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| I was thinking of some of the things that being tagged �morbidly� obese causes and prevents and why I hate it. Morbidly obese is such a horrid word. Why can�t they say festively plump or well rounded or very bodily mature? I don�t understand why they have to tag you such a bad word when you feel so bad about yourself all the time anyways, well me anyways. So here goes my list of what this 'thing' has done to me: ***My clothes that start with more than one "X". ***Tying my shoes (and my shoes are always tied on the side because my stomach gets in the way of a perfect middle bow). ***Shopping is no fun. ***Never finding clothes that fit. ***If I do find clothes that fit, they're too ugly for words. ***Running out of clothes to wear because I cannot fit in them anymore. ***Running out of breath just to tie my shoes, put on my clothes, drying myself after a shower, or walking from the parking lot. ***How about being the only fat bridesmaid and knowing the bride had to choose a style and brand to accommodate you? ***Try buying a dress when your bust size is 48/50 and your hips are size 48. ***Thinnd pants material in the inner thigh area due to chub-rub. ***Dropping food on my shirt, as usual beause it bounces on my fat rolls before hitting the floor. ***Wearing shorts under a dress so my thighs don't spontaneously combust from heat rash. ***Crying in the dressing room while trying on clothes that don't fit. ***Wearing pants in the summer so I don't expose anyone to my chubby legs. ***Making sure that any skirts or dresses I do wear is ankle-length. ***Not being able to wear sexy bras or panties. ***Chokers living up to their name. ***Bath towels that don't even begin to cover me. ***Being the only person in a cold room needing no coat or sweater. ***Always wondering if my blouses and jackets are long enough to cover my stomach. ***Clothes shopping is the most depressing and humiliating experience possible. ***Feeling like "Jabba the Hutt" when sitting on my couch at home. ***Not being able to cross my legs. ***Fat Thigh Syndrome ***Someone saying suck in my tummy when I already am so that they can pass by me. ***Only looking for jobs where I can sit all day because my knees, hips, and back can't take anymore. ***I stay tired all the time. ***I have a fear of falling. ***Getting out of bed in the morning feeling tired and achy. ***Rashes that never leave ***Afraid of dying. ***Rolling over and getting on my knees and then struggling to pull myself up...JUST to get out of the bathtub. ***Not being able to dry my hair completely without having to stop to rest my arms. ***Wanting to "paint my toenails" but don't because I can't reach them well enough to do a good job. ***Not being able to hold a child in my lap because there isn't one. ***Feeling trapped within my own body. ***Always sweaty and hot, even when it's below zero. ***Wanting to mountain climb, hike, camp, roller blade, bike ride, run a marathon, do a handstand...and not being able to. ***When my family thinks I am lazy because I do not want to unload the dish washer; but it really hurts so much to lean down and up, over and over again. ***Not having a hair cut that looks right because my head is so fat. ***Reading a book, and having my chin sit on my chest. ***Stretch marks from hell...and NOT from having children. ***How about knowing my house is usually messy because I don't feel like cleaning or picking things up? It takes so much energy to do the little things. ***If I try to keep the pace with everyone else when walking, I get leg cramps...but...if I walk at my own pace, people are whizzing by me like I'm in the Indy 500! ***Severe and constant physical and emotional pain. ***Being physically unable to do things I used to enjoy. ***Being a member of the only minority group that it is still politically correct to ridicule, abuse, and discriminate against. ***Having every health issue, from bladder infections to in-grown toenails, blamed on my weight. ***Back pain from standing, doing the simple task of washing dishes. ***Waddling like a penguin. ***Hearing people tell me daily "You are so pretty (?) in the face, why don't you start exercising more?" ***Feeling that everyone is looking at me. |
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