~*AMY'S WRITINGS*~
DISAPPOINTMENT
Sometimes when I look at the mirror
I feel like I'm hideous.
I'm too dark.
I'm too tall.
My nose is too flat.
My hair is too dry.
My eyes are too wide.
My feet are too big.
My face is too full of acne.
I feel like I'm living in a disappointment.
Sometimes when I'm at school,
I feel like I'm stupid.
Everyone knows the answer except me.
Everyone is moving ahead while I'm still behind.
Everyone laughs because I don't understand.
I feel like I'm living in a disappointment.
Sometimes when I work hard for something,
I feel like a loser.
Because I wasn't good enough.
Because I made a stupid mistake.
Because I am a failure.
I feel like I'm living in a disappointment.
Sometimes when bad events happen,
I feel like I'm cursed.
Everything I do is wrong.
Everything I hoped for has gone down the drain.
Everything is a heartbreak.
I feel like I'm the disappointment.
But then how could I say that?
How could I say that my life is a disappointment?
I look back on my life
And God has been good.
I have been fortunate to live my life
With those who love and care for me.
Be thankful for what I have.
Others have been less fortunate.
Disappointments are lessons we learn.
We learn from our mistakes, imperfections, and failures.
And In the end,
Accepting our disappointments will help us become stronger.
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SOULS
If they say our eyes are the windows to our souls,
And our heartbeats are the music of our souls,
How can our souls be seen when our eyes are forever closed?
And how can our souls be heard when our hearts stop beating?
Does this mean our souls will be found by the comforting Hand of God?
Does this mean our souls will disappear into the eteranl depths of darkness?
Or does this mean our souls will be born into another life on earth?
The ultimate question remains:
Where will our souls end up once we cannot hold those we have cherished again?
Where will our souls end up once we realize that tomorrow will never come?
The answer will remain unknown.
Until after we have left the day and night sky horizon,
Until after we have only to become part of the earth's soil instead.
Until then our souls will have a place to go.
Until then we will know.
Until then...
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UNTRUE FRIENDSHIP
What happens to a friendship denied?
Ignored and pushed aside?
Does it wilt?
Like a rose on a hot summer day?
Or does it bring tears like the April rain
And will never go away?
Does it shatter like a fragile heart?
Or like a lost pair of butterflies separated apart.
Maybe it just falls,
Like a plunging star.
Or does it cry out for help afar?
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TRUE FRIENDS
True friends have fun.
They share laughs
They stand up for you.
They are there to listen.
True friends show their gratitude,
Their appreciation for all that you have done for them.
Their smiles and their laughter,
Assuring that they care.
Is worth more than any fortune.
True friends never take take advantage of you.
They don't manipulate you.
They don't use you to get something they want.
True friends never compare themselves to you.
They don't make you feel inferior and act like they are better.
They don't make you feel stupid like a worthless piece of trash.
They don't treat you like their dog,
And make you play fetch.
True friends never act as irritating, egocentric,
Self-absorbed parasites,
Parasites that suck you of your happiness,
Your dignity and your freedom.
Suck you dry
And desert you
For someone else to wound.
Instead, true friends accept you who you are
And they believe in all that you do.
Most of all true friendship is built on the foundation of
Trust, Understanding, and Love.
True friends care for each other unconditionally.
They forgive but they never forget.
True friends have hearts.
They are never two-faced.
True friends are true to themselves
And they are true to you.
No matter how many miles they are apart,
They are never just acquaintances that are "here today, but gone tomorrow."
True friends never forget
To stand behind each other
For Life.
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