15 AM): no
xc4Pe (1:48:18 AM): we just stoped talkin
i iconz Z (1:48:20 AM): oh
xc4Pe (1:48:22 AM): so we both inferred it was off
xc4Pe (1:48:30 AM): ok so then
i iconz Z (1:48:31 AM): icc..
xc4Pe (1:48:40 AM): i went out with debbie
xc4Pe (1:48:44 AM): um
xc4Pe (1:48:46 AM): then
xc4Pe (1:48:55 AM): i still liked her
xc4Pe (1:49:00 AM): after likea year of not talkin
i iconz Z (1:49:04 AM): annie?
xc4Pe (1:49:10 AM): cause she fuckin dumped me rite after that movie
xc4Pe (1:49:12 AM): yea
i iconz Z (1:49:15 AM): ooo
xc4Pe (1:49:20 AM): which was teh gayest thing ever
i iconz Z (1:49:23 AM): she did?
xc4Pe (1:49:27 AM): and she didn't evn have teh guts to do it
xc4Pe (1:49:32 AM): vicki did it for her
i iconz Z (1:49:33 AM): that whole thing lassted for a weeek?
xc4Pe (1:49:39 AM): haha yea ore ven less
xc4Pe (1:49:45 AM): vicki and annie usta realli like me
i iconz Z (1:49:46 AM): i saw u 2
i iconz Z (1:49:47 AM): one time
i iconz Z (1:49:48 AM): at my church
i iconz Z (1:49:50 AM): awhile ago
xc4Pe (1:49:53 AM): ha they always called me
xc4Pe (1:49:54 AM): to bother me
xc4Pe (1:49:57 AM): it was cute
xc4Pe (1:50:01 AM): but ne ways
xc4Pe (1:50:10 AM): conrad
xc4Pe (1:50:15 AM): annie usta b the love of my life
xc4Pe (1:50:18 AM): im tellin u
xc4Pe (1:50:20 AM): she was my world
xc4Pe (1:50:32 AM): i was onlie a 7th grade
xc4Pe (1:50:37 AM): but i thought long term
xc4Pe (1:50:41 AM): so ne ways
xc4Pe (1:50:43 AM): we stopped talkin
i iconz Z (1:50:46 AM): so did i
xc4Pe (1:50:56 AM): but then we started again
xc4Pe (1:51:00 AM): after like a year
xc4Pe (1:51:08 AM): we just cliqed again
xc4Pe (1:51:18 AM): like one time at the mall
xc4Pe (1:51:22 AM): the whoel time
xc4Pe (1:51:25 AM): i avoided her
xc4Pe (1:51:27 AM): she avoided me
xc4Pe (1:51:29 AM): but teh whoel time
xc4Pe (1:51:36 AM): i was just thinking abotu being with her
xc4Pe (1:51:42 AM): and the same with her
xc4Pe (1:51:45 AM): i couldn't take it
xc4Pe (1:51:54 AM): so i jsut went up to her and held her
xc4Pe (1:51:59 AM): no joke
xc4Pe (1:52:11 AM): and everyone was like
xc4Pe (1:52:18 AM): pat u shoulda did that earlier haha
xc4Pe (1:52:20 AM): i shoulda have
xc4Pe (1:52:23 AM): but ne ways
i iconz Z (1:52:27 AM): earlier?
xc4Pe (1:52:27 AM): i kissed her that day
xc4Pe (1:52:30 AM): earlier that day
i iconz Z (1:52:33 AM): ooo
i iconz Z (1:52:33 AM): ic
xc4Pe (1:52:43 AM): i kissed her that day before she left
xc4Pe (1:52:55 AM): the ironic thing is
i iconz Z (1:52:56 AM): left?
