Posted by ExDub [ExDub] on November 14, 1999 at 14:47:26 {fiuUEQ5dxUS2pgVcL2CgYwT5J/kZ46}:
In Reply to: HOSTILITY posted by Rae on November 14, 1999 at 09:32:08:
Rae, From the wise and balanced sound of your post, I bet you have been questioning longer than a week really. I'd bet that something happened a week ago to make you acknowledge to yourself that you are indeed questioning.
Whatever paths your feet follow over the coming months and years, I hope that you will maintain the balance. When you openly question and openly actually leave, there is pain. You may at some point feel angry.
Anger is okay, as long as it isn't destructive. What happens when we leave the WTS is a type of grief. And part of grief often involves a period of anger. Trick is to not get stuck there, but to continue growing.
AND, having had a tad bit of grief training for my work, and dealing with people who are grieving, I can tell you that however you grieve is okay. Everyone grieves differently.
Even when we think we are pulling out of the grief, along comes a pot hole and we fall back into it. But usually as time goes on, each pot hole is shallower.
I'm getting on a roll here! LOL, I think I'm just hoping that you'll be prepared for the myriad of emotions that will pass through your heart as you question and examine and grow and things change for you. You'll ultimately be fine. You are starting out with such a remarkably good balance already.
Will be thinking about you.
ExDub