| CHAPTER 11 Cameron walked off the elevator and down the hall to Alexis�s apartment. He extended his arm to knock but stopped himself. �What if she�s sleeping? I can�t just wake her.� He dropped his arm to look at his watch. �I guess if she�s sleeping she�d have to be getting up soon, after all the sun�s almost all the way up.� He started to knock again but stopped. �Okay Dr Lewis just admit it to yourself and you�ll feel better.� He took a deep breath. �Feel better, yeah right, I�m not going to feel better until I know for sure Alexis doesn�t regret what happened last night.� He dropped his arm, turned his body and placed it against her door. �What if she does? What if right now she�s sitting on the other side of this door kicking herself over what happened? Trying to figure out a way to tell me------ or worse yet what if she tries to ignore it all together? I know this woman better then she probably knows herself, and it would be just like her to answer the door and invite me in like what happened last night never happened.� He stands up straight. �Then again she did come down to the police station and try and help me out.� He throws his arms into the air. �Hello stupid that�s her job, and if anything she went down there because she felt guilty and didn�t want to look totally insensitive.� He smacks his face lightly. �Get a hold of yourself man she wanted what happened last night to happen just as much as I wanted what happened last night to happen.� A man walked by Cameron giving him a strange look. Cameron just smiled and waved. �Okay I�m losing it, I�m really losing it.� He turns and faces the door. � Do you have any idea what you�ve done to me woman? You�ve made me lose it. Thanks to you I am standing out in the hall talking to myself. How on earth could I allow myself to get into her so deep. She�s a nutcase, she�s a total loon, she�s a control freak who won�t even admit she�s a control freak.� He places his head against the door. �She�s funny, she�s smart, she�s sexy as all hell and she wanted me last night I know she did.� He stands up and fixes his attire. �What happened last night happened because we both wanted it and if she can be truthful with herself she�d know that she�s wanted it for a long time.� Picking his hand up to knock. �Why wouldn�t she want me? There�s no reason for her to lie about wanting me. What happened last night was ------- in a word HOT. � He held his breath tight as he let his knuckles hit her door. He finally let out a small amount of breath as she opened to the door and flew into his arms. �I�ve been so worried about you. Did Zander manage to get Ned to drop the charges against you? I�m so sorry Scott made things so difficult for you.� Cameron closed the door behind him before scooping Alexis into his arms. He walked over to her couch and sat down, holding her tightly on his lap. She tightened her grip on him. �I�m so sorry, really I am.� �Alexis please stop telling me your sorry. You know I�d do anything for you.� She let go of his neck slightly and looked at him. �I know you would but---� �But nothing, what happened last night with Kristina, Ned and Scott is over. Right now we have more important things to talk about.� She dropped her hands from his neck. �I know your mad at me for wanting to take Kristina on the run, but I was only doing what I thought I had to do. And don�t get all high and mighty on me or a big swelled head but you were right running with Kristina wouldn�t have been good for either of us.� Cameron couldn�t help but grin from ear to ear. �I�m sorry Ms Davis I didn�t quit catch that. What did you just say?� Pushing herself off his lap and pouting. �I said it once and I refuse to say it again.� Cameron leans forward picking up a note pad. �What are you doing?� �I�m writing this day down in case I need it for a later date.� Taking the notepad from him. �Very funny Dr. Lewis.� He just looked at her and smiled. �What?� �You have no idea how glad I am that your happy that I�m here.� �Why wouldn�t I be? You saved me from making a huge mistake and then took all the heat for it.� �The Q�s can�t do anything to me.� �Maybe not but Scott can.� �Oh I�m not worried about little old Scott. I�ve paved my days analyzing people like him� �You mean there�s more of him out there?� Alexis asked jokingly �God help the human race.� Cameron just stared at her once again. �What now?� Very seriously �Do you have any idea how beautiful I think you are?� Trying to joke it off �No fair making me blush.� He puts his arms around her pulling her back onto his lap. �I need you to tell me something.� �Okay.� �The problem is I don�t know how to ask you? I don�t know how to format the words just the right way.� �With your huge vocabulary, you don�t know how to speak to me.� Alexis laughed �I�m serious Alexis, probably more serious then I�ve been in a long time.� Becoming serious as well. �I�m sorry, why don�t you just ask me what you have to ask me, like you do anything else.� �Because it�s not like anything else I�ve ever asked you. It�s more important then that. A lot more important.