No one understands my life, no one cares. They do not understand me Except for one. But he's dead. He left me, left me in my pain. Things just don't matter anymore. The abuse, the rape. Nothing matters.
Everyday I head to school, making sure to wear long sleeve shirts and dark clothes to hide my bruises and cuts. I barely eat anymore, not that I ate well before. But with my love gone, it doesn't really matter. I want to join him.
I don't even wait for the others anymore. Lately I've been ignoring them all. I know Yugi is worried, alone with everyone else. Hell, I think I got Bakura and Yami worried also. But I don't care. They will never be able to understand.
My life is nothing but Hell. It's worse then what Ryou used to go through with Bakura. I think that if I asked for help, I would receive it. But I've never been the same since he died.
Why did he have to go and get himself killed?!
...But I guess I can't blame him. He saved his brother, and that's what mattered to him. But I miss him so much. I need him. I cannot keep living this life without him.
If I don't kill myself, my father will. Oh, how I look forward to that day. The day when I'll be able to join my love.
They do not realize the things I hide. Does everyone really believe that I'm as stupid and carefree as I act? No, far from it.
It's my mask. That's all it is. And lately, I can't even keep that up. Nor do I want to. I'm sick of it.
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace
I see some people wonder though. Teachers mostly, though Yami Bakura tried to get it out of me. I refused.
He's the only one that has come out and asked me whose hurting me. I told him no one, but It was a bad lie and I couldn't meet his eyes.
My math teacher as also asked me. Right after my lover died. I broke down and told her everything, then forced her to swear not to tell a soul. I didn't want anyone knowing. I don't want anyone's pity.
I know it's hard for her to even look at me anymore. But she doesn't truly understand. Only one person has ever understood my pain. And he showed me no pity. He understood.
But there is one thing I don't understand. Why my father keeps hurting me. Am I really that bad?? Is it really my fault that Mom and my sister left. Do I deserve what I continue to get?
My love told me no. He said it was not my fault that my father was sick in the head. But without him, I doubt myself now. I can never seem to do things right. I just want his strong arms around me, protecting me, loving me. But that cannot happen, can it? The rest of my short life is destined to be lived alone.
I keep everything hidden behind my mask, though I know my pain is too much now. I cannot keep it all hidden. Everything that happens now must me kept a secret. I must not tell anyone. I cannot put my friends lives in danger. I will not do that.
But, anymore, I wish I could just die. Or better yet, never been born. Father always says it was a mistake. That I was nothing more then an accident. I believe him now. That's what I feel like. Nothing but a mistake.
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born
I've stood through everything. I've lived through my father's rage, his torture, his endless abuse. I've lived thru all of it.
My love was there to help me. He told me to believe in my dreams. My dreams gave me hope.
In my dreams, I would get away from this all. Be with the one I loved, not have to be hurt again. But now, I have nothing. I have no one that loves me, or cares. I have lost everything I have ever cared about in a matter of seconds.
I cannot rise above the depressing or the pain, so now, I will yield to it. Let it consume me, let it win.
~*~
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel
Life is cruel, and I know it. He has fought so hard, and I am sorry that I had to leave so soon. But I had to protect my brother.
I've watched over him ever since, and I know he will be joining me soon. I cannot stop what is to happen now.
I turn away when he cries out in pain. How could someone do this to his own son? How could people just ignore this? Turn away from the pain a boy is obviously in.
His soul has long since given up. It's so fragile now it isn't funny. My love isn't even fighting back. He wants to die. And now I don't really blame him .
Morning dawns, life ends. It's now to late for help, try as they might.
Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late
Two angels stand on a cloud, one, looking completely confused, the other, calm. The one with brown hair and piercing blue eyes approaches the other, a soft smile playing on his lips, "Welcome home, my Love."
The other stands there, stunned at seeing his dead lover, honey colored eyes showing fear and confusion, "...Seto?"
The aforementioned angel nods his head and pulls the other close to him, arms and white wings wrapping around the blond-haired boy. "You are safe now. You are free, Jou."
The latter sobs finally into his lover's chest, shaking in his arms, "I've missed you so much. Don't leave me again, please."
"Never again, my love, never again." He smiles, tilting the blond's head up and kissing him on the lips softly.
"I love you, Seto," he said softly, smiling into the kiss.
"I love you too, Jou." He smiled back, taking Jou's hand and leading him away.
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel
A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel