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Promises Chapter 20 Krystle took a deep breath as she tuned in to listen to what the nurse had to say. "Ma'am" she started, "I'm sorry to say that the doctors couldn't do anything for him. We tried our..." she stopped as she saw how Krystle was reacting. At first her hands began to shake. She covered her mouth carefully as a loud scream came out, "NO..." she yelled. She fell to the floor in front of Nick. She cried out loud not caring who heard her this time. Rocking herself back and forth she yelled again, "NO... A.J... NO..." those seemed to be the only words she could say as she buried her face in her hands. Everyone around her was crying, but she could not hear them. Her heart felt like it was torn to pieces. "WHY... WHY NOW... I NEED HIM... OH GOD..." she got up and ran down the hallway. She felt sick to her stomach and had to find a washroom. As she paced the hallway she came to one and entered the stall quickly. She threw up repeatedly, crying as she did so. Without getting up, she sat and cried, "Why now... I still need him... why?" she asked out loud. She got up slowly and walked out of the stall. As she got to the mirror she looked at it carefully. There stood a girl, who looked exactly the same as she did 2 months ago. She felt like nothing had gotten better, only worse. "Why can't I just keep someone... why? I needed him!" she fell to the floor, too weak to get up. Sandra walked in shortly after. She too was crying, but not nearly as much as Krystle. She lowered her self to kneel in front of her, "Krys... I'm so sorry... I dunno..." she was short of words. Krystle just lay there slumped in a ball. She yelled out again, which made Sandra cry harder. "Why?" she asked looking up at Sandra.... "Why now... why him?" she felt so weak. Sandra helped her up. She helped her walk out into the hallway and back to where everyone was still sitting, "Why him?" she said looking at the floor. Everyone just gathered around her. "Why?" she kept saying. She desperately wanted an answer, but she knew she'd never get it. Her cries no longer came; instead she stood silently and talked to herself, "Why Krys? It's all your fault. If you didn't love him... this would have never happened..." Brian heard what she was saying. Tear-filled eyes, he walked over to her, "Krys... it's not your fault. He was..." he was cut off. Krystle pushed away from him, "no Brian... you're wrong... It was me.." her words spat out as she cried harder, "It happened before... I loved someone before... and I loved him... and they�re both dead..." she looked down at the floor and cried again. Sandra came over and embraced her friend. Krystle however, continued to talk to herself, "its all my fault... I told you not to love him... I told you..." she said as she cried. The other's sat silently as they watched her fall apart.Krystle sat in her and A.J's room for the past two days with no food. She refused to have anyone talk to her, and today was the funeral. A.J's mom was going to come pick Krystle up. She too was having a hard time dealing with her only son's death. Krystle slowly got dressed. Before she left, she touched all of his belongings. "I'm so sorry A.J..." she said. She cried all the way down the stairs until she reached the front door. She took a deep breath as she answered the door. To her surprise it wasn't his mother, instead it was Sandra and Jennie. As they saw how Krystle was, they began to cry. "Krys... We're so sorry... Look at you!" Jennie said trying to fix her dress. Krystle had not done anything to herself, besides putting in her dress. Her eyes were all red from her sleepless nights and endless cries. "Come on Krys... just try and stay together... okay Hon?" Jennie said holding back her tears very well. Krystle nodded her head. Sandra, who to was crying hard, pulled her out of the house. Krystle didn't pull a struggle. Her eyes spilled over in tears as she walked out of the door. This was the first time in days she had been outside. In the car, Krystle sat alone in the back without saying a word. She leaned her head against the window and watched the road. Her eyes filled with tears as she talked to herself; "I'm so sorry A.J... It's all my fault..." she covered her face to hide her tears, but both Sandra and Jennie knew how she felt.At the funeral, Krystle refused to sit with anyone. She sat at the end of the isle. She told herself, that if she got close, she'd love them... and that they'd leave her. She was too hurt for that to come again. Throughout the whole ceremony, Krystle cried. Everyone heard her and tried to get close but she pushed away... At the cemetery, Krystle stayed close to everyone. Being human, it was too hard to stay away. As she watched the casket get lowered she cried without control, "I love you baby... I love you..." she dropped her rose in and walked away alone. Krystle walked up to the cemetery alone. She found A.J's tombstone and sat next to it. It read: Alexander James 'A.J' McLean Krystle passed her hand over the encarved stone. Tears fell from her eyes as she spoke, "I'll always love you A.J... Always..." just then she heard someone calling her name. She turned to see who it was.... "Krys... Krystle.. Krystle Ross" her mother yelled. Krystle shook herself out of her sleep. "Huh?" she said rubbing her eyes. "You've been asleep for nearly 3 hours. Get up... A.J's on his way.." her mother said turning on the light. Krystle sat up in her bed. She looked around her room. As she touched her face, she noticed her cheeks were wet from crying. Was that really only a dream? She got up slowly and got dressed. A few minutes later the doorbell rang. She walked out of her room and stood at the top of the stairs. She saw A.J standing there looking his best. "Hey baby!" he said. She ran down the stairs and wrapped her arms around him. She started to cry. As they pulled apart, he looked at her funny, "You ok Krys?" he asked wiping away her tears, "Just promise me one thing?" she said, He nodded his head, "Promise you won't leave me..." she said looking him in the eyes. He pulled her in tightly and whispered in her ear. She held him tightly as he spoke, "I promise baby... I promise I'll never leave you!"THE END.... SO WHAT DID YOU GUYS THINK??? |