For the rest of the shift June was extremely quiet. She just got on with her work and tried to avoid Jim as much as possible, as she feared that if Jim started asking questions about Peter, she would end up telling him every thing and that wouldn't be fair on him. At the end of the shift she went to the locker room to collect her belongings. As she was putting her coat on, she knocked her bag onto the floor. The contents of her bag went everywhere; she slowly picked everything up and placed them back into her bag. She picked up an envelope which was addressed to her, it was the letter Jim had left her two years ago before he left Sunhill. Tears started to run down her face, she quickly placed the envelope into her bag and left the room in a hurry. She quickly walked past reception, trying to avoid every one, and then as she walked down the corridor she heard this familiar voice calling her "June" Jim shouted, "Wait."
"I can't."
"June, what's wrong?" Jim asked.
"Nothing, its nothing, I am fine." June replied.
"June this is me you are talking to."
"Oh Jim just leave it please." She cried
"I can't do that June." Jim replied, "You're upset, and I want to know why. Come up to CSU please, no one is there."
June reluctantly agreed and followed him to CSU; They went into her office, she wiped her eyes and sat down. Jim closed the door and sat on the edge of the desk in front of her. "June what's wrong?" he asked
"Nothing, I told you." she insisted.
"Why the tears then? Is it something I have done"?
"No, no of course not." June replied with tears flowing down her cheeks "oh Jim, why is life never simple."
"What do you mean?" Jim asked.
"It's Peter, he has been sleeping with some young beautiful girl." June sobbed.
"What! He did what? Oh June I am so sorry. Right I am not going to let him hurt you like this" Jim said as he walked towards the door.
"Jim where are you going?"
"To find Peter."
He does still have feelings for me, she thought to herself; otherwise he wouldn't be acting like he is.
"No Jim please don't." June cried.
"Ok, but�"
"Please, you will only end up getting into trouble." June said
June got up and slowly walked over to where Jim was standing, he could see her tears glistening in the light. He put his hand onto her cheek and wiped away the tears. "Jim I had better go." June whispered.
"No, not in this state." Jim replied.
"I'll be alright."
She went to open the door to leave and Jim interrupted her. "June, I still love you, you know."
June paused and slowly turned around to face him. "I have never stopped loving you. I was a coward two years ago, I couldn't face you to say goodbye, I really wanted to but I couldn't."
"So you just left me a letter." Jim sobbed.
"Yes, it was the only way I could express my feelings for you. When we split up, I couldn't cope, I felt like a piece of me had been taken away June. I couldn't go on pretending that I didn't love you, I couldn't work with you day in day out knowing I couldn't touch you, kiss you, it was all too much for me. And then when Matt died I just needed to go and I couldn't face telling you."
"You left when I really needed you Jim, Matt one of our best friends had just died, and you decided to do a runner."
"I know, I am sorry. I felt guilty." Jim said wiping away a small tear
"It wasn't your fault, he died of a heart attack."
"I know but if I hadn't asked him to assist me then�"
"No Jim it wasn't your fault."
"I know."
"Every time the phone rang I wished and longed for it to be you, but it never was. I remember once when I went to the park with Tony and Polly, I thought I saw you. My heart started to beat faster and I walked over to this man and when I realised it wasn't you I was so disappointed it hurt Jim." June cried.
"Oh June I am sorry."
"At Matt's funeral, everyone was there to mourn for Matt but all I could think of was you. Where you were? What you were doing? It drove me crazy."
"I nearly phoned you once, but I lost my bottle, it was about three weeks after I left and I didn't think you would want to talk to me. I was too scared of rejection."
"If you were so scared of rejection why did you decide to come back?" June asked.
"I don't know really, I suppose it was an excuse to see you again. When Jack asked me if I would like my job back, my instant thought was yes. I have longed to see you for years and I got quite excited at the thought of seeing you again even though I was scared of what you would say and do." Jim said.
"And then when you came back, you saw me with Peter" June added
"Yes. It felt like my nightmare had come true, I had lost you forever and it was all my fault." Jim said wiping away a tear. "Every time I saw you it got harder and harder and eventually, I decided coming back was a big mistake. I went and told Jack I wanted a transfer but he persuaded me to stay." Jim continued.
"I'm glad he did." June replied.
"Are you?"
"Yes." June whispered.
"Ah listen to me going on about the past, I don't blame you for moving on. It was stupid of me to think otherwise."
"No it wasn't." June said and then she paused "Jim, I missed you."
"Did you?"
"Yes, I did. When I saw you again, I�"
"You thought, oh no what's he doing here." Jim smiled.
"No. I was surprised of how my feelings re - surfaced. I thought I had got over you but� Jim, I still love you too." June wept. "Oh Jim I have missed you so much."
Jim walked towards her and her heart started beating faster and then suddenly they both reached out and hugged each other. They clung tightly as if they never wanted to let go.
"Oh June."
"Shush." June said. She looked up and she kissed him slowly and tenderly on the lips.
Meanwhile Gina was searching for June as she had heard June had been upset about something. She came up to CSU and knocked on her office and then entered. She looked up and saw Jim and June kissing. "Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt." Gina said.
June broke away from Jim but he stood there holding her hand, it was as if he was scared of losing her again. "It's ok." Jim replied, "What can I do for you?"
"Nothing, I was looking for June that's all, to see if she was alright, but obviously she is." Gina smiled.
"Yes I am fine." June replied squeezing Jim's hand.
"What about Peter, June?" Gina asked.
"It's over, he had been seeing someone else."
"Oh I am sorry."
"It doesn't matter now. In fact he's done me a favour, if it wasn't for him, Jim and I wouldn't be back together." June said and then she looked at Jim and he kissed her.
"Well I will leave you to it and its nice to see you together, again." Gina laughed.
"Thank you." Jim said.
Gina left and Jim held June in his arms. "Jim.'
"Yes"
"You will never leave me again will you?" June said looking worried.
"June, I have something to tell you."
"Oh no Jim don't tell me you are leaving, please." June cried.
"You know when I told you I spoke to Jack about a transfer."
"Yes."
"Well Jack persuaded me to stay because he offered me a six month contract."
June broke free from Jim's arms. "So you mean after six months, that's it, you are leaving Sun Hill, leaving me?" June shouted
"No, calm down." Jim said putting his arm on her shoulder.
"Get off me."
"June please, listen." Jim pleaded.
"All this talk about loving me, I should have known it wasn't true." June cried as she picked up her bag and coat.
"June where are you going."
"Home."
"June please."
"Leave me alone Jim." June sobbed as she ran down the corridor leaving Jim angry with himself for not handling that better and completing what he wanted to say. He watched as she went down the stairs and as she disappeared once again, he was left deciding whether to go after her or leave her.
End of Part 4
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