"Unravel" by Evil Asian
Genius
For you and you alone, I shall spin
a dream. Of course, by the time you wake, it will be too late.
Let us then, my dear puppet, play.
It was a trap, and Hisoka knew it.
But he couldn’t turn away - he couldn’t turn back. It drew him, irresistibly, a
will so strong and beguiling that he could only watch as he turned the latch,
helpless as he opened the door.
Muraki’s silent call drew him
closer. He made his way through the black door of the white house, past the
vase of fragrant white roses, the bare wooden floor slippery against his
sock-clad feet.
I told you that I would get my
revenge, did I not? The poker game’s consequences leave a long shadow.
Even though I wasn’t ready for him
quite yet that night, Tsuzuki, it doesn’t mean I won’t keep my promise to you.
I like to think of myself as a man of my word.
It seemed as though he was caught in
the midst of a dream, but it wasn’t - he was awake, he was sure of it. Hisoka
forced himself to try to focus, try to fight against that soft siren call, the
voice that commanded the firing of his neurons to place one foot forward at a
time, sending him ever closer to Muraki.
Past the side table with a
carelessly discarded newspaper, the bookshelves with their neatly piled
burdens, the ornate workings of a deep plush rug, the polished curve of the
banister. Hisoka felt his fingers scrabble against the smooth wooden rail, his
fingers the only parts of him that seemed to work properly, trying to resist,
trying to keep the rest of his body from ascending. But he couldn’t seem to get
a grip on the wood, and instead, his feet kept propelling him forward, even as
he tried willing muscles to tense, to wait, to stop. But nothing seemed to work
properly.
You struggle so beautifully, your
slender fingers the only hint that your will is betraying mine. It’s as lovely
as a butterfly caught in a spider’s web, bedangled in silver thread and crystal
dew.
I can only hope to be as relentless
as the spider I wish to be.
Hisoka’s breath was running fast -
in his mind, he wondered if there was anyone who knew where he was, any person
that would find him, would rescue him. Now wasn’t the time for bravado - all he
wanted was to get away, no matter what.
Instead, his feet blithely brought
him to the top of the winding staircase, pausing, before continuing down the
hall to his left. The late afternoon sun poured in hazily through the tall
windows, leaving his shadow to trail against the wall to his side, a slave to
his own will just as he was a slave to Muraki’s.
Hisoka’s eyes betrayed his fear as
he came closer to the closed door at the end of the hall. His hand reached up
to tap the door, even before he could try to stop himself.
"Come." Muraki’s voice.
Hisoka’s heart pounded faster. Panicked, he tried to force his hand from
opening the door, but it reached out anyway, and turned the handle, pushing the
heavy wooden door open. Hisoka stepped inside.
"Ah, it’s you," Muraki
said, looking up from his desk. It was a markedly small room; an antique
writing desk that Muraki was working at, a cushioned alcove seat in the tall
paned window, a bookshelf that took up part of one of the walls. It didn’t seem
like much, but for the two other doors that branched off from it. They were
closed.
Hisoka opened his mouth to speak,
but it seemed that nothing would come out, no words, not even a whimper of
negation.
"Suffice to say, I think we can
skip the preliminaries today since we both know why you’re here - why don’t you
have a seat? I’ll be with you in a bit," Muraki said, gesturing at the
window seat. Hisoka’s body turned and without further complaint, seated itself
in the dusty cushions of the alcove.
"I’m afraid I can’t offer too
much along the way of company just yet," Muraki’s voice continued, as he
turned his back on Hisoka. "I’ve some work to do. You seem so very tense.
Perhaps you should relax for now."
At those last few words, Hisoka was
suddenly freed. He spent a few seconds catching his breath, his muscles shaking
from the sudden release.
"Wh...where am I?"
Hisoka’s quavering voice came haltingly, as he tried to piece together the last
few hours of his day. He remembered waking up, showering, making a phone call,
getting dressed...it was all so mundane, yet the memories kept shifting and
breaking as if not quite founded on solid reality.
