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J: the doctor said if chris hobbs had hit me a fraction of an inch this way or that way or at a different angle or even a little bit harder, I'd be a complete vegetable. Or dead. As it is he only damaged the cerebral motor strength.
B: is that where they drag race to your brain?
J: no, it's a part of the cerebral cortex that controls motor skills.
B: I know what it is, I attended the 8th grade.
J: they had to drill through my skull to release all the blood.
B: cool.
J: they say I may never draw again.
B: yea, well, they're always telling people they'll never walk again or draw again or piss again so when
they finally do you'll think they're geniuses and they could charge you whatever the fuck they want.
J: why didn't you come and see me?
B: what for?
J: considering I was in a comma for two weeks, in rehab for a month, trying to relearn how to throw a fucking korfball.
B: if you wanna regain the agility and strength in your hands I suggest jerking off several times a day. It works like magic.
J: you should have at least called to see if I were still alive.
B: I'm sure I would have heard if you weren't. Besides, I'm not your occupational therapist, I'm not your trauma specialist,
I'm not even your god damn mother sitting there holding your hand. I mean, there?s nothing I could have done for you.
J: I still don't remember anything. Last thing I do remember is you telling me that you wouldn't go to the prom. But they
said that you showed up after all and that we danced together and that was amazing. Daphne said that we were amazing.
B: we were alright.
J: shit. I wish I could remember that. and then I walked with you back out to your jeep and that's when chris hobbs
came with the baseball bat and...
B: I thought you said you couldn?t remember anything.
J: I can't. this is just stuff that other people have told me. It's like a story that happened to somebody else.
B: yea, well, I can remember, I can remember everything.
I saw him. he was coming after you with a bat. But he was moving too fast and you were too far away. And I ran.
But there was no time to stop him. and then he swung and it was too late. There was nothing I could do.
and then you just laid there on the cold cement.
J: it wasn't your fault. It wasn't your fault.
J: thanks.
B: for what?
J: the ride. Saving me.
B: I didn?t save you.
J: I meant tonight. So, will I see you again?
B: yea, you'll see me.
J: well, don't wait too long. At this rate, who knows how long I'll be around.
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J: Brian. I'm glad it's you.
B: who else would it be? where are you going?
J: in.
B: did I say you could?
J: don?t give this shit, alright? I nearly freaked out 5 times getting here.
B: well, you're gonna have to nearly freak out 5 more times getting home.
J: I wanna see you.
B: well, you can't, ok?
J: why not? Are you fucking some guy?
B: none of your fucking business. Now go away.
J: but why? Why?
J: she thought she could keep us apart. 'I don't want you seeing my son anymore'. We showed her.
B: would you shut up?
J: what for?
B: because I said so and because you sound like an immature brat.
J: maybe I am.
B: then you can get your ass out and walk home, right now.
J: what is the matter with you?
B: she was trying to do the right thing. You don't know how lucky you are to have a mother like that.
J: now I get to stay with you.hiii, haaa
B: just until you get better.
J: there?s nothing wrong with me, except for my gimped hand. Fucking hobbs.
B: just don?t think about it, alright?
J: how come you're doing this?
B: what? Driving with no hands?
J: no, why are you letting me stay with you?
B: why do you care, it's what you want, isn?t it?
J: I know why. It's because you love me madly, passionately, deeply just like I always suspected.
B: u walked down with me, back to the jeep and we were, we were goofing, we were dancing.
I kissed you, we said later and then you turned around and smiled. Then I knew why Debbie calls you sunshine.
And then I went back in the jeep and I saw him in the mirror coming after you with the bat.
Christ! Don't you remember anything?
J: I wish I could remember.
B: I wish I could forget.
b: better now?
J: hmm
B: You really freaked me out.
J: wh...you?
B: it was like you got hit all over again.
J: I remembered walking away and suddenly hearing your voice call my name, to warn me. You never told me about that.
You tried to save me.
B: I guess I forgot.
J: it's a good thing one of us remembered.
J: I want you inside me.
B: are you sure?
J: yea. Just take it easy.
B: like the first time?
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J: I wasn't sure I could do it.
B: I was. (kisses him)
J: what's that for?
B: you know how much I love sex in public places.
J: then suck me off right here right now in broad daylight.
B: we are recovering nicely.
J: bad as new
B: Look, one step at a time, first we walk back to my place then I?ll suck you off.
J: I can do it by myself.
B: you can give yourself head??
J: no, I can walk back without a chaperon.
B: you're not trying to lose me are you?
J: a-ha. I'm sick of you always following me around. Don't you have friends your own age?
B: yea, but none of them adore me like you do.
J: I can think of one that does. Anyway, you?ve got a big important fund raiser to attend.
B: you mean a boring insignificant ...
J: you?re a hero no matter what anyone says.
B: (kisses him) thank you for the standing ovation.
J: ok, here goes, later.
B: later.
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J: I saw him, Chris Hobbs.
B: Another dream?
J: He was at the hospice.
B What the fuck was he doing there?
J: There's where they assigned his community service.
B: Well did he do anything?
J: He said I hope I get aids and die.
B: forget it. Get some sleep. You have a big day tomorrow.
J: I?m not going.
B: and miss your first pride?
J: what am I suppose to be proud of, that I got bashed and didn?t die?
J: I told you I didn't want to come here.
B: Well you're here, and you're queer so enjoy it.
J: It's just a big freak show.
B: oh, did you think you were gonna find pride in the parade?
J: then what the fuck are we doing here?
B: we're just making sure Chris Hobbs doesn't win. Now you should go march with your mommy.
B: I'll be glad when Pride's over, so we can all go back to being ashamed.
J: You're just grumpy because you had to look after Gus all day, and no one hit on you.
B: Plenty of people hit on me. Unfortunately they all happened to be lesbians wanting my sperm.
J: Here's your chance, you're not too late.
B: Where you going?
J: I'm leaving you to your wicked ways. Go find a stud, ask him to dance.
B: Hey, stud. You wanna dance?
J: Shut up.
B: I promise you won't forget this one.