| CHAPTER 9
Hope is sitting on her bed in her blue silky pajamas staring up at the ceiling when there�s a knock on her bedroom door. �Come in.� �I just wanted to say goodnight before I headed off to bed.� Bo said standing near the door. �Is there anything I can get you before I turn in?� She pats the bed bedsides her. �Your company would be nice.� He can�t help but smile as he makes his way over to the bed and sits down next to her. �I�m really sorry about earlier.� �Earlier?� He questions. Upset. �Bo your mother thinks we�re having another baby.� �Well we are, aren�t we?� �Bo you know��.� �Hope!� Bo replies firmly cutting her off. �I don�t care who the father of this child is we are still having another baby�.you are my wife and I love you and I will love this baby�.we�ve gone over this before.� She try�s to say something but he won�t let her interrupt him. �This child you are carrying is apart of you and therefore a part of us.� �Bo your parents and everybody else deserve to know the truth.� �By everybody else, do you mean Patrick. � Closing her eyes and pushing her head back. �Bo you know I have to tell him sooner or later�it�s just a matter of time before I start showing.� She looks over at him. �Besides way to many people are finding out and I don�t want him to find out from somebody else. That wouldn�t be fair to him.� �Fair to him!� Bo yells. �Why do care so much about what�s fair to him when he obviously took advantage of you.� �Bo, Patrick did not take advantage of me and you know that�..I�m just as much responsible for what happened between the two of us as he is.� �Hope, Jenn told me you don�t even remember sleeping with him��so how can you honestly say that.� �Because like it or not Bo I know and trust Patrick and if I would have said no he would have stopped.� �I�m sorry Hope but I don�t believe that. The man has wanted you from the moment he laid eyes on you and he saw his chance to have you and he took it for it was worth and all ran with it. He doesn�t care how sleeping with him has effect you personally.� �Bo, please don�t make me regret deciding to keep this baby.� Hope started to cry. �I wasn�t taking about the baby Hope. I was taking about the guilt you are feeling over being with another man�especially since we were and still are married. �I was just so mad Bo.� Pulling her close. �I know Fancy Face and I�m sorry. I should have been there for you, and none of this would have happened.� �It�s all Billie�s fault�. If she would have just kept her mouth shut none of this would be happening right now.� �If I hadn�t allowed Chelsea to manipulate me like she does, none of this would be happening.� �At least after all these years, you�re finally seeing her for who she is now.� He lies back against the pillow pulling her down with him. �I know it�s a sore subject with you Fancy Face but she�s still my daughter and I still want to be a part of her life.� She sighs for a moment and then changes the subject. �Speaking of children how do you think Shawn is going to take the news?� �Probably a lot better then Chelsea.� �I just hope he doesn�t think we are trying to replace Zack with this new baby.� He hugs her tightly. �Shawn knows that nobody could replace his little brother.� There�s a silence in the room until Hope finally speaks out. �Bo, you know I have to tell Patrick.� �You know I should really let you get some sleep.� Bo says as he sits up. �It�s been a long day.� He kisses her forehead and starts to make his way out of the room. �Bo! I know you don�t want to deal with this and if the world were a perfect place and we didn�t allow other people to influence us, we wouldn�t be dealing with it at all and the child I�m carrying would be yours. But the truth is I am pregnant and Patrick is this baby�s father and I have to tell him.� He turns and looks at her. �Why? Why Hope why does he have to know anything?� �Because I�m carrying his child.� Frustrated as all hell. �Please don�t say that again.� �Not saying it Brady isn�t going to change the fact�.� Throwing his hands up in the air. �I know that Hope but you don�t have to keep saying it out loud.� �I�m sorry.� She replies looking down at the ground. He walks back over and sits down next to her. He places his arm around her neck and pulls her close. �I�m sorry Fancy Face. I didn�t mean to make you cry.� �It�s not your fault.� �Yes it is.� He proclaims. �I�m tried of not knowing what to say and always feeling like there this huge thing stopping us from making the connection we use to have.� She looks up at him. �There is Bo.� She puts his hand on her stomach. �The thing you are talking about is this baby. She can feel his hand tense, so she picks it up and intertwines her fingers with us. �And there�s only one way to make that go away.� �Hope we aren�t going there again.� He insisted. �We already talked about this subject more then we should have. Heck it should have never been a discussion in the first place.� She looked him in the eyes but never said a word. A few minutes went by before he broke the embrace. �I�m going to go to bed. Try and get some sleep okay.� �okay.� She replied as he kissed her forehead and she closed her eyes. �Goodnight.� He added as he walked to what use to be their bedroom door and opened it. �Bo.� She said raising to her feet as he turns around. �Stay with me tonight.� He wasn�t sure what to say as he just stood there. She began to play with her fingers. �I know we aren�t in that place yet where we can be intimate with each other, but I�d still love it if you held me.� He still didn�t speak, he just stood there as he wasn�t really sure what to say. �I sleep so much better in your arms.� He still didn�t speak as he walked over to the bed and pulled down her side of the covers. She stood on her tippy toes and lightly kissed him on the lips before she allowed him to tuck her in. She still wasn�t sure if he was going to stay with her or not and from the look on his face she didn�t know weather or not he was sure either. He just stared at her for a few moments and removed a few stray hairs from her face, before he smiled and walked over to the other side of the bed. He sat down and removed his shoes and socks followed by his shirt. She rolled over and watched him just sit there and so wanted to reach out to him but wasn�t sure if she should. Slowly he stood up and unbuckled his belt before undoing his pants and sliding them down to the floor. He still didn�t say a word as he crawled into the bed next to her and lifted up is right arm. She brought her head to his chest and he took his arm and wrapped it tightly around here. He so loved the feel of her face and fingertips, which she began teasing him with, against his naked chest. He loved to sit there and just listen to her breath. It was the one thing he seemed to miss the most. He wasn�t sure however where this uncomfortable feeling he was having was coming from or how long it would last but he knew he needed to figure out a way to let her know that feeling no longer existed. �I love you Brady.� She quietly spoke He kissed the top of her head and began playing with her. He fingertips were driving him crazy and all he wanted to do was roll her over and make love to her, but there was just something holding him back. Was it that she was pregnant with Lunkhead�s baby, or could it just be as simple as he can�t believe she actually slept with another man. Something he never thought in a million years she would ever do. As he began to rub her back he thought that made if he just made love to her that uncomfortable feeling in the middle of his chest where his heart is would just go away. �I�m sorry Bo.� She quietly spoke again as a teardrop hit his chest. He so hated to see her cry especially when he was the reason she was crying. He took his free hand and wiped her face which made her look up at him. They just stared at one another until Hope made a very bold and sexually move by bringing her fingertips up to his lips and caressing them, before sliding her body up to his mouth and placing her lips inches from his. Between her hot breath breathing on his face and the smell of her perfume he couldn�t handle it anymore as he lifted his head up slightly and slid his tongue into her mouth. Before they both realized it the kiss took on a life of it�s own. It was more disparate and longing at first and then instantly turned into something very hot and heavy as they began to make love to one another for the first time since Zack�s death. ~~*~**~***~*~*~*~*~*~*~***~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~*~*~*~**~*~*~**~~**~*~**~*~ |