”Rajinder nearly eighty was almost my age; met me today morning wearing a vacant look on his face. “What is wrong with you?” I asked politely. “I fear, you will make fun of me,” he spoke candidly.” “Come on; don’t think it like that?” “O.K if you insist, I will have to open up. Tell me honestly would you like yourself to be drawn by a leash by your wife?” “Don’t mince matters; tell me the reason of your disappointment?” “You may recall when Sanjay Gandhi was an M.P, and he forcibly sent the government employees for vasectomy operation, and we got two kilos of desi ghee along with some cash. The doctor told me that the operation will not affect my natural urge and in reality it did not, and I am really thankful to Late Sanjay Gandhi for producing fewer kids, which is a blessing in disguise.”
“What is the problem now?” “The problem is that I am depriving my wife of the needs of her body for the past few years. I don‘t feel the urge and keep myself busy in something or the other. I can’t ask her to find another companion; I am sure she will be up at arms letting me feel guilty.” “Have you consulted any doctor?” “Do you think Harish the doctor can set me right at this age? The fact is I keep busy reading and writing and don’t feel the urge to indulge. Neither I go to watch movies nor do I see porn pictures which can give a boost to my buried emotions. I don’t think even that will work on me.” Fear stepped up in the pit of Rajinder’s stomach and he felt disturbed. Fear is good if momentary, it compels you to perform beyond what you think is physically possible for you, but intolerable if it grabs you by the tail and swings you around.”
“Is there anything else troubling you?” “O.K. dear, when once the secret is out, let me spit out some more poison. For any discussion even if it concerns her she doesn‘t respond positively as if some passions are burning within her. I remain deeply engrossed in my writing job and if she asks me anything when I am off mind, her voice doesn’t reach my ears and the question of answering doesn‘t arise. She feels offended and tells me that I pay attention only to things which concern me, and refuse to respond even on insistence. With her agitated behaviour I sense physically smitten and believe filled with great low. I observe silence and isolation otherwise it would have been difficult to stay in the same house.” “I think it is your aching stupidity which is troubling you.” “In spite of this blame game she has an intense love for me, desires to remain under my shadow, and treats me lavishly. She doesn’t want me to die, unless I dispose off her body even a day earlier my people take me to the cremation ground.”
“You believe that she loves you passionately and if she is little rude to you at times you should forget it and change the subject. It is the fag end of your life and it is imperative that you must behave nicely with her as you have been doing for the last so many years. It will soothe your nerves and mind. May God forbid, if she dies early you will feel completely shattered. This is high time you may keep her humour alive, pamper her, and assure her for all the help she needs. Once in a while you take her to see a good movie and give more importance to her womanhood. You must not always be in denial about your vitality, which can be balanced with your spicy talk about celebrities and hot news about beauty goddesses.”
“You are right. I should not sit and grieve, but try alternatives.”
“You can provide her the mental and emotional space she needs to mitigate the distress prevailing on her. Remaining agitated could be catastrophic and would be difficult to handle. If you don’t change your life style your ability to grow and find bliss could be disturbed. I believe even strong interaction of genders brings out a whole new glow in a woman. Ladies can very well understand the aging factor, and I presume you are cloudy in your judgment to understand her. She knows that self-control is essential at this stage, but this happening is the result of something lacking somewhere otherwise your long experience must have shown you ripe with age, and both of you should have felt tied up to each other with no regrets.”
“I assure to shape to my desires to yank her into my arms, making her anger melt and let her feel the inner peace as before. Thanks for the timely warning. I shall take every care not to let her feel disgruntled and will speed up my efforts to glue our relationship.” “This is high time to feel about it otherwise the whole thing is likely to blow up in your face and it will be difficult to trace back steps even to lead a normal life.” “I am very much thankful to you, for blowing a whistle on me at the appropriate time.” “I still impress on you to study the whole situation in new perspective to find out where you are lacking. It will alleviate your anxiety and cushion her stress.” “I feel like reborn inside out. I am relieved and rejoiced both. I still have a feeling that the trouble started out of my losing control on my liveliness. I never thought of alternatives, which you have suggested.”
“My Dear friend, adore your luck being born in India and not in USA and Europe; otherwise inept situation like this would have kicked you out of your bedroom."
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