I hope everyone had a great week. I was thinking it might be better not to look for change everyday but maybe weekly recaps and monthly evlauations. 

So here we go, this week seem to be much better. I was thinking with more clarity with few exceptions. The biggest one happen on Friday. It seem that everything fell on me at once and there was no break to catch my breath.  If that was all it would have been okay. But latter that night my mind fell into a strange place, I found myself looking for value in my life. This feeling was so strong it keep me up until 4am. I found no awnsers but I some how feel a little more at ease. 

For the first time in what feels like a long time I was able to convay my feelings in a semiintelagent way( at least for a man).

Well talk with you later. 

-John-