"Here. It’s just a house,"
Muraki said absently, as he continued working, the scratch of his pen audible
as he moved along loose sheets of papers. "Ah, I wouldn’t try that if I
were you," he said, as Hisoka moved to stand.
Sudden dizziness. Hisoka’s legs
seemed watery beneath him, wobbling as badly as the spindly legs of a newborn
ungulate. He tried a hesitant step forward and wavered, stumbling for a moment
before he managed to catch the edge of Muraki’s desk, disturbing his paperwork.
"There now, what did I
say?" Muraki scolded, standing up. He caught Hisoka’s shoulders in his
steady hands. "You really ought to listen sometimes. It would cause you
less trouble."
"Wh-what’s wrong?" Hisoka
gasped, as he struggled to focus, the room spinning. Momentarily, it seemed as
though the ground was rushing up toward him before Muraki’s grip tightened, and
he was sat down firmly in Muraki’s chair.
"Simple enough - it takes quite
a bit of energy to control you, my dear boy. Don’t think that I’ve been wasting
myself trying to bring you here when I can draw upon your own strength and use
it against you," Muraki said, drawing close, his right hand moving to tilt
Hisoka’s face toward him, his pale fingers stroking Hisoka’s honey-dark hair.
"There now, isn’t that better?"
Hisoka recoiled from the touch as if
it were poisonous.
"Ah, so rude, so rude,"
Muraki sighed as he leaned casually against his desk. "Yet so very eager
at the same time. I could tend to that first instead of work," he said
thoughtfully, looking at the scattered papers before turning his attention back
to Hisoka. "Either one is fine with me. I’ve time enough to manage both.”
"N..." The word of
negation was on the tip of his tongue, but it never came out - Muraki caught
him up in his arms suddenly, a force sweeping him away from the relative safety
of the chair. It was an embrace that was both cruel yet gentle, grasping but
with the edges of care along its confines - Hisoka’s breath caught in surprise
as he was picked up and taken into the other room, the door opening briefly to
let them in before closing behind them.
The next thing Hisoka knew, he was
being deposited upon a large bed, the sheets cool beneath him. The room swirled
around him madly for a moment as he tried to gain his bearings. Looking up
weakly, he could see Muraki moving above him, could feel his wrists being deftly
bound with some sort of silken material, his hands drawn up over his head. He
strained his neck to see what was going on - it made the room dip nauseously
again, before he settled and realized it was the dark gray of Muraki’s tie that
secured his arms.
"Really, it’s for your own
good," Muraki said, noting the direction of Hisoka’s gaze.
"For my own good, I’d be home
reading a book," Hisoka snapped. "What do you want?"
"Want? You know what I
want," Muraki said, his eyes softly predatorial. "After all, can’t
you feel it?" He sat down next to Hisoka’s prone form, the mattress
shifting under his weight. Hisoka took deep breaths, trying to calm himself
down, trying not to evince fear as Muraki leaned down toward him, as intimate
as a lover, as dangerous as the coiling of a serpent around a stone.
"Let’s try this, shall
we?" Muraki smiled, his right hand lifting toward Hisoka’s brow, brushing
away stray strands of hair, the slender fingertips coming to rest against
Hisoka’s forehead. "Don’t worry. It won’t hurt."
A building charge of energy, and it
was gone as quickly as it came. Hisoka blinked, wondering what Muraki had done
- it was a spell, certainly, but nothing where Hisoka could immediately sense
the consequences.
"W-" Muraki’s finger
rested lightly against Hisoka’s lips, effectively sealing away the questions.
"Just rest for now. I’ll be
back for you." Muraki smiled, almost gently, but for the glint of hardness
in his visible quicksilver eye. Muraki stood up and briskly straightened the
collar of his white shirt as he left the room, closing the door carefully behind
him.
Hisoka tugged against the bonds of
his wrists experimentally, before forcing himself to relax, realizing that he
couldn’t escape. Surrounded - the bed, the walls, the furnishings - everything
felt like Muraki.
Hisoka closed his eyes, and tried silently
calling out to Tsuzuki, feeling for his presence, the familiar warmth and
absence of loneliness that signified Tsuzuki’s mental touch.
He, however, was alone.
Except that wasn’t completely true.
