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Just To Be Close To You Chapter 3 I walked to the table where every one was sitting and my friend said "you're late as usual, we've been waiting for you for more than an hour" so I said "Sorry but I was busy in a basket ball game with the guys.." I pulled a chair next to my friend to sit down, but Brian said "No we saved you a place next to Kevin" so I went and sat by Kevin and I said "Hey wassup, haya doin' " he smiled in a weird way and said "Fine Fine", Poor Kevin tried to ignore every thing I did, but every time I was doing something worse than the thing before.. When we started dinner it was all fancy food, I had to use a special fork and knife for each thing and I didn't know what was for what, I thought to my self "I should have known this was gonna happen, my friend's father is really rich and he's used to this stuff all the time and so is she, but when my Dad used to do something like this I never went".. When I tried to cut some of the stake it suddenly flew and landed right on the waiter's shiny bold head, "Ooops I used the wrong knife" was all I could say, and every one was giggling including me, but suddenly every one stopped when they looked at Kevin, as his face turned red, but still he never said a word.. The waiter suggested a burger with some fries I said yes right away, I don't think Kevin liked it coz when I said yes he shouted "WHAT" and one of my friends said "_______ we're not in McDonalds or Burger King" so I said "I'm sorry but I can't eat this food it sucks" "Shhh not so loud" said my other friend, but to every ones surprise AJ called back the waiter and asked him for two more burgers with fries for him and his girlfriend, and so did Nick and Brian with his girlfriend followed, When I looked at AJ he smiled and then I looked at Brian so he winked, so I understood that they were all trying to help me out... When we finally got our food I ate so fast, I was really hungry, any time someone asked me something or talked to me I answered back with my mouth full, When Kevin finally got fed up he said so nicely "Don't talk with your mouth full, it's annoying" with a big yet scary smile.. When we were done with dessert I pulled the empty chair next to me and I put my feet up I was so stuffed and I stretched my arms so high and yoned suddenly I heard a big bang on the table, when I looked next to me I found out it was Kev's head that banged on the table so I asked him "Kevvy are you ok??" but he never lifted his head up so I asked him "Don't you like the fancy stuff??" he finally lifted his head, he looked really angry and he said "I like the fancy stuff, but I don't like the fancy company" I knew that he meant me, but I never said a word, and no one else did for a while.. After every one was done, every guy asked his girl for a nice romantic slow dance, Aj asked his girlfriend, and so did Brian, Nick asked one of my friends, and Howie asked another, I was left with Kevin and my friend who planned for this whole night, Kevin then turned around and looked towards me and said "would you like to dance...?" I smiled and I said "ye.." but to my surprise Kevin continued "__________?" as he said my friend's name who was right behind me, he was asking my friend to dance not me, I felt so sad, I was sitting there all alone looking at them all having a great time, I never felt like this before so ashamed of the way I look, I hated my self I was about to cry for maybe the first time in my life.. But then I felt a hand taping my shoulder, it was AJ asking me to dance, he knew what was happening and he tried to help, as we were dancing he said "You really know how to dance, you're very good" I smiled and said "Thanks Aj you're just being nice, but at least someone noticed" he smiled back so softly and said "I mean it, I know a good dancer when I see one and you are very talented, and for the one who doesn't notice.. well make him notice, just give him what he wants" as he kissed my forehead and smiled at me and left to sit next to his girlfriend when I looked at her she winked at me and they both smiled at each other.. They wanted to help me and I knew what to do I had to listen to what AJ said.. But I needed someone to help me... When every one came back AJ commented, "You know guys this very beautiful lady is a great dancer" as he looked at me and smiled they all looked at me but Kevin never bothered at all, then Howie said "Really, I didn't now that, where did you learn?" and then I said "Well my Dad was a Ballroom dancer and he taught me how to dance" Kevin suddenly turned around and said "REALLY?!! I didn't know that.." I was amazed first but then I knew that I finally grabbed his attention so I answered "You never asked.." I think maybe that was little bit below the belt but then I continued "Actually he got lots of awards for his dancing, I wish if I could be half as good as him" AJ smiled and said "Well from what I saw, you're on your way, just keep it up"... Later Brian suggested we go for a walk by the lake and we all agreed, the moon was shinning so bright that night it was beautiful, we were all walking together when every two couples started leaving together, Aj and his girl, Brian and his girl, Howie with one of my friends, Nick with another of my fiends, and my last friend called her boyfriend to join us, so me and Kevin ended up walking together all alone so I said "Thank you for inviting me tonight" so he said "You're welcome, but it was your friend's idea not mine so I think you should be thanking her" I smiled and said "I will later, she's got a special thank you waiting for her from me" so he said "A thank you with your fist" I stopped and said "Why are you trying to hurt me in every way you can??" he just looked at me and said "Maybe I'm trying to save you not hurt you" "I don't get it" I said, he held my arm tight and said "I'm trying to save you from what you are, a girl with your beauty deserves better, you should be treated like a queen and you should act like a queen too" I looked at him and said "Why can't you like me the way I am? I like you the way you are, even if you weren't a BSB" so he said "I like you too, I like you alot, but I feel like I'm walking with one of my bodyguards or one of my buddies from high school when I'm with you" I smiled and said "Kev this is the way I am and if we like each other what's the