Johnny Cash - Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that's real.
A needle tears a hole,
The old familiar stain.
Try to kill it all away,
But I remember everything

What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away
In the end.

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time,
The feelings disappear.
You are someone else;
I am still right here.

What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away
In the end.

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.

If I could start again
A million miles away,
I would keep myself.
I would find a way.


REASON:

In short, I feel like my life is falling apart.  This is my first year in college, so
the stress is overwhelming at times.  My best friend of about six years leaves for the
air force on October 18th, while most of my other friends are gone already.  My
thoughts have been returning to my ex-girlfriends, mainly Joanna, which is bothering
me.  Even after three months, it still hurts...  Also, I found out that a girl I was
thinking about asking out before Nicole didn't go away for college.  She's actually
going to the same college I am.  That's the biggest problem.  I still kinda want to
date her, but I'm with Nicole.  For the last three weeks, I've been trying to sort this
out, but nothing helps.  I just feel like I've betrayed Nicole by having these "What
if?" thoughts.  There's just too much to deal with, and no time for it.