Posted by ExDub [ExDub] on October 31, 1999 at 19:09:32 {MDPAlM8llYS2pgVcL2CgYwT5J/kZ46}:
In Reply to: Q for apostates posted by B on October 31, 1999 at 18:09:04:
You ask for apostates to tell why we got involved in the first place. I suppose I did because I was tired. I had four babies, wanted TRUTH. They came to the door and I immediately liked the women I studied with. I WANTED to believe, WANTED to be special, to be in God's exclusive group.
I wanted to please God, and they said things and it was very organized and I think I was lulled into it somehow by my own desire to believe.
They were also very good! They seemed to listen for my weak spots, or for my own concerns, then guide me in that direction. So, it appeared to be lovely, perfect, tailor made for me!
So, I went into it wanting to believe, wanting specialness, wanting to be part of something. I wanted answers and they had them all. I was vulnerable.
I thank God today that I was smart enough to see the falsehoods and get out of that organization.
ExDub