The voices remained with him all his life. They never disappeared; even after Gozaboro died. Now�he was no better than him. He practically killed his brother and Jessica. He was gonna find out where she was�he�d promised he would never let anything hurt her.
The next few days went by slowly. Mokuba would be back out of the hospital in a few weeks and Seto was always working. He arrived home from Kaiba Corp. early one day. He did as he usually did and went straight to his computer network.
He had been working down there and at Kaiba Corp. since Jessica disappeared. He�d hardly gotten any sleep; but he didn�t care. He was determined to find Jessica and he wasn�t going to sleep till he did. He would go to visit Mokuba and sometimes drift into sleep there, but for the most; only five minutes.
Sleeping was not one of his main priorities at the moment. He had thought many times about killing himself. Suicide would�ve been the only thing to make the voices stop. Everything was so different with out Jessica or Mokuba around.
He went to bed that night; after over a week of no sleep; he hated himself for doing it to but he was falling asleep at work. The paperwork he had been trying to finish kept piling up. He knew that sleeping would only keep Jessica away even longer and that she would keep getting further and further away.
During his sleep that night he had a dream. He was there in her room when it happened.
~*~*DREAM*~*~
He walks down a long hallway, and then he starts running. The hallway is dark and there is no sign of light. He runs down the hallway searching for his destination. Suddenly a door beside him opens casting a bright light all through the hall.
The hall had large rusted pipes running down the sides of it. It took a minute for his eyes to adjust to the sudden brightness. He then noticed the figure in the door way. It was a tall wide man with a little head.
When you first look at him you would think he was a penguin. The man pushed past him and walked toward the darkness of the hall. Seto peered inside the door that had just opened.
This had to be his destination; this had to have been the answer he had been searching for. He slowly stepped inside the room becoming engulfed by the paralyzing light. His eyes adjusted to find that he was in her room.
She had just gotten out of the shower and was drying her hair. He heard a knock at her door.
�Who is it?� she asked laying down her brush.
�There is a visitor for you Miss.� Paul said calmly.
�Ok�send him up�
The door slowly opened to reveal the penguin man again. He had short black hair and was dressed in a suit. Jessica took a few steps back from him and he lunged at her. She screamed and ran towards the door.
He quickly caught up with her and pinned her to the wall.
~*~*END OF DREAM*~*~
That man�Seto had seen him before. Was he the one who kidnapped Jessica? He didn�t have time to think he quickly jumped out of his bed. He ran down the hall towards her room.
He sat down on her bed again. He could feel the sadness start to overwhelm him. He could feel the hot tears starting to form in the corners of his eyes. He opened the drawer in the nightstand.
Inside it he saw a letter addressed to him in it. OF course he had to see what it was�
Kaiba--
It seems like ages since we last talked on normal terms.
I guess it's my fault, though it might not be. I imagine
It is. Everything always seems to be my fault. Is it my
Fault you're not happy? I never told you this, but I
Still love you. With all of my heart. I'd like to think
That if I lived through this time, you'd take this note to
Heart and tell me you love me again. Even if you lie,
It�d be worth it to hear it. I'd love to hear you whisper
It as my life slowly drained out of me through my
Wrist. Having you hold me close, tears splashing
Down you cheeks. To know that you suffer with my
Death as much as I suffered with my life. Then you'd
End it all, too. You'd take this knife and quote that
Shakespeare guy. "Oh happy dagger..." You said
That Romeo and Juliet died because they wanted to be
Together no matter what. Even if it only was in death.
But how can they have such impending faith that
They�ll be together, even in death? That's putting a lot
Of faith in anything. That's risking everything.
Because, love, or no love, at least I get to speak to you
In life. At least I get to gaze at you in life. At least I get
To dream of you in life. But death would offer the
Great reward. Saving myself from you. Saving myself
From heartbreak each day. And that is why this knife
Will take my life.
This is why this knife will rob the life you imprisoned.
--Jessi
The letter had been dated to 2001. Two years ago. He couldn�t remember ever telling her he didn�t love her. She had never made him angry, about anything she did. He couldn�t understand why she would write something like this.
What if she was dead? Had he done this to her? Will she ever come back? More and more questions began to run through Seto�s mind. �It�s your entire fault! If it wasn�t for you Jessica would be here at the moment! If you would�ve been nicer to her�gave her everything she wanted�maybe she would still be here! You don�t love her! You never did!�
The voices had returned to his head once again. �Your worthless! You let the only girl you ever loved get away! You killed her yourself! You promised you would protect her Seto Kaiba! You promised she would never be hurt! Your no better than Gozaboro!�
He shook the thoughts out of his mind and continued to go through the drawer. He soon came up on some lyrics Jessica had written down.
"Miss You"
[CHORUS]
It's been too long and I'm lost without u
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
(Said I need you)
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
[VERSE 1]
Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from high school
You up and left me
We were close friends
Awesome lovers
Did everything
For one another
Now ur gone and I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cuz it's
[CHORUS]
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
[VERSE 2]
Now I'm sittin' here
Thinkin' 'bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cuz it's
[CHORUS 2x]
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
[BRIDGE]
I...can't...breathe...no...more
Since you went away I
Don't really feel like talkin'
No one here to love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do or be without you
[CHORUS 3x]
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
(Tell me what I'm gonna do)
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
He had heard that song before. It was one of her favorites. Yet another thing he didn�t know much about. The voices were starting to scream in his head. He soon started to believe them. This was all his fault.
He walked to his office and picked up picture from his desk. It was a picture of Him and Jessica at Mokuba�s last birthday party. It wasn�t one of the best; Mokuba had wanted that dog Wheeler there.
But about the picture, it had been taken unexpectedly. They were about to kiss, they had their foreheads against each others and both their hand laced together gently. You could tell that Seto had to bend down a little to kiss her, being as tall as he was.
He smiled and took the picture out of its frame and placed it in his pocket. This picture always seemed to make him feel better. He could remember that day better than any other day in the year.
He couldn�t seem to understand why that day had to end. Especially after Wheeler left and everything was perfect. He could still remember the warmth of her touch, and how her hair always seemed to smell like strawberries.
He no longer tried to hold back his tears. They started to slowly run down the sides of his face, collecting on his chin before dropping to the ground below him. He had to get out of here, he had to go somewhere that wouldn�t remind him of Jessica.
But it seemed that everywhere in his mansion seemed to remind him of her. He felt weak for crying. He hated himself for it too. It would disgrace Gozaboro to see him this weak. He had never allowed anyone to get this close to him and no one would ever again.
He didn�t want anyone to know that he wasn�t the cold calloused Seto Kaiba that he was expected to be. And he knew Yugi�s group wouldn�t let him forget it. Neither would Gozaboro.
He suddenly snapped back to reality. I�m not Gozaboro, I don�t care what he thinks! He�s DEAD! And thanks to him Jessica was too�he had ruined his own life and hers. But he wouldn�t hurt anyone any more. �It�s time to end it!� he thought as he walked to the kitchen.
~*~*TWO DAYS AGO*~*~
Jessica ran through the woods tears streaming down her face. She was starving and didn�t care. She never wanted to go back to Domino. She never wanted to see Seto Kaiba again. He may have said he loved her, but words don�t mean a thing.
She stopped to catch her breath leaning against a tree. She knew she would never make it back. She knew she was going to die out here. Despite the love that Seto Kaiba supposedly had for her.
She was tired of running, she was tired of this torture. She had rather died than go through this. She pulled her knees to her chest crying heavily into them. She wanted to go back to Seto. She wanted to feel his touch, his arms around her�
�never letting go.