There was Muraki, after all.
Hisoka looked at the window as the
sun’s rays dipped lower, casting the room in growing twilight.
Please find me. Tsuzuki.
It was a constant murmuring drone
that would not stop. Irritated, Hisoka’s eyes fluttered open. Had he been
asleep? The room was dark now, but for the seep of light from the other room
framing the door. The embroidery of the coverlet was smooth beneath his cheek,
and he shifted, arms aching and uncomfortable. For a moment, Hisoka wondered
where he was before he remembered the bonds that ensnared his wrists.
He felt better, no longer weak and
dizzy from lack of energy. But it seemed so noisy, the noise that went on and
on. Fumbling, he managed to sit up, leaning against the hard carved wood of the
headboard, his arms still strongly secured behind him. By touch, he could make
out that he had been tied to the spiraling rails of the headboard, the silk tie
knotted so that it looped through the wooden slats, his wrists tied
individually.
"What is that sound?"
Hisoka muttered, as he worked at picking the knots. They weren’t tight at all,
and it would have been ridiculously easy to undo if it was possible - but it seemed
that Hisoka couldn’t even get a hold of the cloth correctly. He wasn’t sure if
it was the aftereffects of the earlier bout of weakness, some sort of subtly
crafted spell, or the irritating unrelenting noise that was throwing off his
concentration, but whatever it was, it was thwarting him from freeing himself.
"Shut up, Shut Up, SHUT
UP!" Hisoka snarled as his fingers slipped on the cloth again. He tore
viciously at the bonds in frustration. They didn’t shift an inch.
The noise changed - it now had a hint
of curiosity to it, and maybe something involving satisfaction. Then, it began
to grow louder as it came toward him.
Immediately, Hisoka understood that
it wasn’t a sound. It was the mental noise of another person. Another...
"Muraki."
The door opened, casting a flood of
sharp light in the room, momentarily blinding Hisoka before his eyes adjusted.
"Is something the matter?"
Muraki entered the room like a black storm, a thin veneer of amusement over the
bubbling roiling blackness that was his aura, his feelings. Hisoka flinched as
Muraki’s stepped closer, shrinking against the wood, feeling the hard uneven
knots of the carvings against his shoulder, forcing himself against it as if he
could melt through it or somehow dig into it to get away from the ugly prickles
and twists that sank into his senses as Muraki drew near.
"Go
away...goawaygoawaygoaway..." Hisoka shivered hard as if in caught in the
icy clutches of a deep winter blizzard. "Go away..." He whispered in
horror, shaking his head in negation, trying to block out Muraki’s emotions,
struggling wildly at his bonds.
"Are you cold?" Muraki
looked at him, evincing sympathy, yet feeling none at all. "How
uncharitable of me to leave you to catch chill. Let me alleviate that," he
said, as he sat down beside Hisoka, reaching out with his arms, as if to pull
him close. Hisoka began straining even more madly at the tie, kicking out at
Muraki, desperately trying to keep that feeling away, the rolling wave of
blackness that was like the touch of a thousand spiders crawling over his skin.
Suddenly, skin contacted skin as
Muraki’s hand touched Hisoka’s and the sensation hit a sickening feverous
pitch. Hisoka’s powers came flaring into existence, trying to blast Muraki
back, but it seemed to have no effect on the man, merely ruffling his hair as
if nothing more than a strong breeze. A moment later, Hisoka was trapped,
Muraki’s arms wrapped about him from behind.
"Now, you shouldn’t thrash
around so much," Muraki murmured into Hisoka’s ear as Hisoka frantically
tried to pull away. "You’ll hurt yourself." Muraki’s hand wandered
until he found what he was looking for, his fingers pressed expertly against a
certain point on Hisoka’s back. Immediately, Hisoka’s muscles froze up, and he
was paralyzed, pain dancing along his spine.
"What did you do?"
Hisoka’s voice cracked, as he fought between the conjoined sensations of the
physical torment and of Muraki’s presence, amplified to unbearable levels.
LetmegoletmegoletmegoI’mgoingtogoinsaneifyoudon’tletmegoletmegoletmego...
