i love you
i hate
remembering you
not seeing you
missing you
i love
the way
you trusted me
you needed me
I'm tired
of holding on
clinging
to the
memories
I'm tired
of missing you
dreaming of you
and I'm tired
of not seeing you.
analyzed by a busy mind
the music pounds on
Stopping the thoughts
the urge
to tell her.
those words in my brain
repeating over
and over
making me remember
the way
I feel
make it stop
tell me that you could
love me.
filtering
hiding
my feelings
Only showing
a sliver of
their depth
When all I want
is to throw my arms
around her neck
and cry
only for an hour
Then tell her
exactly how I feel.
closer to the sky
above where I reign.
A king with a rainbow crown
and my beautiful lost Queen
safe in her slumberland.
My last tether to paradise
laying beside me.
My hand brushes her skin
and my own skin quivers
to know that she is mine
and yet she belongs to no one.
Too wild to be tamed
too much of a deity
too much of a goddess
to ever belong to anyone.
I watch my goddess
my lost queen
my last view of utopia
Dream her sacred dreams
Where I know I'll never reach her.
a goddess blessed by the earth
both of the dark and of the light
Her lips like the warmth of her laughter
hands twining with my own
She pulled me into her world before
where the divine was in my blood
where danger was her beauty
And still, though I've been eluded from it
night after night her hair kisses my face
her laugh warms my very skin
haunting my mind with her divinity
The poison and allure of her former life
enveloping my dreams.
Her soul has braided itself into my own
my eternal goddess and captor.
to tell you
I love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you.
