Posted by Alan [ABK] on November 05, 1999 at 09:31:49 {6xiCHW3gJ2lwbpQQdc0ocg1OR9dBW2}:
In Reply to: Blue as a Smurf posted by Smurf on November 04, 1999 at 20:46:30:
:I have been a recent lurker and poster on this site for more than one year. It has been "up building", more than up building, it has been an anchor for life. Not my only
anchor, but one I could not have survived without.
This site is not upbuilding because it only tears down faith and does not build it up.
:My son, I lost my oldest son. He is dead and I will newer get him back. Not in this life and not in an another. We will never meet again, never! This is the truth I
recognized when I looked at him and understood that he was dead. He will never, ever be alive again. I had some hope for eternal life, not very clear and without
substance, but now I know for sure, there is no such thing. He took his own life, his younger brother found him dead, speaking with me on the phone, I was the one
who forced him to find out what was wrong, (1 hour away on work) This is one thing that I can't deal with, never! He was young (17) very intelligent, good looking,
strong and brave. He was a baptized JW. I gave my approval.
He can be resurrected in God's kingdom so you can see him again.
I am not a JW, and I can't blame the JW:s, my guilt is so much bigger. We went to conventions on the summers.
You should have faith in the resurrection as the conventions teach.
Guilt creates more damage than anything.
Have faith, because God has something better.
But faith is not found here.