"Do? Just a little something
that I put together," Muraki’s breath was soft against his cheek, his
voice a gentle rumble against Hisoka’s ear, pulling him out of the cycle of his
thoughts. Muraki shifted their positions, so they were more comfortably seated,
Hisoka cradled against him, a mocking parody of a lover’s embrace.
"Did you know? Almost all
mechanisms in the human body, including spiritual powers work on the basis of
negative feedback, where the body protects itself from extremes with defenses
that negate those extremes..." The fingers on Muraki’s free hand traced
along Hisoka’s cheek, gliding along the petal-soft skin, and Hisoka strained,
trying to force his muscles to move, to escape, but the pressure on his back
kept him immobile.
Muraki’s lips closed in on the
tender flesh of his earlobe, coyly nipping at it, the tip of his tongue hotly
wet against Hisoka’s ear. "Knowing this, I merely switched that aspect of
your control to positive. The response then, to extremes, is to escalate. Over
the last few hours or so, your powers have become more and more sensitized as
the feedback loop cycles...it’s quite unbearable now, isn’t it?"
Hisoka whimpered, biting back a
scream as true to his word, the pressure of Muraki’s mind seemed to grow,
leaving him almost uncertain where he began and where Muraki started, as if he
could do nothing to push away that alien presence grinding at his senses.
"Oh, but that isn’t the worst
of it," Hisoka could hear the smile in Muraki’s voice. "I don’t even
have to touch you...just the thought and..."
This time, he really did scream. It
was that night all over again, the drafting lines of blood against his skin
branding him in ways that he couldn’t even begin to imagine, Muraki buried
within him, the slightest movement on the man’s part causing his muscles to
tremble and spasm and the hurt oh god, it wouldn’t stop, it was
so...so...please let me go I don’t want to die...
Immediately, Hisoka was jolted out
as if the link was severed perfectly, and for a moment, he couldn’t feel anything,
other than himself. But suddenly, it came back again, just as bad if not worse,
Muraki’s emotions crushing him underneath their punishing weight, the darkness
choking him, making the air seem unbreathable as Hisoka gasped, trying to
reconcile the onslaught.
"Still, the past is past...we
should make ourselves some new memories..." Muraki let his fingers caress
the quivering muscles of Hisoka’s throat. "You know, you’re an exquisite
toy...so very finely tuned for feeling..."
"N...n...no..." Hisoka’s
throat felt tight, as if somehow he was being strangled by the weight of the
emotions swirling around him - his own fear and anguish; Muraki’s brittle
amusement; the black shadow of insanity that seemed to snake out and about him
like thick tendrils of choking smoke. Without meaning to, a tear slid down
Hisoka’s cheek, the hot liquid streaking down his face before dripping down his
chin.
"Tears?" Muraki turned
Hisoka’s head toward him, tilting his head in his free hand, all the while
holding him steady, making sure that he was immobilized by the pressure point.
Muraki leaned forward, his silvery hair brushing against Hisoka’s cheek as his
tongue searched out the meander of the salty track, following it along the
hollow of Hisoka’s throat.
"Yes...so very sweet. Did you
know, of all my dolls, you’re my favorite?" Muraki’s breath was hot
against the fragile skin of Hisoka’s neck, his lips brushing faintly against
Hisoka as he spoke. "I always save my best for my favorites."
Hisoka whimpered, his breaths
catching in his throat painfully as his empathy once again sensitized, the
press of Muraki’s interest increasing against his mind, the lethal edge of his
lust slicing against Hisoka’s nerves, pushing him toward the precipice of
screaming again.
"But perhaps that’s just a
little too much for you right now," Muraki said softly, letting his free
hand wander to Hisoka’s forehead. Another building charge of energy, and Hisoka
nearly moaned in relief as the intolerable pressure of Muraki’s mind retreated
from his, leaving him soothingly blank.
"There, there..." Muraki
whispered into Hisoka’s ear, enfolding Hisoka in his arms tighter as he let go
of the pressure point, freeing him from the stinging pain that had left Hisoka
immobilized. "It won’t do to break my most favorite," Muraki said,
brushing away the tears streaking down Hisoka’s cheeks as Hisoka brought
himself back under control.
