Modest Mouse - The World At Large Ice age, heat wave, can't complain If the world's at large why should I remain Walked away to another plain Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand I move on to another day To a whole new town with a whole new way Went to the porch to have a thought Got to the door and again I couldn't stop You don't know where and you don't know when But you still got your words and you got your friends Walk along to another day Work a little harder, work another way Well uh-uh baby, I ain't got no plan We'll float on maybe would you understand Gonna float on maybe would you understand Well uh-float on maybe would you understand The days get shorter and the nights get cold I like the autumn but this place is getting old I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most The days get longer and the nights smell green I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave I like songs about drifters, books about the same They both seem to make me feel a little less insane Walked on off to another spot I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want Did I want love? Did I need to know Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow The moths beat themselves to death against the lights Adding their breeze to the summer nights Outside, water like air was great I didn't know what I had that day Walk a little farther to another plan You said that you did, but you didn't understand I know that starting over is not what life's about But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth My thoughts were so loud REASON: This April, I've found myself in the same place I was a year ago. I feel like my soul is being pulled in every direction and my body is stretched just as far. Just before finals, Sabby brought up the idea of seeing new people. We didn't get to see each other this month, and the idea broke her heart as much as it did mine, if not more. Ten days of purgatory before we resolved that, during which I got to visit home for just three days. It hurt to see my grandfather in a nursing home, recovering from a surgery. It hurt to only see my friends for about a collective 24 hours. It just hurts to be pulled between the life I know I hated in Missouri, a life of scholarly torment at DigiPen, and the life of a lover that may lose it all due to an invisible line. I just wish I could have it all, my friends, my family, my love, and my profession, but I can't... Not for another four years or so. And after that time, I may have lost part of my family. It hurts, too, to know that everytime I see my grandparents may be the last time I do. It hurts to not be able to tell everyone how much I love them, even when I have the chance to, especially when I know I could lose any of them. I just wish I had given everyone a proper goodbye.