| CHAPTER 15
Later on that night Bo comes walking up the stairs carrying a tray with some homemade chicken noodle soup, crackers and herbal tea on it. Quietly he walks into the bedroom and sets the tray down on the nightstand next to Hope. She is just lying there on her side staring at the blank wall across the room. Bo carefully sits next to her and begins rubbing her hair. �Hey there Fancy Face, my mom brought over some chicken noodle soup for you. I know you haven�t eaten in a while and you really should. If you�d like I can feed it to you.� She doesn�t say a word as he continues to try and get through to her. �You know you�re eating for two these days and I happen to know this baby of ours is really hungry, even if you aren�t.� He leans down and kisses her forehead causing her to close her eyes. Silently he gets up tucks the blanket tighter around her shoulder and kisses her once more. �I�m just going to leave this soup here for you in case you get hungry. I hope you eat it while I�m gone.� She turns her eyes just enough to look up at him, which causes him to smile. �Don�t worry little one I�m just going down stairs to make a few phone calls. I promise I won�t be long. He leans down and kisses her once again before he smiles, turns and walks out of the room closing the door behind him. His heart nearly skips a beat as he solemnly lays his head against the cold hard door. �Dear lord I�m really lost here and need your help. I can�t seem to get through to her and really don�t know where to even start. She needs your help.� He takes a deep breath. �I know I told Roman that she isn�t the woman I married and if the truth be told she�s not� she�s so much more. I know that this is going to sound selfish and all but I don�t care because I need her and I need you to help me help her. She�s my world and it�s killing me to see her in so much pain. I need her to be okay again and I think you�re the only one who can help me make that happen.� Just then there�s a knock on the door. �I really hope this is a good sign.� Bo says to himself as he makes his way down the stairs, and opens the front door. �Bo.� Jenn yells running into his arms. �Why didn�t you call me? Why did I have to hear about this from Roman?� She lets go of him and walks into the living room. �Where is Hope? Is she okay, he didn�t hurt her or the baby, did he?� �Jenn, Hope is upstairs sleeping and you really need to calm down.� �I�ll calm down when I know she�s okay.� Bo looks up the stairs and then back over at Jenn. �Physically she�s fine�.. Luckily I got home before he����.� Jenn wrapped her arms around him as he started to let himself go. �I�m so sorry. I know this is just as hard on you as it is on Hope.� Bo let go of her and walked over to the couch and sat down. �I should have been her when he got here Jenn but I wasn�t. I was too busy throwing a pity party for myself. To busy feeling sorry for myself and too busy hating my wife for screwing up our life when in fact it was me who screwed everything up. I wasn�t paying attention to my wife and what she needed and that allowed Patrick Lockhart to just walk in and sweep her off her feet.� Jenn walks over and sits on the coffee table across from him. �Bo that isn�t what happened and you know that.� Bo washes his hands down his face and becomes even more frustrated than before. �It doesn�t matter how it happened Jenn it still did and it�s all my fault.� �Instead of trying to lay blame on everything that has happen in the last past year, why don�t you try focusing on the future and how great things are going to be.� �Jenn I can�t focus on the future when I have no idea from minute to minute how to deal with the present. One minute I think to myself I can do this, I can love the child my wife is carrying because it�s a part of her, which makes it a part of us. I can deal with how it happened and just move on, but �.. then there are these moments where I hate myself because I look at my wife and all I see is the love of my life, the woman who makes me whole, the woman who would never betray me��. My soul mate���. My better half���. pregnant with Patrick Lockhart�s baby.� Bo was about to say something else when he caught Jenn�s eyes look at his and then over his right shoulder. Quickly he turned around and jumped up when he saw Hope sitting on the bottom step. �Don�t let me stop you from finally telling somebody how you really feel.� Hope replied as he ran over to her and knelt down. �I think I�m going to get going.� Jenn added as she picked up her car keys. �Thank you Jenn.� Hope said as she kissed her cousin goodbye. �Did you eat anything?� Bo asked after Jenn left. Hope shook her head no. �If you�re not going to eat then you should really get some rest.� �I don�t want to sleep Bo, I want to talk.� He takes her hand in hers and helps her to her feet. �We�ll talk in the morning I promise you, as long as you promise me you�ll get some sleep.� �I don�t think I can sleep until we talk about the things you said to Jenn.� �How much of that did you hear?� �Not enough to know how you truly feel about this baby.� She looks down. �and about me.� He places his hand under her chin and makes her look up at him. �I love you Fancy Face, I always have and I always will.� �I know you love me but at this time and place I want to know if you still like me.� �The only thing I don�t like, is how we got to this dark place in our relationship and I hate the fact that I can�t figure out how to get us out of it.� She leans forward and kisses him passionately on the lips. �Maybe if we try working with each other instead of against each other.� With his hand still in hers she leads him up the stairs. �And we start telling each other how we really feel instead of trying to protect the other� things might start to turn around.� He stops them short when they reach their bedroom door. �That all depends.� She smiles at him. �On what?� �On whether or not I can convince you to get some sleep or not.� �And that my friend all depends on whether or not you�ll lye beside me and hold me tight.� Bo pushes the bedroom door open. �Lead the way.� |