Posted by Bibleman [Bibleman] on November 13, 1999 at 20:17:11 {OA5YBxH8IAMRXA6xmpscslyACFuF8c}:
In Reply to: ******The Great "Conspiracy" posted by GOLF on November 13, 1999 at 17:18:35:
Hi GOLF,
Thanks for the reference. There is so much on the internet now about all this now, the "Illuminati" and the "Freemasons" and the "Statute of Liberty" etc. it's incredible. At this point it is too much to dismiss as "rumour" without some direct contradictory evidence. Though one will always have to trim the hype.
As far as my history, it's about the same, only I was born in 1950 and my mother was baptaized in 1952, so I was basically raised in the truth. My father came in later. I remember both of their baptisms. I was baptized in 1960, at ten years of age. I was very much a J-dub, loved working at assemblies. As I got older I started getting more involved with the field ministry and at 14 I decided to auxillary pioneer during the summer which I enjoyed so much I decided to become a regular pioneer while still in school. So I regular pioneered all through my 9th grade year and up until I entered High School when I dropped off the list.
But the during my 10th grade year there was a program called the "Student Tutorial Program" in which students with good grades in high school could make money tutoring Jr. High school kids. So I did that so I could save up enough money to go where the need was greater in Arkansas, which I did the following summer. I was 16.
But by then, the freedom and the hormones were beginning to take their toll. I vacation pioneerd the following summer as well, but by high school was very confused about my sexuality and soon afer leaving high school I got involved with immorality and ended up getting disfellowshipped after a quick marriage. My wife and I only lived together for about 3 months before it all fell apart and I left the truth in search of my "sexual identity". It was devastating of course.
I was out of the truth for about three years when some friends whom I lived with gave me some "cannibinal" which is the pure derivative from marijuana called "THC". It acted like a truth serum and I could see clearly what my life was and decided to come back to the truth. So I moved back home with parents, started the meetings and after a year presented myself to get back into the truth, which I did. But things didn't work out with my wife and I. She fell out of the truth and we got a divorce.
And then over time I fell out of the truth again.
Got disfellowshipped again. And it took me many years to come back, but I finally conquered my sexual addiction and returned to the truth, that is, I got reinstated. But I was still dealing with identity problems and being in the organization was a heavy, heavy burden. So I decided to just stop going to the meetings. It was just too painful. So I was inactive for about three years and didn't go to a meeting until Passover of 1992. I was finally ready to come back. I had made some changes in my life. I had a new job, a new apartment, and I was going to start anew with a new congregation.
But then, that summer, some amazing things began to occur. A brother was studying with me and as we discussed things and I did research I began to learn more and more things about the Bible and things started to open up for me. Until, finally, I realized I was about to become one of the "anointed" which did happen.
But that very next day after it happened, a group of brothers who I "magically" ended up working with in mid-week knew about it. They called me a "prophet" and started showing me the secrets of how the holy spirit worked. We all had on the exact same type of shoes. Thus I was initiated into the periphery of the JIOR. I got more training at another congregation I visited. But everybody knew and understood who I was and that I was anointed. It was still all new to me.
At that time, though, other anointed ones in my presence would sometimes double-over from holy spirit. Like John leaping in Elizabeth's womb when impregnated Mary came to visit her. So that was a strange phase. And I thought I was a prophet with a special message. I began at that time doing lots of research into ancient art and pottery etc.
Then as I discovered some fundamental truths, such as the fact that "Song of Solomon" was really a pagan book, since I had found at least three identifiable versions of the "Mother Goddess" described in the book, the bothers came by and wanted to hear what I had to say. But it was too much to speak with them. I told them about what I had discovered and they said they would think about it.
It was at that time that I decided to write the Society about these discoveries, around November 10, 1992 and put all this down in a letter to them, a copy of which I'd forward to my local congregation, as usual.
The theme of the letter was just warning them as a "watchman" that I had a responsibility for my own life to expose these false doctrines and to expose the three books of "Esther", "Ecclesiastes" and "Song of Solomon" as being non-inspired. I felt I was being guided by holy spirit to write the letter.
But as I was writing it, with just the purpose of warning them and telling them a sword was coming if they did not make these corrections, the next thing I knew I was typing out they were getting disfellowshipped from Jehovah's Heavenly organization basically and that they would be cast into spiritual darkness. It was very kind letter though. It explained that individual members of the GB could still repent, etc. But that they had made themselves a god, most witnesses believed not the bible if it contradicted the "Watchtower" etc.
I remember after typing the letter the next day visiting my parents all excited and telling them:"Mama, Dad! The Governing Body has been disfellowshipped!" They thought I was crazy of course. I told a few other close brothers and it caused a stir. I also began sharing the information with others in fliers and it go out that I was becoming apostate.
And, ummmm, that's about it. I kept doing research and at some point when I didn't want to deal with the brothers any more (it was too draining to keep dragging them and myself through all the false teachings...) I decided to formally dissociate in a panic. But then I rescinded the dissociation letter since I still recognized the witnesses as the temple organization. And I've been happy to be half-way in and half-way out ever since.
Over the next seven years since 1992 I did independent research at numerous regional libraries and five universities, primarily centered on chronology and after getting on the internet, researchers from all over the world sent me their private research. Extremely rare stuff. And eventually I was able to reconstruct the original chronology of the Neo-Babylonian and Persian periods with several astronomical events. That is, until the discovery of the VAT4956 double reference to 511BCE for Year 37 of Nebuchadnezzar II which confirms without a doubt the original fall of Jerusalem occurred in 529BCE and there, indeed, was a conspiracy to manipulate all the astronomical and historical records to fit the revised chronology. It was a very comprehensive historical revision.
So since then I've been publishing my research and sharing and arguing at H20 on my favorite Bible issues.
And that's it. Sometimes I feel I'd like to go back to the organization because I miss the association of the brothers, but with the current attitude of the WTS with embracing truth, plus since I know the GB is disfellowshipped and in spiritual darkness, it's nicer just to have my freedom of speech and freedom to learn and do research and use the internet.
So, I'm a happy soul, waiting for the New Order.
Cheers,
Bibleman