Muraki turned Hisoka toward him and
cupping his face with one hand, his thumb and forefinger guiding Hisoka’s chin
as he kissed Hisoka gently on the lips, a surprisingly chaste, sweet touch,
without any of the hint of cruelty that he had manifested earlier. Compared to
the earlier agony, it was a pleasing respite, and Hisoka responded before he
realized what he was doing, his body stirring under Muraki’s ministrations.
Muraki’s other hand moved to unknot
the bonds that had held Hisoka’s wrists, and the sudden slackening of the
pressure holding Hisoka’s shoulders back made him sigh in contentment as his
muscles untensed. Muraki’s lips sought Hisoka’s with kisses that grew in
intensity and ardor, his hands reaching up to knead at Hisoka’s sore arms and
shoulders, carefully erasing the vestiges of muscle strain with his expert
touch.
Hisoka moaned softly against
Muraki’s lips even as Muraki’s tongue sought the heat of his mouth, the
soothing touch forcing away all thought and reason within him. Muraki’s hands
began to wander away from his shoulders, Muraki laying him down so that Hisoka
rested comfortably against the yielding surface of the bed. One of Muraki’s
hands slipped within the loose collar of his shirt sliding down to seek the
nubs of his nipples as the other stroked the tender flesh of his inner thigh,
finding and enflaming nerves that seemed somehow more receptive to Muraki’s
touch.
Muraki’s fingers moved teasingly
over the front of Hisoka’s jeans, causing him to arch against the caress,
seeking more.
"Please..." The word
escaped Hisoka before he could stop himself, a breathless exhalation against
Muraki’s mouth.
"Just close your eyes,"
Muraki said, a sensuous whisper against Hisoka’s lips. "It’s all
right." Muraki’s fingers moved to unfasten Hisoka’s jeans and just as he
did that, a sliver of dark lust slipped into Hisoka’s emotions before disappearing
with a flash.
"No..." The word was a
horrified whisper, as Hisoka began to understand what was happening. Muraki’s
mind had not really withdrawn from his, but had shifted so perfectly into
enfolding him in such contentment and desire that Hisoka couldn’t help but be
drawn into the trap that promised succor instead of suffering.
"No." Hisoka tried to pull
away, but found that he couldn’t, the discipline of Muraki’s mind flooding him
with its insistent probe, feeding him the promise of ecstasy, ensnaring him
more thoroughly than anything Muraki could physically tie him down with.
"No...I don’t...please..."
Hisoka protested, his mind trying to block out the escalating waves of ravenous
longing as Muraki’s hands moved on him adeptly, causing him to shudder pliantly
beneath Muraki’s attentions. Yet for all his attempts at protest, his body
didn’t seem to want to respond to anyone but Muraki as Hisoka moaned softly,
writhing as Muraki brought him perilously close to the brink.
"Ne," Muraki pulled back,
releasing Hisoka’s mouth, his hand moving away, leaving Hisoka trembling with
need. "There’s something I wanted to tell you."
"W-w-wh-at?" Hisoka
panted, as Muraki’s fingers moved teasingly against him, before withdrawing
again, Hisoka’s hips involuntarily following the retreat of Muraki’s hand.
Hisoka wasn’t sure whether to cry from relief that Muraki had finally let him
go, or to beg Muraki for more.
Muraki sat up so that he loomed over
Hisoka, unbuttoning Hisoka’s shirt, parting the fabric as if flaying the skin
of a victim.
"I want to tell you a secret.
It’s very important. Try to pay attention," Muraki smiled, as finished, he
returned his hand to grasp Hisoka again, this time earning gasps of delight
from the boy.
"You see, the trick to
unraveling this curse of mine..." Muraki said smiling, as Hisoka’s hips
bucked under his hand. "Is to know the direction and placement of each
character that creates the whole...are you listening?" Muraki asked as
Hisoka moaned beneath him.
"Yessss..." Hisoka
struggled to pay attention.
