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| My Philosophies |
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| This page is pretty much random ideas, and such. You may find them amusing at the very least. |
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| -={06/03/2005-10:24PM}=- so many times i feel like there has to be a change in the tide. then i wonder if i am one of the gruneon,waiting for nothing but the end... |
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| ={06/17/2005 8:10PM}=- Well, in a few days it will be the most dreaded of <minor> holidays- Father's Day. Somehow I don't feel too much like a father. This will be the 2nd year I have been missing my son, on this holiday, and it doesn't get any easier. Life itself feels like I am just 'going through the motions'. Kind of like a hollow shell without a purpose, or direction; and a lame excuse for a motive... Of course, the clock is relentlessly ticking on and on. I wonder if I will see Donavon before the Tribulations really begin. One thing is for sure, I don't feel as if I have gotten any closer to my goal of having him in my life - if anything I am slowly, but surely slipping further away from him and most of all, in his memory. |
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| -={04/05/2005}=- I wasn't one of those lucky kids who had both of their parents around during childhood.I had pretty much figured that my mother didn't want to bother with raising us. After several years passed, I learned that there was nothing I could do to change 'her' decision- so I dealt with it! It wasn't until about the time that I had turned 18, that I started re-assessing the whole issue. The only difference was that I now had opened my mind to the possibility that maybe my mom did wish that she could've been a part in the lives of me and my siblings. Since we have not had contact for some time, I suppose that I will never know the truth. This chapter in my personal history, really worries me. Since it has been awhile that I have seen my son, I can't help but believe that he will quickly grow to have the same opinion of me, that I had of my mother! All of my friends and family keep telling me that things will be okay, even if I don't see him for awhile. Then they wonder why concentrating on everyday life is so painful with this always present in my mind! |
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