xc4Pe (1:52:58 AM): after that day
xc4Pe (1:53:07 AM): we talked less
xc4Pe (1:53:11 AM): as if all she wanted along
xc4Pe (1:53:14 AM): was me to hold her
xc4Pe (1:53:18 AM): and she got wut she wanted
xc4Pe (1:53:28 AM): so on teh side i usta talk to her
xc4Pe (1:53:31 AM): about stuff
xc4Pe (1:53:39 AM): life in general
xc4Pe (1:53:45 AM): she was jsut tell me bits and pieces
xc4Pe (1:53:52 AM): but i would do things for her many
xc4Pe (1:53:54 AM): *man
xc4Pe (1:53:57 AM): im so serious
xc4Pe (1:53:58 AM): one summer
xc4Pe (1:54:01 AM): she was home alone
xc4Pe (1:54:05 AM): she usta live in plainview
xc4Pe (1:54:11 AM): about 30 mins away bik'n
xc4Pe (1:54:16 AM): i biked to her house
xc4Pe (1:54:19 AM): to just b with her
xc4Pe (1:54:23 AM): i USED MAPQUEST
xc4Pe (1:54:31 AM): im so serious
xc4Pe (1:54:39 AM): just to b with her for wut 15 mins?
xc4Pe (1:54:42 AM): 30 mins?
xc4Pe (1:54:52 AM): but i thought at the time it was all worth it
xc4Pe (1:55:00 AM): i hear james chueng liked her
xc4Pe (1:55:06 AM): and he was throwing a party
xc4Pe (1:55:10 AM): she decided to go
xc4Pe (1:55:20 AM): i was invided but i was "too cool" for the party
xc4Pe (1:55:25 AM): so i at first decided not to go
xc4Pe (1:55:31 AM): and u kno where he lives rite?
i iconz Z (1:55:36 AM): n
i iconz Z (1:55:44 AM): a
xc4Pe (1:55:45 AM): n biked to his house
xc4Pe (1:55:56 AM): it was teh scariest ride
xc4Pe (1:56:01 AM): off woodbury road
xc4Pe (1:56:06 AM): the cars
xc4Pe (1:56:14 AM): just to see if she was ok
xc4Pe (1:56:19 AM): JUST TO SEE IF SHE WAS OK
xc4Pe (1:56:21 AM): ok
xc4Pe (1:56:25 AM): thats the kinda things i did for her
xc4Pe (1:56:38 AM): i usta think after we broke up that she still liked me
because
xc4Pe (1:56:44 AM): she usta get me birthday gifts
xc4Pe (1:56:51 AM): even when i didn't go to chinese school
xc4Pe (1:56:54 AM): casue thats where i met her
xc4Pe (1:57:00 AM): and she got me all des ballons and candy
xc4Pe (1:57:03 AM): it was swt
xc4Pe (1:57:18 AM): so thats wut made me think we still hadda thing
xc4Pe (1:57:24 AM): conrad
xc4Pe (1:57:26 AM): but all this time
xc4Pe (1:57:29 AM): i asked eVERYONE
xc4Pe (1:57:35 AM): is it worth it to wait for her?
xc4Pe (1:57:39 AM): everyone said no pat move on
xc4Pe (1:57:42 AM): did i?
xc4Pe (1:57:47 AM): nope foolishly id didn't
i iconz Z (1:57:49 AM): the thing is
xc4Pe (1:57:51 AM): i waited
i iconz Z (1:57:55 AM): how am i supposed to.. find another girl
i iconz Z (1:57:57 AM): and trust her
i iconz Z (1:58:00 AM): like
i iconz Z (1:58:05 AM): i jus dont wanna go throuh that shit
xc4Pe (1:58:09 AM): with everything
xc4Pe (1:58:12 AM): in ure life
i iconz Z (1:58:13 AM): i dun kno wut i wanna do no more
xc4Pe (1:58:15 AM): listen to me
xc4Pe (1:58:20 AM): with everything in ure life
xc4Pe (1:58:29 AM): u just gotta experience it and let it go
xc4Pe (1:58:31 AM): and move on
xc4Pe (1:58:38 AM): with everything
xc4Pe (1:58:48 AM): then the next girl
xc4Pe (1:58:52 AM): get to kno her inside out
xc4Pe (1:58:55 AM): GET TO KNO HER CONRAD
xc4Pe (1:59:05 AM): don't put body before mind
i iconz Z (1:59:06 AM): how the fuk can i
xc4Pe (1:59:19 AM): i kno ure thinking..wut the hell am i saying
xc4Pe (1:59:23 AM): goldy is pretty and all
i iconz Z (1:59:26 AM): she doesnt even talk to me.. and i kno shes uncomfortable talkin
about it.. i dont kno wy
i iconz Z (1:59:33 AM): i mean
i iconz Z (1:59:34 AM): get to kno her
xc4Pe (1:59:47 AM): CONRAD U Can't GET TO KNO her don't u understand?
