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Title: The Personality of Love

Author: Adalisa

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Summary: Champ does some thinking about Trevor.

Sequel to: The Gifts of love

Rating: Pg-13

Disclaimer: Trevor, Champ and all Cupid characters were created by Rob Thomas, who is a genius, and belong to Tri Star Pictures, Sony and to the guys of ABC who didn't knew what they had and let die a wonderful series. So while someone else takes them, I play a little with them.

Content: Champ/Trevor

Warning: This has m/m. You should know that already, since you found this.

Spoilers: Great Personality

By Adalisa.

How can I describe it and be completely right? How can I describe Trevor?

On the latest days, I've been thinking a lot about him, trying to find the right words to define him...

Well, yeah. I think about him all the time. There's no denying it. But usually, I don't think about words to describe him, or to put him in a nice labeled box...

Which makes this a little harder.

This is all Claire's fault. If she was not so medling and nosy and... And... and time consuming. She is all the time with Trevor, no matter what. Every time I make plans to go out with him, every time I think he will be able to spend a couple of hours with me, buddy-wise... _SHE_ comes along.

And things are starting to get weird with Chris. I mean, I told her what I feel for Trevor... well, she guessed it, and I told her. But... it seems that she still wants to give a try. And in the process she is becoming incredibly suffocating. Then a secret admirer started to send me message thru the net...

I feel thorn. I am in love with Trevor, but I cannot keep my feelings to myself, and I can't tell him. So I was counting with Chris to listen.

I know, I'm selfish.

But at least I only told Chris about my feelings. I didn't tell her that Trevor is Cupid, or that Claire is his therapist.

While Claire has told every single guy she meets that Trevor is her 'pet' scientific project. Sure, she doesn't tell Trevor, but I've seen the looks Claire's friends give him.

Like her Editor. He was here today, talking to Clarie about her new book. And while she went and told him all about Trevor's 'treatment', Trevor was trying to match up a gorgeous gal with a so-so guy because they happen to meet through the classified adds.

He has this obsession about the ads, that I'll never understand. He insists that he will find the right equation to match his one hundred couples through adds.

He is insistent that way.

Which I believe is one of his most wonderful traits. He never gives up...

Sure, he almost quit a couple of times, but he always comes up again. And of late, his depressions have been less frequent. I haven't stop thanking whoever is up there for that. I don't think I can see Trevor depressed again.

He is joyful.

Another wonderful trait.

So now I'm smiling. Thinking about Trevor makes me forget that I was angry. But not tonight. Not when Claire just called, asking me if I could remember any conversation in which Trevor used the phrase "If you were a car, what type of car you would be?".

As if I could remember every single conversation that I have had with Trevor.

Mm? No, I can't.

He speaks about too many things, too fast. Sure, I know that he had a lot of troubles with his father, and that Atenea says he snores, that he and Neptune have weekly dates to drink tea, Apolo hates Blues, and that there was a party with Hermes and the Minotaur that he doesn't want to remember... but I know those are not the things Claire wants to hear.

So I asked her why. And when she told me... well, I'm glad she wasn't here. The fact that she is once again trying to find who Trevor really is, instead of accepting that she is never going to find any trace of Trevor anywhere outside of Chicago. And every time she thinks she has it, she hurts Trevor more.

The first one was hard, before I found out all what I know now. She thought he was a teacher at College who had been accused of abusing a student, a young girl who killed herself because of it. It seemed to affect Trevor pretty hard, and then I found out that it was because he felt that as a failure. One of the many times he hadn't been there, taking care of business.

I was not going to let Claire do that to him again, so I asked her if she had any possible names. When she told me that she thought Trevor was an old patient from a clinic that a doctor in her hospital ran, a man who had become delusional because his fiancé left him because he got fat. I had to control myself not to laugh.

I mean... She is supposed to be a great doctor, who can see all the hidden meanings in people's words, and she can't see how wrong she is. Sure, Trevor eats a lot. Especially sugar-filled things. But he doesn't get fat, and even when he drinks, he practically never gets drunk. More so, this doctor who had the clinic has seen Trevor a couple of times... Doesn't Clarie think that if Trevor had been treated in that clinic, the doctor would have recognized him?

Of course, I didn't tell her that, and I hung up promising her I would keep an ear to whatever Trevor said that sounded suspicious. What do she thinks I am? Some kind of spy for her book?

It's no secret she's writing a new book, everyone in Chicago knows it. What most don't know, is that her subject is Trevor. I didn't know either until Alex told me, a couple of weeks before he left for New York. I haven't told Trevor yet, because he doesn't like to remember that for Claire he is just some sort of human-looking guinea pig.

But this... I cannot keep this from him. Because if Claire does ask him about anything related to this guy, and Trevor gives her the wrong answer... he could end up in the psychiatric guard again. I promised myself long ago that I would not let him be taken to that place ever again.

There is something that worries me about it, though. Trevor's reaction. I never know how he will react to things. Sometimes it's in a quiet depression, other times it's a big explosion. I am not ready now for either. I don't want him to get depressed, and I don't want to deal with another 'celebration' night like the one he organized to get Mike and our neighbor together.

That's another of his traits. He is unpredictable. And even when no one will believe me, it's the one I like the most. I never know what surprise he has in mind, and that makes him even more special.

If he were predictable, he would never have kissed me.

So if I tell him about Clarie's new idea, I don't know what he will do, but whatever he does, I'm sure he will manage to convince Clarie that he is insane. I have come to think that it's his favorite hobby when he's not matchmaking. That could not be that bad, unless he steps out of the line.

He has never overstepped his bounds with Clarie, and for that I'm grateful. No matter what he does, he always manages to stay on the doctor's good side.

But he is not that careful. He doesn't want people getting hurt, but sometimes forgets that people will get hurt because of what he does.

He's naive in that way.

I know, I'm calling a thousands year old god 'naive'. Anyone would think I am insane.

But he is naive. And sincere, and straight forward... and...

Straight forward.

I haven't thought of that. When I showed him the last letter of my secret admirer, he told me all the reasons why I should not think of this as anything serious. All the advantages of that I have with Chris, since she is so wonderful...

However, he didn't tell me that I should forget all about this anonymous letters. He only told me that if I weren't interested, I wouldn't carry the letters with me... Which now that I think of it, is not really like him. He never supports any form of romance unless he is sure it's true love.

Which cannot be the case. He thinks I love Chris...

And I know who is my true love...

So it cannot be. I mean... he cannot be my secret admirer, can he?

That would be crazy.

...oh, yeah. I get your point. I just said that he is unpredictable, right? But I don't think that I should get my hopes up. I mean... he wouldn't try to break up a couple...

Unless he was sure a member of said couple was not happy.

If I keep thinking about this, I am going to go insane and I will be the one who needs to be locked up in the psychiatric guard. And I will have a terrible headache too.

For now, I think that the only think I can do is wait for Trevor, listen to his rambles about the newest couple, and about how he _has_ to get a new couple together now. I will tell him about Clarie's plans...

And then, who knows? I will wait to see what Trevor does about the latest couple, Clarie's plans... and if my secret admirer writes again.

I might go and meet the letters' author, or maybe I will talk clearly with Chris...

Maybe I'll just stay here, and listen to Trevor's advises to everyone else.

After all, Love is unpredictable.

That's the personality of Love.

To be continued...

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Adalisa

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