to someone,

i have always been cynical all my life. i do not worry
or fret about the fact that in all my 20 years of
existence i still haven't seen what love is really
like. i don't even know what it really means. i keep
waiting for the free falling feeling, the sleepless
nights...the one for me. i keep on believing that
there's this designated someone somewhere sometime,
who'll i know once i get to lay my eyes on him, or
hear his voice, or even, just as i know about his
existence. but alas, that someone is yet to come. no
one has yet sweep me off my feet, no one has yet made
me think that 'hey i think i am ready for a
relationship now!' for now that is how i really feel. 
yes, i would like to feel the feeling of a girl in
love, to be always in the company of someone as
special (or even more) as my girl friends, but now is
not the time for me. and i know each one has their own
time for it is essential for both parties to be really
ready for such a relationship to work.
i don't fret, i don't panic, because i know that what
is meant to be is meant to be. you cannot be at the
right place all the time. fate and destiny. destiny
and fate.
and as sometimes i wallow in self pity and a million
questions as to why i haven't found 'the one' for me
yet, i find the answer in my serenity...that i am not
ready yet. wouldn't it be just bad if i were to find
him earlier only to realize that i can't make it
work?? God knows what is good for me, and I shall
accept whatever he wants for me to happen.
i envy your optimism, your hope, your dreams. i wish i
could feel the same way as you do towards a special
person in my life. but alas, my time is yet to come.
for now i shall pray that whoever it is you are
seeking shall find her way to you. and i, on my own,
shall find my way to the one who is truly meant for
me.
let's be strong, dear someone! and let's hope that in
the future we can see each other face to face and
introduce each other to each one's special friend, and
say, thank you for being there for me during the time
i haven't met him/her...and turn to each one's special
person: s/he is my special friend...

from,
you