| i have had some pretty strange things going on in the past few weeks.it all started about 4 weeks ago.me and my long term girlfreind broke up in december,and ive been playing the single card everysince then.and ive been ok about it,untill now.i have went on a few dates with a few women and i have not wanted to call them back.but then by a random chance of running into my freinds girlfreind at the local waffle house,i met he bestfreind,and now my whole world has turned upside down.were dateing(nothing serious) but i wish we were. ive seen her like 5 times in two weeks,and i just cant get enough of her.i saw her tonight,about 2 hours ago,and i already miss her.i havent felt this way about someone in a long time.we havent even kissed yet,but to hold her hand is good enough for me.if you asked me why we werent an item,id look at you blankley,because i wouldnt have an answer for you.she dated someone that broke her heart,so she isnt really ready to date,and not only do i compleatly understand,i hope im not rushing things.i dont want her to think that she owes me anything,or an explanation of her reasons for things she does.she is such a beautiful person,inside and out,that i would wait untill she is ready.this is the girl i want to be with.when im with her,i dont feel the need to smoke(an act of god?) ,nor do i worry that i wont be able to pay rent(but im starting to sweat a little),i just feel hopeless,because im so scared that the truth will hit me.the truth being that this girl is way to good for me and that i will not have a chance in hell,but at the same time,i feel like the luckiest guy on earth cause right at that moment when im with her,i know that no one is as happy as me. its really weird cause i want to do things for her,or call her just to say hi, but i dont want to be a stalker or something.so im left with a feeling of confusion,and an acwardness that i cant quite explain but you should see the way she looks at me.i havent felt this way for someone in like 5 years.anyway, enough about me |