If You Knew What I Knew by Claudia ([email protected]) Chapter 13 - The One Ellen dragged me backstage right after the show and asked me the same question again, this time immediately adding that I shouldn't lie to her. She knew me too well... I admitted that I also had noticed that A.J. could very well be the guy I had been looking for... and I even told her that I was too afraid to talk to him because he was different than I had expected... much different... "Tell me N O W!" I was shielding off my microphone with my hand so the audience wouldn't hear and Brian shot an angry look at me. " He couldn't talk right now... not in the middle of the show! "L A T E R!" he spat back at me and we ignored eachother for the rest of the show. "Okay... so what if it IS him... I'm not sure if I want to talk to him now... I mean... He's famous and absolutely gorgeous... why would he want to hang out with me...?! Tons of girls want to meet him... hang out with him... Hell; even have his babies..." I mumbled to myself... even though I was Dutch I always had a tendency to talk English to myself... And I guess it always helped me keeping my English in good shape. Ellen looked at me strangely, I had never done that in company before so she didn't know if I was suddenly talking English to her or if I had finally snapped and gone all weird on her. She tried to remain in control of the situation and answered back in English; "Because you both experienced hell together... and because he has been looking for you. Brian has told me himself..." I hadn't noticed that I had been thinking out loud again so I looked at her quite surprised when she had suddenly answered me in English. I started laughing, the whole situation was so stupid... I had been looking for the guy for ages, now when I finally had found him I didn't want to meet him so bad anymore... and now Ellen was probably thinking I was a couple of sandwiches short of a picnic as well... G R E A T! "T A L K T O M E!" I grabbed Bri' by the throat and pushed him against the dressingroom wall as soon as we had entered it. "Lemme go... Ellen's friend... have you talked to her? Have you noticed her... at all?" Brian said trying to regain his breath after I had let him go again. "Ah... yeah... ahm... No, no I haven't, why? That's not her... her hair is different, and no piercing." Nick grinned at me. "Ahm... I hate to bother you Sherlock... but things like that can change..." Brian smiled now too, how could I be so stupid?! "Thanx Watson, but I believe that right now you really shouldn't antagonize him... But, Frack IS right... maybe you should talk to her... you would recognize her voice wouldn't you?" I asked him when I had finally calmed down a bit. I hated it when people played around with my emotions... I wanted answers... right now. "Is Ellen still here... ?" Brian smiled, he was clearly looking forward to his date tonight. "Yes, she's meeting up with me in about 20 minutes, I'm not sure if she's gonna bring her friend though... Well, I hope not..." I began pacing around the room. "Doesn't she have a cell phone... can't you reach her? And tell her to bring Claudia with her... H... how did you know it was her anyway?" Brian sat down on the chair beside me and told me how he had found out. "Did Ellen tell you anything about her... if she was trying to find me... or if she had ever mentioned me...?" The others had gathered around us and were listening in quietly. "No, we haven't really talked about it... but she recognized the story or else she wouldn't have said it to me right?" He said, probably trying to cheer me up a bit, because I still wasn't looking too happy... "What if she doesn't want to see me again... " I thought and looked at Brian who had found her for me... I was so happy at first, but now there came so many doubts, did she know already but didn't she want to see me? And if she didn't why?! I had missed her so much... I had fallen for her mind, she was so funny and so sweet and just a very sincere human being, and looking back to it I had realized that it had been so refreshing to talk to a girl without her panicking... or even just knowing who I was... "I gotta go find her... maybe she's still in the building..."I told the guys and left the dressing room still wearing my stage outfit... but I didn't care, I had to go find her before it was too late... again...! "What the hell are you laughing about?!" Ellen was still talking English, which made me laugh even harder, I couldn't help it the whole situation seemed hilarious all of the sudden and I couldn't stop laughing... Next: Chapter 14 -FanFics -Home