Laura and I met twenty years ago. We did all our schooling together and became best friends since the first day. We grew up together. In truth, more than friends, we have been like sisters. I know everything about her and she knows everything about me.
For some reason, she made some steps in a wrong direction and everything changed between us since that. We took different paths.
She had a baby girl five months ago.
I went visit her last Friday. The baby is gorgeous, what can I say.
Laura is so changed. It made me feel awkward...like we have so different lives right now. (it's true, we do have different lives).
We didn't talk much. I was quiet and a little shocked, I have to admit.
My friend, my sister...now she is a mother, concerned about her child and about domestic stuff. She is happy with her baby (anyone can see that) but there was something...and I am positive to think that she got what she has always wanted...but at the wrong time and with the wrong guy. Her eyes told me that..and she knew I realized with just a look, as usual.
Well..it seems we both have made some steps. (I don't know yet if
both of us in the wrong direction). What I do know, is that all those
steps guided us to what we are right now...to who we are.
(watch your next step, Ju..what you are is a direct consequence of what you have done until now).
I am proud of who I am. Proud of what I did and of the steps I have made.
I still have to learn alot but I am at peace with myself. I did what I
thought was the right thing to be done. I don't have any regrets. And that is the first step to find happiness again...to find myself back, to find a clue for who I am.
29 february
7 pm
