There
is this girl whom I think I got a crush on her. It's been a year now and we
are as close like a real ally should be. But deep inside me, there is this
feeling that is deeper than friendship. I write and send flowers so she
could notice, is action speaks louder than words?
I approach her like a chum. Does she notice it while we talk? How I call her
name? Sometimes there is a little voice boosting me to tell, but I am
reluctant that she would avoid me if she knew. I used to have a bad
experience in this world of commitment of which I am cowardly to handle.
If ever my courage overcome my fear and boldly tell her my feelings. Am I
sure winner? Is she willing to bear this bloody fact? Could she still be
friends if she excludes this affection I have for her?
The sad part is, I learned that sooner or later, she will leave and have a
new life in a far-away land. Is this for real? Should I tell her while
there's a lot of time? Maybe this ridiculous feeling should bee kept secret.
Shall I lock this feeling forever? Until when? Until when?