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It was the early morning on the 30th of September in 2001, when I came back home, I sat up till dawn because friends of mine gave me my birthday party.

   I opened a door looking for my kids coming to me as usual. Something was funny.
Calling all of their names, I closed the door. Then, I was dumbfounded with surprise.
MIYABI was lying on a kitchin floor, and other two kids were near by her. I walked up to her, and called her name again and again. Fortunately, she opened her eyes slowly.
I told her, "It's OK. I'm so sorry...well, let me make you clean."
   No wonder the floor was messy. I was out of the house for a long time. I started to put in order all over there feeling sorrow for coming back so late. Tears welled up in my eyes, but I did not cry.
   All of my kids do not like my crying.

It was the Sunday afternoon(9-30-01). MIYABI's another life had started since the second kid named Oh-chan and the third kid named HIME-chi were welcomed.

    MIYABI started to stay in my bedroom just like when she was a little baby. I made her own bed to make her feel comfortable.
   That evening, I told me myself, "Nothing will happen. Everything should be all right."   On the other hand, I was looking for PET's Emergency Clinic opening Yellow Page somehow.
"We will visit Dr Rogers tomorrow morning. Then you're gonna feel fine," I kept telling her every ten minutes. Maybe I was telling me because I was under the fear.   I wouldn't think about that I hadn't gotten sleep two nights, but I didn't care.

Why does TIME go so SLOW,,,when I am waiting something important ?!

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