xc4Pe (1:59:58 AM): ure OPENING UP TO HER I UNDERStand that
xc4Pe (2:00:03 AM): but she isn't
xc4Pe (2:00:09 AM): and UNLESS URE FINE WITH THAT
i iconz Z (2:00:10 AM): she has in away
xc4Pe (2:00:17 AM): thats how its going to b
xc4Pe (2:00:21 AM): until she realizes
xc4Pe (2:00:41 AM): honestly
xc4Pe (2:00:47 AM): shes not ready for a realtionship
xc4Pe (2:00:52 AM): i kno far more then her
xc4Pe (2:00:56 AM): and i dont' even think i am
i iconz Z (2:01:26 AM): hmmmm
xc4Pe (2:01:29 AM): im actaully so happi
xc4Pe (2:01:37 AM): that..that incident happened
i iconz Z (2:01:43 AM): which
xc4Pe (2:01:45 AM): i finally got over her
xc4Pe (2:01:48 AM): the money thing
xc4Pe (2:01:49 AM): with mcos
xc4Pe (2:01:55 AM): i FINALLY GOT OVER HEr
xc4Pe (2:01:59 AM): u don't understand
xc4Pe (2:02:03 AM): i FINNALLY got over her
i iconz Z (2:02:06 AM): ur lucky
xc4Pe (2:02:16 AM): i kno its hard
xc4Pe (2:02:20 AM): i kno it conrad
i iconz Z (2:02:21 AM): yo
xc4Pe (2:02:31 AM): i kno wut i say rite now seems like its not fair 2 u
xc4Pe (2:02:42 AM): but im telling u from experience and how annie realli is
xc4Pe (2:02:53 AM): if shes gonna b like that how is she worth it?
xc4Pe (2:03:02 AM): OR HOW bout this
xc4Pe (2:03:06 AM): do u think u can do better?
xc4Pe (2:03:21 AM): do u think there is a girl out there that u think ure
more compatible with?
xc4Pe (2:03:26 AM): IF URE ANSWER IS YES
xc4Pe (2:03:31 AM): then forget her
i iconz Z (2:04:40 AM): she wrote me back a letter once... tellin me how she felt..how her past
relationships hurt her an all .. and how she wants to start over.. and how i am special to her b/c
i put up wit her and still liked her after all the shit she put me throuh.... so after that... i tried
to get things going agen...then hannah incident happened... ... she backstabbed me... and
stopped liking me as a friend suposly... and i did notin
i iconz Z (2:04:46 AM): i guess i have to
xc4Pe (2:05:11 AM): CONRAD
xc4Pe (2:05:16 AM): she wrote teh same thing to me
xc4Pe (2:05:19 AM): please
xc4Pe (2:05:21 AM): dont' fall for it
xc4Pe (2:05:28 AM): PLEASE
xc4Pe (2:05:29 AM): don't
xc4Pe (2:05:30 AM): its BS
xc4Pe (2:05:35 AM): think abotu it
i iconz Z (2:05:36 AM): wat the fuk
xc4Pe (2:05:38 AM): if she ment wut she said
i iconz Z (2:05:45 AM): then why would she say that
xc4Pe (2:05:49 AM): would u even question her friendship?
