If You Knew What I Knew by Claudia ([email protected]) Chapter 19 - Don't Want You Back I couldn't take it anymore I hadn't had a decent night of sleep in months now. I was sitting in the garden thinking about the whole Karen / Claudia mess I was in right now when all of the sudden I made a decision and picked up my phone... I was doing my homework when the phone rang. The display told me it was A.J. "Hey suga' whassup?" "Claud' I... I need to tell you something... please hear me out before you start yelling okay? I... I have another girlfriend... I... I... I really wanted to tell you about it and what there was between Karen & I is over... and.." "WHAT?!?! You f***ing bastard! How could you do this to me?! I trusted you... Oh my God... I... I hate you!" "Please Claudia, let me finish, I'm going to tell her about you... tonight... I want you in my life... believe me... I'm not doing this to hurt either one of you..." "You are not the guy I thought you was... I was right by thinking things were feeling too right..." next to the static on the phoneline it was quiet now. "I... I'm sorry Claud'... I really wanted to tell you but I kept on pushing it away from me... scared of how you'd react... of how she'll react..." "You're damn right you should be scared of our reaction you two timing bastard!" "Please... listen to me... the thing between Karen and me isn't like it used to be... it's gonna be over tonight... I want to be with you Claud'... believe me! You know I love you..." "Really? Well, you certainly never told me before..." This was true, he had told me he cared about me, and that he liked being with me, he had told me many times before how much he missed me but now I realised he had never said those three simple words to me... That didn't matter anymore now... What had been between us was gone now. "I really do love you Claudia... you have to believe me... I didn't want to lose you... that's why I hadn't told you yet... that's why I didn't tell Karen yet... She can't help that I fell in love with you... she doesn't even know of your existence... yet..." "You have to tell her what type of scum you are... Or else I'll ask Brian for her number, I'm sure he'll give it to me..." "No, don't... I'll tell her... really, you have got to believe me... just please think twice about this about us...'n try to see this through my eyes... " He sounded so desperate but right now I couldn't care less... he had hurt my trust in him. The more I thought about it the more I started to hate him. I switched off the phone and started to cry... It was a messy break up... I wished that I had taken more time to think about the things I had been wanting to say to her, because what I had said right now had come out all wrong and now she probably will never want to speak to me again... Next: Chapter 20 -FanFics -Home