"Oh good. Now, here’s the first
mark," Muraki said, his free hand going up to stroke a point a few inches
beneath Hisoka’s heart, the faint scratch of his fingernail as he delineated
the beginning phrase of the curse causing the mark to blaze into existence.
"Now pay close attention, because the placement’s not as obvious as it
seems..."
Hisoka’s breath hissed as the sear
of fire began its dance across his skin along the curse marks, the affliction
blossoming as Muraki’s finger retraced the curse that defined his very death
and life, even as Muraki’s other hand kept him rigidly hard, on the verge of
orgasm.
Hisoka’s breath turned from harsh
pants to cries of pleasure or was it pain but Hisoka wasn’t sure anymore of
what was what, his senses completely twisted about by Muraki’s actions. And it
wouldn’t stop, either one, neither the hurt nor the building charge of sexual
tension.
Muraki then turned him, so that he
could continue on Hisoka’s back as he continued to stroke Hisoka, both hands
ravishing him, bringing him ever closer to the edge, as Muraki explained each
character in a detail that Hisoka could not concentrate on.
Muraki’s fingernail lightly traced
the last line of the curse, enflaming Hisoka’s skin with its lacerating torment
as he triggered the line of the spell. Finally, it was too much. Even as the
agony sang blindingly through his body, it was pierced through with engulfing
bliss as Hisoka came, shuddering against Muraki’s hand, his voice coming in
open-mouthed cries as the contradicting sensations escalated to a climax,
distorting his responses so that he couldn’t tell where one began and the other
ended.
Finally, it was over. The pain
receded, as did the pleasure, in twitches and spasms. Muraki did too, smoothly
retreating, leaving Hisoka gratefully alone in his mind.
"Sweet dreams," Muraki
murmured with a slightly sardonic smile, leaning down to kiss Hisoka on the
cheek as he withdrew, leaving Hisoka alone in the room, closing the door behind
him with a click of finality.
Exhausted, his breaths evened out,
and Hisoka sank further into a deep, dreamless sleep.
*******
Noise. It wouldn’t stop. Hisoka woke
up with a gasp, sitting up suddenly, remembering the bare edges of what had
happened as he fumbled for his alarm clock, shutting it off. But he wasn’t in
that strange house, the place where Muraki had been - he was sitting in his own
bed with the sunflower sheets that Watari had given him entangled around his
legs as if he had been thrashing about in his dream. Sunlight was pouring
through the high windows of his bedroom, and he could hear the lilting song of
the birds.
A dream. Wasn’t it? Hisoka fumbled
at the long sleeves of his pajamas, pushing up the loose green cotton, and
there, the marks - they were itching red, flared into being as neatly as if
Muraki was in the same room with him.
As if Muraki had touched him. Hisoka
shivered involuntarily, as snippets and pieces of the dream came back to him,
the dark press of Muraki’s thoughts, Muraki’s hand forcing him into pleasure,
his responses completely warped into whatever Muraki wanted of him.
Involuntary tears sprang into his
eyes, blurring his vision, as Hisoka realized that he had forgotten the details
of what Muraki had told him, the secret to undoing the curse, everything laid
out so neatly for him and he couldn’t, couldn’t remember, not even the focal
point of the curse which Muraki had explained in long and loving detail.
"Damnit," Hisoka’s voice
cracked on the word, his fists clenched in anger, fingernails cutting into the
palm of his hand, hard enough to draw red crescents of blood. He stumbled out
of bed, nearly tripping over the twisted sunflower sheets as he angrily wiped
at the tears, smearing them across his face while he made his way over to the
telephone on the dresser across the room.
Dial tone. Press the buttons. Hold
the receiver up. Hisoka’s hands shook so badly that it took him four tries to
successfully call the right number.
"Moshi moshi?" Tsuzuki’s
voice was gratifyingly real.
"Ts...Tsuzuki..." It was
all he could make out before the phone dropped to the floor with a clatter from
his nerveless hands as Hisoka crumpled to the floor, uncontrollable sobs
tearing at his throat.
"Hisoka? Hisoka, are you all
right?" Tsuzuki’s voice came over faintly from the receiver.
"Hisoka?!"
I think we’re even now.