� Looking at him for a moment before speaking. �Does it have anything to do with last night and Kristina?� �Yes and No.� �Yes and No?� �Yes it has to do with last night but no it doesn�t have anything to do with Kristina. Not directly anyway.� �I�ve never known you Dr Lewis to be short of words. If anything you�ve always had to much to say.� He places his hand on her face. �I need you to tell me ----- if you-----� �If I what?� �If you regret what happened.� �Cameron I�ve already told you I regret the stupid decision I made. I�ve even gone as far as telling you, you were right.� �I don�t mean about running away Alexis.� �Then what are you talking about. What is it you think I ----� �You, me, us, last night. I need you to tell me you don�t regret making love to me.� �Wow.� She tired to catch her breath �It�s been a long time since I�ve had a man in my bed. And any even longer time since I�ve felt the way I felt last night.� �Is that your way of saying you do or don�t regret it.� �Regret? No� �Then what? I need to know how you feel Alexis.� Laughing �I thought you figured that out last night.� �I know opening up to people and sharing your feelings aren�t easy for you but you can�t just joke this off. I want to know how you feel.� She stands up and walks across the room. �I wanted what happened to happen I won�t deny that.� He stood and walked behind her. �But?� �But I�m not sure if it can work. We�re two totally different people Cameron.� �Who came together last night.� �I�m not denying that.� He placed his arms around her waist. �I�m not asking for a commitment here just a little reassurance that ----� �That I�ll still be there in the morning.� �Alexis please don�t joke about this, and please don�t ignore it.� She placed her head back against his shoulder. �I don�t want to ignore it, I don�t want to forget it, I don�t regret it or you. I just don�t think I can give you want you want.� �You have no idea what I want.� �I know eventually you�ll want more then I�m willing, capable, of giving.� �You�re capable of giving a lot more then you think. All you have to do is allow yourself to feel, to open up, to trust.� She turns her body into his. �I don�t think I can do that.� Wrapping his arms around her. �I know you can.� �Open up huh?� �Yea it�s easy why don�t you try.� �okay here goes nothing.� She pulls away from him, takes his hand and they head back over to the couch. �I wanted you last night, I want you right now, and as annoying as you get at times, I like having you around. I felt so safe last night in your arms. I think it�s the first time in a long time, that allowed myself to be that relaxed. It�s just ----� �Your scared.� �I�m scared I�m not going to be able to live up to the person you think I can be.� �You�re already that person Alexis. I�ve just got to convince you to let her out.� �I need my own space, I need to know you�ll give me that.� �As long as you don�t want to much space that you forget how it felt last night. How we felt last night.� She pulls his face to hers and kisses him deeply. �Why don�t we go in the other room and feel it again.� �I�d love to but----� �But nothing. You and I are two growing adults who want to be with each other.� She begins kissing his neck �Can�t we just leave it at that?� �I just need to know you�re willing to try and open up to me more often.� She looks him in the eye. �You talk to much.� she wraps her lips into his as she unbuttons the last button on his shirt. �You don�t play fair Ms Davis.� He groaned biting her bottom lip. Pulling his pants from his shirt. �But you already knew that.� He grabs a hold of her nightshirt lifting it over her head. Her lips fall against his bare chest as she undoes his belt losing his pants. �I still think we should take this in the other room.� He grabs a hold of her head pulling her mouth to his. �I like it right here.� He pushes her body with his back onto the couch. �I�m still not sure where things stand between us Alexis but I know one thing for sure.� Pushing his shirt from his body, whispering into his bitten ear. �What�s that.� Getting his arm between her and the couch pulling her tightly to him �What I want to do to you right now.� Whispering in his ear. �What�s that.� Kissing her down the side of her face, unto her neck, down her shoulder �Be patient my love I�ll show you.� Alexis placed her hands on his chest and pushed him back. �What?� He asked taking hold of her PJ bottoms. She just looked at him for a moment as the words �my love� ran through her mind. �nothing� She closed her eyes then opened them. �I just wanted to look at you for a moment.� �Do you want me to stop?� Shaking her head. �No� He removed the remainder of first her clothes then his. �Are you sure?� She lifted her body slowly to his. Her arms surrounded his neckline and she pulled his lips to hers. �I want to you to make love to me. I want to feel what it is that you want to do to me.� �I think I want to do it to you more then you want to feel it.� He spoke lightly before overtaking not only her mouth and body, but soul. |