| Samos Giamos To Samos Well this is it; I�ve reached the end, the end of my road. At this moment I�m temporarily insane, and I want you all to know that under normal circumstances I would have never done this. I'm sorry, I'm sorry to everyone who has ever met me for the disappointment I have been to them and the embarrassment I have caused. I�m not able to think anymore due to the pressures that my life brings, I can�t blame anyone but myself for this, and I�m to far beyond the point of being able to accept my own apologies. I�ve always tried to be as good a person as I can and still I hate myself to the point where it drives me crazy, I don't know, I�m at the end of my road. My whole life has been a fucking act, and I can�t hide that anymore, I�m not now or have ever been the person you see. That�s all I am a fucking useless thespian with the drive to do nothing with my life and I can now see that the longer I go on the more unbearable my life will become for me and others to watch. I hate what I do now for it has been the fall of some of my idols and heroes, now I am to join them, I cant think anymore, my mind has let me down. I have let you all down at one point or another and I cant go on with this guilt that I have decided to face, it�s my own fault, its me and Samos Giamos. I have precious few memories of my life but the ones I have, have brought me the happiness to get me this far, so thank you to everyone for all of there love and support, I love you all, every person I have met, I love you. All the problems I have in life, are caused by myself, and I am beginning to detest myself in a which a child hates a bully at school, My problems are infinite and its all my fault. Everyone I know has asked to help me in my times of deep depression, but I am just to shy a person to open up to anyone, and this has held me back so much in life that I cant, I just cant stand it anymore. Believe me when I say I trust you, all of you I trust, and I always will, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry, believe me when I say I'm sorry, I just cant apologise enough for being what I am. Theirs no hope for me now but please don't hate me for what I do, I am yours, If you will have me. I love and trust you enough to continue with your love and trust for everyone. The reason I'm writing this note is yet to come to me, I'm hopeless at everything I do or say, and probably will never be rescued from this fucking alienation I suffer. I'm a fucking whining boy that has no hope of love or success so I leave this message, don't follow what I have done, just go on and be free from the pressure�s of life, ignore them. I love you all! Giamos Jim Sherwood |