| I am wondering at this very minute if u r thinking of me, if u like me, u r wondering what is taking us so long 2 find each other. Many times I thought I finally found u only 2 b disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing 2 meet u, would it b as romantic as I have seen I movies? Or is it possible that I have known u all my life, we haven’t yet realize that we r meant 4 each other? How I wish u were right here now because u r the only 1 who has the answers 2 all my questions. Sometimes I ask myself if I have really known ‘love’. I do not know the answer 2 that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is! U just don’t know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like 2 b in ur arms. Even at this very moment I m imagining how u will simply sweep me off my feet?! Perhaps I will b drawn 2 u by ur smile, or ur eyes, or maybe even on how u manage 2 make me laugh by ur silly little ways. I don’t know 4 sure but I m praying that God will help me recognize u when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past & of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted u 2 know that I find my strength in clinging on to my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me, the life I shall spend w/ u! In my mind & in my heart I know that u r worth all the pain & sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life & I believe that they r slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect in its truest sense, but perfect 4 u! I wonder if u have been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest 1, pls Don’t ever give up because I m right here, patiently waiting 4 u! I assure u that when we finally find each other, I would slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night, I would look out my window & stare at the beautiful sky hoping that somehow u r also looking up & wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer & send all my cries 2 the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach u & when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes & believe that u r on ur ay & that u r longing 2 c me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep it is still u that I think of 4 u r always in my dreams. It seems that, 4 now, that is the only place where I can hold on 2 u long enough 2 tell u how much ILOVEU! In my dreams, u would kiss away my fears & wrap me w/ ur arms of love. & this, all the more, makes me want 2 wake up &face the new day ahead w/ the hope that soon enough, u will no longer b a dream but a reality & once again I m assured that u r worth the wait, & when that time comes, everything will fall into its place just as I had imagined, just as I had thought & dreamed, just as I had believed it would b! by then, I would simply look back & smile, at all that I have gone through in spite of the pain & amidst the simple joys in life & I would b very thankful because they all led me 2 u! in the meantime, take care of urself 4 me, hold on 2 ur dreams & don’t even think of letting go, believe in ur heart & that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course & it is up 2 us 2 follow the directions. Don’t worry, don’t b afraid of getting lost, God c 2 it that all the roads no matter which 1 2 choose 2 follow will lead u 2 ME! |
