6-26-2004 continued...
I was thinking of some of the things that being tagged �morbidly� obese causes and prevents and why I hate it.  Morbidly obese is such a horrid word.  Why can�t they say festively plump or well rounded or very bodily mature?  I don�t understand why they have to tag you such a bad word when you feel so bad about yourself all the time anyways, well me anyways.  So here goes my list of what this 'thing' has done to me:

***My clothes that start with more than one "X".
***Tying my shoes (and my shoes are always tied on the side because my stomach gets in the way of a perfect middle bow).
***Shopping is no fun.
***Never finding clothes that fit.
***If I do find clothes that fit, they're too ugly for words.
***Running out of clothes to wear because I cannot fit in them anymore.
***Running out of breath just to tie my shoes, put on my clothes, drying myself after a shower, or walking from the parking lot.
***How about being the only fat bridesmaid and knowing the bride had to choose a style and brand to accommodate you?
***Try buying a dress when your bust size is 48/50 and your hips are size 48.
***Thinnd pants material in the inner thigh area due to chub-rub.
***Dropping food on my shirt, as usual beause it bounces on my fat rolls before hitting the floor.
***Wearing shorts under a dress so my thighs don't spontaneously combust from heat rash.
***Crying in the dressing room while trying on clothes that don't fit.
***Wearing pants in the summer so I don't expose anyone to my chubby legs.
***Making sure that any skirts or dresses I do wear is ankle-length.
***Not being able to wear sexy bras or panties.
***Chokers living up to their name.
***Bath towels that don't even begin to cover me.
***Being the only person in a cold room needing no coat or sweater.
***Always wondering if my blouses and jackets are long enough to cover my stomach.
***Clothes shopping is the most depressing and humiliating experience possible.
***Feeling like "Jabba the Hutt" when sitting on my couch at home.
***Not being able to cross my legs.
***Fat Thigh Syndrome
***Someone saying suck in my tummy when I already am so that they can pass by me.
***Only looking for jobs where I can sit all day because my knees, hips, and back can't take anymore.
***I stay tired all the time.
***I have a fear of falling.
***Getting out of bed in the morning feeling tired and achy.
***Rashes that never leave
***Afraid of dying.
***Rolling over and getting on my knees and then struggling to pull myself up...JUST to get out of the bathtub.
***Not being able to dry my hair completely without having to stop to rest my arms.
***Wanting to "paint my toenails" but don't because I can't reach them well enough to do a good job.
***Not being able to hold a child in my lap because there isn't one.
***Feeling trapped within my own body.
***Always sweaty and hot, even when it's below zero.
***Wanting to mountain climb, hike, camp, roller blade, bike ride, run a marathon, do a handstand...and not being able to.
***When my family thinks I am lazy because I do not want to unload the dish washer; but it really hurts so much to lean down and up, over and over again.
***Not having a hair cut that looks right because my head is so fat.
***Reading a book, and having my chin sit on my chest.
***Stretch marks from hell...and NOT from having children.
***How about knowing my house is usually messy because I don't feel like cleaning or picking things up? It takes so much energy to do the little things.
***If I try to keep the pace with everyone else when walking, I get leg cramps...but...if I walk at my own pace, people are whizzing by me like I'm in the Indy 500!
***Severe and constant physical and emotional pain.
***Being physically unable to do things I used to enjoy.
***Being a member of the only minority group that it is still politically correct to ridicule, abuse, and discriminate against.
***Having every health issue, from bladder infections to in-grown toenails, blamed on my weight.
***Back pain from standing, doing the simple task of washing dishes.
***Waddling like a penguin.
***Hearing people tell me daily "You are so pretty (?) in the face, why don't you start exercising more?"
***Feeling that everyone is looking at me.
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