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| ::love:: tears are shed and punches thrown; rain is poured and wind is blown. white as an angel yet black as a crow; beautiful as nature yet ugly as foe. all of this in one can seem like too much but can be calmed with one sweet touch. a warm hug, a gentle kiss can make the pouring rain a gentle mist. love can be brutal, love can be kind. love can be fun but can play with your mind. love can be good, love can be bad. love can be confusing but it's something i'm glad i've had. |
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| ::what if i said...:: what if i said i'm still in love with you? would you be honest with me? would you tell me the truth? what if i said i still need you in my life? would you build up my hopes? would you tell me lies? what if i said i can't take any more pain? would you leave me alone? would you run away again? what if i said i think about you every day? would you be part of my life? would you finally stay? what if i said i'm afraid to be alone? cuz i want you to stay ... but i think you should go. |
| ::every day:: every day i think to myself, 'today will be the day... today i'll find the strength to say the things i need to say.' every day that i don't see you makes me a little stronger 'til the day i finally see you... i wait a little longer. every day i tell myself that i don't need you anymore and i wonder why i never wondered what you hung around for. every day i look at the happy smiles upon their faces and i see the joy i lack along with all of my disgraces. every day i think to myself that i'm going to move on but every day has a night as the night has come. every day comes with hope while the night is bleak and dreary. every night i wish for the end while i'm weak and weary. every day i ask myself, 'will today be the day? today, will i find the strength to live my life my way?' |
| ::i've felt this way before:: i've felt this way before glad to hear that little phrase the sound takes me back in time back to yesterday's today you told me that you loved me once again you said those words i hope you meant it this time because when you lie, it hurts the lies, deceit and trickery bring tears, torture and pain i tell myself that i won't then i go back to you again i've felt this way before happy because i thought you cared but then at times i needed you you were never really there sometimes the truth does hurt liek when i see you've lied sometimes i just don't understand don't know why i've ever tried but then something happens to me and i remember why i care i remember how you make me feel and all the times we've shared i just look into your eyes and i can feel your gentle touch i can see you in my dreams ...i love you so much... i've felt this way before blind to the bitter truth i always seem to think that we can start over new i've felt this way before hopeful and in love believing you're the one sent to me from up above |
| ::this love:: every day i have this love that never fades away it grows inside my broken heart, gets stronger every day every day i feel this love that never lets me go it tightens up its sturdy grip that suffocates my soul every day i fuel this love that rages with envious fire fed by burning jealousy and flaming with desire every day i hate this love that kills me from within i hold onto the very things that hurt me - i can't win every day i need this love that fulfills me to the core all the pain that i withstand just makes me love you more |
| ::maybe:: i don't know why it's got to be this way but it's how it's gonna be i don't know why we just hurt each other saying things we really don't mean i'm sorry that i hurt you just like i'm sure you're sorry too but sorry doesn't change the past so what else is there to do? why do we just hurt each other? why this continuous pain? we know we should just walk away but we can't say goodbye again you're ripping me apart inside every insult, harsh comment and fight i know it's a two-sided match but i can't seem to make things right maybe it was all a mistake maybe there's some lesson to be learned maybe i was wrong this time... it's my turn to burn i can't seem to let go so i just wish you'd go away if your memory would disappear maybe we'd both be okay |
| ::how does it feel?:: how does it feel when you look me in the eye? do you see the shame i feel in my foolish little tries? how does it feel, knowing you're in total control? can you tell how low i feel down in this cold, dark hole? how does it feel to make those biting remarks? do you hear me hold my breath or see the fading sparks? how does it feel to be confident you're always right? can't you see that i'm not wrong in trying to follow the light? how does it feel when you look me in the eye? do you sense my disappointment and reluctance to say goodbye? how does it feel to act like you don't know? because i think i see it in your eye - i think you know i can't let go. how does it feel? |
| ::break free:: she cries out loud to the eerie sound of his feet hitting the ground marching towards her her frantic pleas she's down on her knees screaming now, begging him, please but he'll never quit he's full of lies the hate in his eyes is a beautiful disguise for years of neglect she wants to run the damage is done her obedience he's won she can't get out now bound to this life through struggle and strife her lone escape is the knife she's finally free |
| ::words:: you can use them abuse them throw them around listen to what i say but you don't hear a sound verbal insignificance waste of a breath go ahead, speak your mind do what you want but don't waste my time stinging and burning our deafening toys and yet it is silence that makes the loudest noise |
| ::my cocaine:: here's the thing, you see there's just something about you babe. you've got me hooked, you're like a drug. you're my cocaine. and baby i love this addiction. beautiful affliction. it's just never enough, you leave me wanting more of my cocaine. so won't you feed my hunger? surrender yourself to my desires. excuse me but i can't help it because babe you're like a drug. you get me high. you're my cocaine. and baby i love this addiction. beautiful affliction. it's just never enough, you leave me wanting more of my cocaine. when you walk through the door of my heart i can't help but want more and i start to fall apart cuz baby i love you my cocaine |
| ::you're everywhere:: i can't stand the silence because that's when i hear you - and crowded rooms tormet me because that's when i miss you... next to me. on top of me. inside of me. you're everywhere. i fear the pang of hunger because that's when i taste you - and i hate being in the dark because that's when i see you... next to me. on top of me. inside of me. you're everywhere. i can't bear to be awake because that's when i need you - i dread falling asleep at night because that's when i dream you... next to me. on top of me. inside of me. you're everywhere. but being alone's by far the worst because that's when i feel you - and this life i live is beautiful because that's when i love you... next to me. on top of me. inside of me. you're nowhere. |