Practice. Like everything else, loving more takes practice. Acceptance takes practice. Letting things go takes practice. Again I come back to the practice of nothing, how to see more deeply into the world around me and spot the fabric and the threads weaving it together, weaving US together.

And of course, like everything else, practice is difficult. I am finding the best way to do it is to be so desperate for things to change that I will actually DO THE WORK. Hair on fire and blah blah blah, you know.

Life surfing returns to my conscious mind more and more these days. Breath is integral. I visualize each inhalation and exhalation pushing me back, back, back away and out of my body. Sometimes it helps at first to defocus your eyes. Once you're feeling 'it', then the most curious sensation comes over you, your body becomes the surfboard and the world the waves and everything is quite interesting to watch and interact with. If you feel yourself slipping, return awareness to the breath and push back again. It helps also to repeat "the body is being breathed" or something wacky like that.

I have been finding good success with visualizing a difficult situation or conjuring up an emotion that I want to work with and then using this technique to enhance my ability to stop, remember, and then CHOOSE MY REACTION. Ah... free will, who knew it was such a struggle??