| PART 8 Taking his hand in hers. �Do you think we could just sit by the fire and talk for a while.� Kissing her lips lightly. �Sure if that�s what you want.� He pulls her tight. �But there�s something I need to tell you first.� �Okay what.� �I love you.� She immediately drops her hands from his and walks towards the fireplace. � You know maybe we should have eaten at that restaurant because I�m really hungry.� She looks down the hall. �Do you think there�s a microwave in the kitchen maybe some popcorn that we can pop.� She picks up the fireplace poker and starts messing with the logs on the fire. �I�m sure you have something to eat in the kitchen after all you did say something along the lines of us not leaving tomorrow.� She looks over at him. �What�s so funny.� Trying not to laugh any harder then he already is. �You are remarkable.� �What I am, is hungry.� He walks over to her and she backs up. �Will you stop laughing at me.� �When you stop being silly I�ll stop laughing.� She walks around his body and over to the other side of the room. �I don�t know what�s so funny about me being hungry.� �What�s funny is you talking about food so you can ignore dealing with what I said.� Looking point blank at him. �I heard what you said--- and ---well --- there�s really nothing to deal with.� �And how does that make you feel.� Picking up a couch pillow and throwing it at him. �That is so not funny.� Laughing harder then before. �Actual I found it profoundly funny.� �That�s only because you have a sick sense of humor.� Walking towards her. �At least I have a sense of humor.� Getting frustrated. �Are you implying that I don�t?� �No, I�m saying it out right.� Pointing her finger at him. � Well you doctor feel good are nothing but----� Looking at him. �Okay now why are you laughing?� �I think it�s funny that you won�t deal with the fact that I love you but you openly admit that I feel good.� Picking up another pillow. �That is so not what I meant and you know it.� Becoming serious. �Am I upsetting you Alexis.� Shaking her head. �I am beyond upset.� she launches the pillow at him. �I�m down right pissed off.� Placing his hand on his chin. �And how does that make you feel?� �URGGGGGGGG, you are so annoying.� He walks over to her and grabs her arm. �And it�s driving you crazy isn�t it?� Yelling �Yes!� Pulling her close. �Now you know how I feel every time I look in your eyes, every time I touch your body, every time I ---� he pulls her into a long hard kiss. She breaks the kiss and pulls her body out of his grasp. �I am so not going to let you get to me.� �I think it�s a little late for that.� �You are so full of yourself.� Cameron walks over and sits on the couch. Standing in front of him. �What are you doing.� He picks of his glass of wine. �I figured as long as I was going to get a floor show I�d make sure I sat in the front row.� �And what floor show is that?� �You trying to convince me that I mean nothing to you and that the words I said to you didn�t effect you in any way, shape, of form.� Sitting next to him. �There just words.� �I love you, are more then just words and try, as I know you will, but they mean a lot.� Looking down. �Why are you doing this to me.� Taking her hand in his. �Because the only way I�m going to get you to open up to me is if I open up to you first.� Looking at their intertwined hands. �I don�t want to love you� Looking up at him. �I can�t love you.� �But you do.� Looking away. �I never said that.� Placing his hand under her chin forcing her to look at him. �You didn�t have to. I could tell by the way you look at me, by the way you use control to avoid your true feelings, by the way you allow me to get under your skin and annoy the crap out of you.� Laughing. �That you do.� �You know I didn�t tell you I loved you for you to tell me the same.� �I care about you so much and I wish I could allow myself to get closer to you. To actual one day be able to say those words to you.� He places his arm around her shoulder and pulls her back into the couch with him. Like an old familiar feeling she lays the back of her head into his chest. �Alexis the words don�t have to be said for the feelings to be felt.� �Cameron it just seems like every time I let somebody into my life I either end up hurt or they end up----� After a few moments of silence. �They end up what Alexis?� She tries to sit up but he won�t let her. �Forget it, you�ll just end up telling me I�m paranoid or something.� �How do you what I�ll say if you don�t give me the chance.� �Trust me Dr. Lewis I know you well enough to know you�ll tell me or at least think I�m being paranoid.� He holds his hand up. �I promise Alexis I won�t call or think you�re being paranoid.� She pushes his hand down. �This isn�t a court of law and you aren�t under oath.� He notices a tear roll down her face. �Alexis I know what ever you were about to say is really bothering you.� He wipes her tears away. �And I�d love to help you but you�ve got to be willing to meet me half way.� �Dead� She plainly states. Looking confused. �Come again.� She tires to get up but again he won�t let her. �Dead!--- You asked me to finish my thought before and that�s what I was going to say.� He thought about it for a moment. �You�re afraid if you let me into your life I�ll end up dead?� �You don�t know my family Cameron.� He places his arms around her and holds her tight. �You have no idea how safe I feel when you hold me like this.� �Alexis Davis, if holding you is going to make you feel safe, and hopefully loved, then I�ll hold you like this all night long.� �You know if I could get myself to open up to anybody it would probably be you.� She locks eyes with him. �If only it were that easy.� �Alexis you�re the one making it hard.� Out of nowhere Alexis burst out laughing. Looking at her like she�s completely lost it. �What�s so funny?� Trying to stand up. �Nothing, nothing. I just thought of something and it made me laugh� Trying to control herself. �You know I think the fire could use another log.� �You don�t honestly expect me to believe that something just popped into your head -----� She started laughing so hard she couldn�t even look at him. Getting frustrated. �During a very serious, not to mention tender moment that it made you laugh so hard that you can�t even control yourself.� Still laughing. �Cameron I really am sorry. I have no idea what came over me.� �Well apparently it was something I said.� Picking up speed as she speaks. �Okay fine it was, but I can�t tell you what because I don�t want you getting the wrong impression.� He gives her a strange look. �I don�t want you thinking that that�s all I ever think about and I certainly don�t want you thinking that I was thinking about you in that way. Not that I don�t think about you in that way--- and well it�s not like you don�t know that I think about you in that way. It�s just that you don�t need to know that a this particular moment I was thinking about you in that way because If you knew that I was thinking about you in, well that way then you might think that, well that I would and well I wouldn�t , So it�s just better off of you don�t know what I was thinking when you said what you said because ------� Quickly pulling her into a deep, hard kiss. Pushing her back. �You know it�s a wonder you don�t confuse yourself when you talk.� �Can we please just forget why I started laughing.� �Believe it or not Alexis after listening to you ramble on like that and thinking about the last thing I said to you I think I know what mad you laugh.� Blushing. �I think the fire could use another log.� Getting up, slightly laughing. �I think your something else Alexis Davis.� Looking at his butt as he places another log on the fire. �I know your something else.� She mutters to herself. Standing up. �Did you say something.� Thinking quickly. �I�m hungry.� Giving her the evil eye. �I think we have some microwave popcorn in the kitchen, I�ll go pop some.� Smiling. �Why don�t you go do that.� �And just what will you do while I�m gone.� She places her legs on the couch. �I�ll just be lying here waiting for you.� Winking. �I�ll hurry back.� |