i iconz Z (2:05:50 AM): i dont get ti
i iconz Z (2:05:54 AM): nah
xc4Pe (2:05:57 AM): exactly
xc4Pe (2:06:07 AM): EXACTLY conrad
xc4Pe (2:06:13 AM): that just proves it
i iconz Z (2:06:25 AM): yeah i cc it
i iconz Z (2:06:30 AM): ijus dont like believing it
i iconz Z (2:06:35 AM): but i guess i hav to
xc4Pe (2:06:42 AM): it takes time
i iconz Z (2:06:43 AM): jus somethin i ggota live wit
xc4Pe (2:06:54 AM): conrad ure not loosing anything
xc4Pe (2:06:56 AM): she is
i iconz Z (2:06:57 AM): i never actually liked a girl to go out wit her
i iconz Z (2:07:01 AM): and i thought she was someone like that
i iconz Z (2:07:02 AM): but
i iconz Z (2:07:03 AM): i was wrong
xc4Pe (2:07:16 AM): well looks are deciving
xc4Pe (2:07:23 AM): thats why
i iconz Z (2:07:23 AM): tru dat
xc4Pe (2:07:28 AM): u g0tta kno people inside out
xc4Pe (2:07:35 AM): u realli g0tta
xc4Pe (2:07:49 AM): or else ure gonna find otu things abotu the person u
like that mite surprise u
i iconz Z (2:07:50 AM): like after the pain an shit we went throuh.. it seems like i got to kno
her u kno wut i mean... from he "feelings"
xc4Pe (2:07:54 AM): and u mite not like them
xc4Pe (2:08:07 AM): yea
i iconz Z (2:08:30 AM): tahts when u think
i iconz Z (2:08:31 AM): its love
i iconz Z (2:08:42 AM): but..
i iconz Z (2:08:43 AM): it isnt
xc4Pe (2:08:46 AM): i dunno conrad
xc4Pe (2:08:50 AM): love is weird
xc4Pe (2:08:53 AM): it surprises u
xc4Pe (2:08:56 AM): for once
xc4Pe (2:08:59 AM): i think goldy likes me
xc4Pe (2:09:03 AM): for once
xc4Pe (2:09:29 AM): so if u want
xc4Pe (2:09:32 AM): dont' loose ure hope
xc4Pe (2:09:38 AM): cause love just mite surprise u
i iconz Z (2:09:46 AM): i thought it did
i iconz Z (2:09:56 AM): when she finanlly talked to me
i iconz Z (2:10:01 AM): but
i iconz Z (2:10:02 AM): now
i iconz Z (2:10:08 AM): i see things at a different view
xc4Pe (2:10:16 AM): but if u have all des questions
xc4Pe (2:10:21 AM): wut ive learned
xc4Pe (2:10:27 AM): is taht theres onlie ONE answer
xc4Pe (2:10:30 AM): and its her answer
xc4Pe (2:10:41 AM): i think i've kept from tellin goldy i liked her for 2 long
xc4Pe (2:10:46 AM): i regret it
xc4Pe (2:10:51 AM): i shoulda told her sooner
i iconz Z (2:11:03 AM): tell goldy u liekd annie?
