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Title: The Madness of Love

Author: Adalisa

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Distribution: My site, anyone else, just ask.

Summary:

Sequel to: The Personality of love

Rating: Pg-13

Disclaimer: Trevor, Champ and all Cupid characters were created by Rob Thomas, who is a genius, and belong to Tri Star Pictures, Sony and to the guys of ABC who didn't knew what they had and let die a wonderful series. So while someone else takes them, I play a little with them.

Content: Champ/Trevor

Warning: This has m/m. You should know that already, since you found this.

Spoilers: Great Delusions.

By Adalisa.

Now, this isn't a new concept, is it? Everybody talks about it. There are songs about how crazy love make you feel. How many stupid things you do in the name of love... And I was stupid enough to think I would never fall in those old time clichés.

So far, I think I've managed to stay out of it. But Trevor... Trevor makes me think that maybe, just maybe, it is not that we do crazy stuff when we're in love... but that Love itself could be a little crazy.

I know, I know. I've ranted long enough about how much it angers me to know that everybody thinks Trevor is crazy. Now I sound like if I was saying that too.

I'm sorry. Is just that I'm not in a good mood tonight. Trevor is not here, and when that happens, I worry way too much.

Even more because this time, I know exactly where he is. This time is not a high building, or some bar.

Tonight, Trevor is locked in the psychiatric guard at the Hospital where Claire works.

God, this hurts.

I have been crying ever since I hung up the phone on Clarie, when I bit my tongue not to yell at her stupid meddling idiocy. I really hate her, more now than before.

And I can't say anything.

It all began with Clarie's new patient, a man who claims to be Don Quijote. Now I don't know much about the case, but apparently 'Don' convinced himself that Trevor is his Sancho... anyone with half a brain would have asked Trevor to stay away, but Claire begged him to stay with the crazed knight.

It seems that she decided that the best way to deal with both her patients was to force them to see the madness in the other. However, she forgot the little fact that Trevor is not crazy, that he is really who he says he is, while Don Quijote is just a character from a book.

She really had no right to ask Trevor to spend his time with 'Don'. Trevor himself was not eager to be near the man, until he found out that the wacko was looking for his one true love. And you know how Trevor is about finding your soulmate. He'll do anything to help someone to find happiness.

Even if that gets him in trouble.

Yesterday, he came home all beaten up. For some reason, while playing Robin to 'Don's' Batman, Trevor ended up banged pretty bad. A kick, some punches... But did he complaint? Not a word. Not even one hint that he didn't liked doing what he was doing.

Except to tell me that 'Don' was crazier than he thought, and that the Spanish Hidalgo had decided that his Dulcinea was a stripper.

But that was it. No more bad words. In fact, Trevor was thinking on how to make things work between that couple, even when it was obvious that there was something that Claire was not telling him. I mean... How could he not know it? How could he not see that Claire was hoping to make him realize that he is crazy because 'Don' is crazy?

I should have told him to be careful, I should have warned him about Clarie.

But he wouldn't have listen to me. And I cannot tell him because... because I still remember the haunted look on his face when he thought that Clarie was going to put him under medication. I cannot hurt him like that... and I cannot stop him from being hurt.

Isn't that crazy?

And I cry, and my heart hurts... and I know that no matter what I feel, it is still nothing compared to what Trevor must have felt when he realized he could not leave the psychiatric guard. I wish I could be with him.

He shouldn't be there!

What the heck is Clarie thinking? How can she believe that this will help Trevor at all? I know I've said before that she is not a good doctor, but this is the last proof I needed. Heck, how does she manage to keep her license?! She should have never allowed that man near Trevor, not when she knew that he was nuts!

She should have never tricked Trevor into going to see 'Don'. He trusts her... or at least he trusted her. I sure hope that this manages to break that trust. She doesn't deserve it.

I can only imagine what it was for Trevor, when he found the door locked. When Clarie told him that he had to spend the night there. Doesn't Clarie know that every time he has to go to the hospital, he thinks on what it could have happened to him?

When he thought Clarie was going to lock him up, lobotomize him with drugs... Trevor was devastated. Later, much later, he told me that he only asked one thing to Clarie. To promise him that she would not let him drool in a corner.

Anyone would think that after hearing Trevor say that, Clarie would never let him near a straight jacket.

But Claire is not anyone. She is so sure of her 'Doctor' status, that she believes that everything she says it's the absolute truth.

When Trevor tells me about Clarie's advises on her single's group, I have to bite myself not to tell him I agree with him. It's no wonder that no one there finds a good partner unless Trevor gets his hands on the business. She is so self- absorbed and blind that she doesn't realize that most of the time, her way only leads to pain, self-hurt and loneliness.

I have tried to tell her that a couple of times... especially when I think she agrees with Trevor on something. But she simply doesn't listen. Why should she? She is the Love Doctor, and I am just an underpaid Actor.

Then again, Trevor is the God of Love, and she doesn't listen to him either.

So... who's the craziest of the pair?

I finally manage to stop crying, something that makes me feel better. I wish I could do something more than worry here, call the hospital so they release Trevor, call Clarie and tell her that she has to stop doing this to Trevor...

Who am I kidding? She won't listen.

She sees Trevor as the only minus mark in her resume, her only failure just because he won't let go of who he is, or stop doing what he does best. Trevor is my love, and her obsession.

Which one of us is crazier?

I know that Trevor will never be mine, I will never know what it feels like to know that he loves me. I accept it, and I simply know that friendship is the only feeling he will have for me. So I give him my friendship. Claire...

I don't want to believe what Claire believes, because that would not only means that I think that Trevor is insane, but also that he loves her.

Maybe he does, but to think that only make me feel worse.

Still, if he loves her, and she could make him happy... I would be happy too.

Isn't that nuts? Isn't that insane?

I know it is.

It is the Madness of Love.

To be continued...

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Adalisa

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