| 2005 |
| What I owe you I may never be sure of. When I was lost You snatched me from the Oblivion - The dark I was trying to hide in. With three kisses You unlocked the woman in me The woman held in the shackles Of her own making. And though I hated you With a passion equal to yours for me - I now respect you, I now regard you, I now see you in a new light. You saw past the facade And knew me, knew what Could be in me, Once the mask was removed. And though I hated you With a fever pitch of madness - I now see you, I now regard you, I now realize you were in part My savior, No, not like the one in three, But a rescuer giving the dying A breath of life. In three kisses, Not one like the tales of Grimm describe, In three kisses You resurrected the dead woman In me, The woman now trying To make sense of it all A little too late. But, perhaps - Perhaps just in the nick of time To learn how to be a woman Free from the bindings Wrapped around her by Herself, her heritage, her history - Perhaps just in time To love without the bonds Of the one who carried her, Molded her, Guided her into her mistakes, Though she only has one person To blame for them - Me. Myself/Herself. The person I was when I Believed the lies Of my creator's making. So now, I thank you. Though it is improper To thank one for a kiss I improperly thank you. Though you may not remember I wanted more than just a kiss I thank you quite improperly. Though I will never see you Or ever have the chance To kiss you again, I thank you my handsome prince, Not like the prince I once dreamed of. I thank you my friend, My rescuer once hated Now beloved. |
| My heart is beating, Thumping in my chest In a new way. My world has flipped on it's side, My mind spinning In this new way of thinking. I'm frightened. These emotions - Not new, But old And unused Fit like a child's dress On a teenaged girl. Teach me to love, Oh my Father God, Teach me to love. Teach me to sing With the emotions I hide so far On the inside Of my heart. My Father My God My Redeemer Teach me to love like He who walked through fire For me. Oh my Father My Center My Heart Teach me to love You more, Because when my heart Beats for You I am never alone, Because when my heart Beats for You I am Full. The Emptiness The Sinking The Falling Ends When my spirit sings Your song. |
I don't know how I got it, This blueness. The spot on my leg that Won't fade As quickly as I wish. The reminder of a bump, A hit, A light tap on my skin. He says I bruise easily, That I have skin Too thin for play. It doesn't matter. I don't remember Where they came from. The blueness appears And fades Like the ebb of the tide We watch in the summer. |
| I love you For so many reasons. For the way you Stumble on your words When you're a bit nervous. For the way you Smile a little to the side When you've goofed up. For the way your Nose crinkles When that smile appears. I love you For the way you Sigh When something touches your heart. For the way you Inspire me to write When I wish to forget. For the way you Decided it didn't matter When I realized For so many reasons I love you. (For the one who got away, written a little too late) |
| This grace Is hard to handle, Hard to understand. The unconditional love So freely given Is something I don't deserve. Don't You see me? Don't You know what I've done? You know all my past And what was in that black heart And You loved me then Just as You do now. I don't understand, Though I long to. This love Is so unlike anything I've ever known, So unlike the loves I've had. It's changed me, Changed my heart And not for wrong. |