For some reason I am just feeling some bad karma here; as I feel I am getting easily pissed off. I don't know why; maybe it is because I haven't seen any of my friends in a while. Or maybe it is because I have reached the end of defining who I am and am looking for love from another... HHHHMMM... interesting thought...
I have also been doing a lot of thinking lately about getting old. It seems like it sucks the more I think about it. I mean your body just won't be physically able to things you could do earlier; imagine the frustration. I went to a nursing home (I am starting to get in the habbit of calling them funeral homes) and the old people there were once able to move around, feed themselves, and do things on their own, now they just sit around looking like awakened dead. It scares me!!! If that ever becomes me; I would rather die than put that burden on someone else.
Anyways; it's a bunch of morbid thoughts on my b-day. A turning point b-day too supposedly. Oh well, there is always tommorrow, but it's not to be taken for granted, for who knows what it may be holding, only God. So I guess enjoy it as much as you can to the last drop.
Thanks for listening journal; I love you dearly,
Love your pal,
Ben