xc4Pe (2:11:08 AM): haha no
xc4Pe (2:11:11 AM): tyell goldy i liked her
i iconz Z (2:11:13 AM): lol
i iconz Z (2:11:14 AM): o
xc4Pe (2:11:43 AM): damn
xc4Pe (2:11:46 AM): i miss blazing
xc4Pe (2:11:48 AM): so much
xc4Pe (2:11:54 AM): u have no idea
i iconz Z (2:12:17 AM): haha
i iconz Z (2:12:20 AM): i duno
i iconz Z (2:12:25 AM): im gonna try to take a break
i iconz Z (2:12:26 AM): cuz i kno
i iconz Z (2:12:29 AM): summer im gonna smoke alot
i iconz Z (2:12:52 AM): nd i jus gota try to live witout... for now.. cuz ive smoked for awhile
xc4Pe (2:12:56 AM): the tric kis to keep ureself occupied
i iconz Z (2:13:03 AM): yeh
xc4Pe (2:13:08 AM): heh
i iconz Z (2:13:09 AM): i kno but
i iconz Z (2:13:13 AM): it still
i iconz Z (2:13:17 AM): goes across ur mind
i iconz Z (2:13:21 AM): u cant jus not think about it
i iconz Z (2:13:26 AM): cuz u love that feelin
xc4Pe (2:13:27 AM): its a temporaray esacpe
xc4Pe (2:13:29 AM): its not worth it
xc4Pe (2:13:35 AM): the hassel
i iconz Z (2:13:36 AM): its an escape if u make it an escape
xc4Pe (2:13:37 AM): the money
i iconz Z (2:13:42 AM): i dont smoke when im pissed
xc4Pe (2:13:43 AM): no
i iconz Z (2:13:47 AM): for a reason
xc4Pe (2:13:53 AM): but u smoke b/c ure pissed
i iconz Z (2:13:58 AM): nah
i iconz Z (2:13:59 AM): i dont
xc4Pe (2:14:01 AM): u smoke b/c of ure troubles
i iconz Z (2:14:02 AM): i smoke when im happy
i iconz Z (2:14:08 AM): i used to do that
i iconz Z (2:14:10 AM): it makes it worst
xc4Pe (2:14:27 AM): heh its not worth it conrad
i iconz Z (2:14:32 AM): yeah i kno
xc4Pe (2:14:37 AM): if i can do it
xc4Pe (2:14:39 AM): so can u
i iconz Z (2:14:48 AM): lol
xc4Pe (2:14:51 AM): x)
i iconz Z (2:14:52 AM): try blazin 2 years
xc4Pe (2:14:59 AM): don't matta
i iconz Z (2:15:07 AM): trus me the longer u do.. the harder to stop
xc4Pe (2:15:09 AM): its the craving
xc4Pe (2:15:25 AM): how hard it is is depentant on u
i iconz Z (2:15:26 AM): cause the longer u do it... ur used to dooin it all the time
xc4Pe (2:15:29 AM): how hard u make it
i iconz Z (2:15:33 AM): its everything
xc4Pe (2:15:36 AM): if ure not exposed to that kinda environment
xc4Pe (2:15:38 AM): then its all good
xc4Pe (2:15:42 AM): keep reself occupied
i iconz Z (2:15:46 AM): yeh
xc4Pe (2:15:57 AM): just drink
xc4Pe (2:15:57 AM): lol
i iconz Z (2:15:58 AM): ive blaze and workout
xc4Pe (2:16:01 AM): thats all i g0tta say
xc4Pe (2:16:02 AM): haha
i iconz Z (2:16:06 AM): 2 hobbies of mine
xc4Pe (2:16:22 AM): ure blazing already cost u so much conrad
xc4Pe (2:16:24 AM): u don't even kno it
i iconz Z (2:16:26 AM): i do
xc4Pe (2:16:38 AM): then quit while ure ahead
i iconz Z (2:16:53 AM): dont worry bout me....im trin
xc4Pe (2:17:10 AM): okie dokie
i iconz Z (2:17:11 AM): im slowly cuttin down
i iconz Z (2:17:14 AM): even if i smoke
i iconz Z (2:17:15 AM): i do lil
i iconz Z (2:17:19 AM): im tryin to hold it down
xc4Pe (2:17:20 AM): heh ok
xc4Pe (2:17:26 AM): i g0tta new stud
i iconz Z (2:17:30 AM): coo
xc4Pe (2:17:32 AM): triANGLE
i iconz Z (2:17:36 AM): hehe
i iconz Z (2:17:37 AM): ic
i iconz Z (2:17:40 AM): yo
i iconz Z (2:17:43 AM): i gota sleep
i iconz Z (2:17:44 AM): nice talk
xc4Pe (2:17:45 AM): yea tru
xc4Pe (2:17:47 AM): same
xc4Pe (2:17:50 AM): peycers
i iconz Z (2:17:51 AM): 1
xc4Pe (2:17:54 AM): 2
xc4Pe (2:17:55 AM): 3
xc4Pe (2:17:55 AM): 4
xc4Pe (2:17:55 AM): 5
xc4Pe (2:18:00 AM): i hate it when u and joe do that
