4th of July weekend...



Life Rating a la Hakim Bey: The worst of all possible worlds is expecting love & desire to the point of terror, and receiving only quotidian anesthesia, shit-for-brains, and useless pain.



The rest of it was good though, friends and laughter and gathering together. Good also in that I was finally unable to turn away from knowledge I had in my heart but haven't been able to face. Now there are the rest of the pieces to pick up, but the breaking is done. I shudder to think of the next experience that will cause me to embrace the shattering as well as the aftermath.



Next up... how to deal with Uncontrollable Rage. Got to love those stages of grieving. Goodbye Denial! How I loved you!