problem" I stared into his eyes for a moment and I kissed him, I felt so happy, but the moment ended when he pulled me away and said "I can't do this, I like you, but I hate what you're doing to your self, I'm sorry.." I was so shocked I felt like crying and I said "But we can be together, I wanna be with you" then he said "I can't be with you, I need a lady, someone tender and soft, who knows how to behave in any situation, I'm a celebrity so I need a girl who knows how to behave infront of the press and fans.. I'm so sorry you're not like that.." then I did it I cried, I tried to hold the tears back but I couldn't they just burst right out of my eyes like a volcano, but he held my face so tenderly and tried to wipe the tears but I pushed his hand away and I yelled "So you want a lady, Why didn't you just say so before you came to my house, before I fell for you??" he looked so sad and said "I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, if I agree to stay with you our lives will be like hell.." I didn't wait for long I said "I'm sorry I wasted your time Mr. Richardson" and I left and I realized that I was running away from him again, but this time he never came after me, I passed by my friends, they were coming to tell us it's time to go, they were so surprised to see me cry, it was the very first time they ever see me cry they tried to stop me but I never stopped no matter how much they called my name.. An hour later I found myself infront of my sister's house, I knocked the door so hard I woke up the whole neighborhood, when my sister finally opened the door she said "Oh my God what happened" I screamed "He hates me and I love him" as I threw my self at her.. She took me into her house and she made me spend the night with her, she looked so confused and worried when she said "What on earth happened to make you cry so much??" it was maybe the second time she ever saw my tears in her entire life, I couldn't say a thing all I did was cry more and more, then she said "Come on you've always been the strong one, nothing could hurt you, nothing could get to you, what happened??".. She then decided to leave me alone and talk to me the next morning, then she asked me to get some sleep.. But how could I sleep with all this pain crushing my heart more and more every second, I stayed up all night in the balcony I sat on my sister's rocking chair looking at the moon, remembering what happened, it made me angrier each time I thought of it.. And my tears were racing down my face like the River Nile. The next morning I woke up when I heard my sister's voice saying goodbye to her kids and her husband, to find my self still on the rocking chair.. Half an hour later she came upstairs with a big tray, she made me my favorite break fast, French toast, pancakes and huge glass of orange juice, I said "You still remember what I like" she smiled and said "Of course I do, how could I forget when my kids are exactly like their aunt??" , we both sat down and I started telling her every single thing that happened, so she paused for a while and then she said "Look this guy has strong feelings for you, so right now he's not the problem.. but you are" I under stood what she meant right away so I said "Tell me what to do, help me become what he wants me to be" she gave me a big hug and said "leave it all to me" and she held my hand and pulled me, I asked "Where are we going??" she pushed me in the car as she said "Shut up and trust me".. She took me shopping in the most expensive and elegant stores in town, we bought so many things... Clothes, from night dresses to shoes, high heels which I hate most to accessories to make up.. My sister didn't know that buying everything was the easiest thing to do, the hard stuff was still to come.. Wearing all the clothes we bought and trying every thing out was no problem it was all perfect, the first time I looked into the mirror I yelled "Where did I go??" I looked really different, but the tough part was when she had to teach me how to walk properly in high heels, how to talk and what I should do in any situation.. It was really hard at the beginning, I used to wear boots and sneakers all the time now I have to wear shoes and with high heels, I used to wear pants and jeans 24/7 on any occasion now I have skirts or dresses and something for each occasion whether it's dinner or a wedding or just going out shopping.. I had to wear make up when I never did before in my life, I believed that this was for the best I kept saying to my self "This is how I'm gonna have Kevin, to be what he want's me to be" and that's what kept me going.. Talk about doing anything for the one you love!!! My sister almost lost hope it wasn't easy changing me, it was like teaching a little baby how to get up and walk in the same day, but after 2 months 3 weeks 5 days and 12 hours of hard work YES! I finally did it, I was re-created.. When my brothers saw how different I looked they were really amazed they never wanted to talk to me, we used to be buddies, hanging out together playing games and practical jokes on people, but now they knew it wasn't going to be the same.. Even my friends didn't know me when they first saw me, and _________ my friend never believed me when I told her until she came and saw me for herself, she screamed, she couldn't believe her eyes, she told me that the Back Street boys are coming back after a 2 month tour in Europe and that they're getting together again next week then she said "This is a great opportunity to show Kevin what he means to you, we're meeting them in the same restaurant, what do you say??" I gave her a big nasty smile as I said "I'd LOVE to come" and we both started laughing, we both understood what we were going to do.. I felt the days go by so slow but finally the moment has come, I went to my sister's place earlier than we decided, I was so nervous, but she was great, she tried her best to make me look beautiful, and I must say she did a great job, when I came out of her room her husband was so amazed then he said "Wow!! Remind me why didn't I marry you instead" my sister said "coz you're in love with me!!" as she pinched his cheek so hard he screamed so I asked him "Do you really think I look nice??" "You look gorgeous, go knock em' dead" he said, he made me so confident, I gave my sister a big hug and I got in the car and drove to the restaurant...Next: Chapter 4 |